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Post by LARK MARIE HARPER on Mar 18, 2012 20:33:28 GMT -5
Lark had no idea what she was doing. It seemed dangerous and stupid, and on top of that it would put the leader in jeopardy. She was insensitive but knew what the consequences were for being cordial with people outside of their element and ally. Ashton was a nice guy, and would feel awful if something happened to him because of this. The valentine's event was already pushing the limit, and that was planned by the faculty. A fight actually broke out with her and a Thunder student not too long after that day; Lark did not back down. She did not come out so well, but it was worth it. She had been innocent, as had been Ashton. The fight was unnecessary. Shaking her head, the brunette leaned up against a nearby wall in the hallway to await the release of class. She was not quite sure which one he was in, but after asking around to a few oblivious students she managed to narrow down the possibilities. Lark could feel her heart palpitating heavily in her chest, the butterflies of anxiety bursting to life in her stomach. This was not a feeling she dealt with all that often. It was weakening.
A while back Lark spent time talking to Josh about all of this; her doubts with her element, the urge to take up sides with him, everything. It had been a fruitful discussion, but at the time she was still incredibly torn. Lark had a deep loyalty to the things she held close, and for the past three years all she knew were the fires and thunders. When Joshua left, however, things altered. The loyalty she felt towards her friend was deeper than that of her allies in entirety. She tried to hold on to the last strands she had of her alliance, such as Sam and Brett, but those were dwindling slowly into nothing. Sam was busy with Harley she assumed, which was great--she wanted to see Samson happy--and Brett was now estranged. Jack was gone, had been for a while, and that was about it. She had Mr. Cadmus, but he was a professor and the relationship there was slightly different. Soon, the bell rang and within moments students began to file out of the classrooms like a stream of water.
Her eyes flitted from one face to the next, searching for the one that was most important at the moment. A few of her fellow fires walked by and patted her on the shoulder or nodded in acknowledgment, to which she returned the favor to keep up the appearance. Some of them were not all that bad, and Lark did not mind their presence, but over all she just wanted to find a place where she felt she could belong. Somewhere she felt wanted, or useful, or anything but the way she was feeling now. That was why she wanted to find Ashton--to talk to him about all of this and see what would happen should she find solace with his element and that of the Waters. Finally, just as she was about to give up and wait another day to search another set of classrooms, Lark caught sight of him leaving a classroom farther down the hallway. With a brisk but smooth pace the girl walked towards him, making sure no one was watching. She almost felt like some sort of ninja. As quick as she could, Lark reached out and touched his arm hesitantly to gain his attention. "I need to talk to you," Was all she said before motioning with her head towards an empty classroom off to the side. They could move to another location once the area cleared out, but for now this was the best she could do with what she had. Without waiting for anyone to see, Lark looked at him with pleading eyes before walking into the classroom. All she could do was hope he wanted to listen and help.
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Post by ASHTON CAMDEN RALEIGH on Mar 19, 2012 9:01:22 GMT -5
The last fifteen minutes of class were not spent listening to the professor as they probably should have been. Instead, Ashton and his partner found themselves playing a rather intense game of hangman while they waited for the bell to ring that would release them from their prison for the day. They had both set up their own game and were guessing back and forth, deciding that the first one to hang was the loser. That way they both got their share of fun. "Uh, okay," said Ashton, glancing up quickly to make sure the teacher was not watching them before he turned his attention to the little lines at the bottom of the paper. "Is there a C?" His friend shook his head and Ashton groaned as the first leg was added to the figure. Two more strikes and he was out. "How about E?" Ashton pursed his lips and reluctantly filled in the letter. His friend cackled his triumph and then stiffened with a self-conscious glance toward the front of the room. The professor was glaring at the pair of them and Ashton ducked his head. The man frowned but went back to what he was saying and the Earth leader breathed a sigh of relief, believing that they'd gotten away with it for the time being. "Alright, er... F?" He didn't have any high hopes but his friend rolled his eyes and sketched an F in as the first letter.
F _ R _ S T
He hadn't guessed any vowels yet but Ashton had to resist slapping his hand down when he realised something. "Forest!" he said in a hushed but excited voice. He knew by the expression on his friend's face that he'd won. "Really? Forest? Could you get any more generic?" His friend stuck out his tongue in an immature gesture that nevertheless made the Earth chuckle. The bell rang and interrupted their fun and Ashton started to work on clearing his papers while his friend got up and joined the crowd filtering out into the hallway. "Mr. Raleigh," said the cool voice of the professor when he had stood up and was almost at the door. "A word, if you please." Chewing the inside of his lip, Ashton turned and stayed where he was, waiting. "Your grades are dropping," the man said sternly. "If you want to spend your time fooling around, it won't be my fault if they... slip below the passing mark." It was a threat, not even a disguised one, and Ashton swallowed nervously. "Sorry," he said sheepishly, wondering why his friend wasn't getting this treatment. He then reminded himself that the other Earth was near the top of the class and had been fooling around because his work was already finished. "Next time it'll be detention and a possible fail." He waved his hand toward the door in dismissal.
He was silently worrying over his slipping grades and so did not notice Lark until she touched her hand to his arm. He gave a start of surprise and turned, his emerald eyes wide when he saw who it was. He glanced around in mild panic, relieved to see that they were alone, and didn't protest when she said that they needed to talk. He had no idea what it would be about but the sanctuary of the empty classroom was a lot safer than the hallway. It wouldn't remain devoid of students for long. When they were inside the room he closed and locked it behind them, jerking his head toward the back of the classroom so that it was impossible for someone to look through the window of the door and their voices would be better disguised. "Lark, right?" He'd only spoken to her once but Ashton was a friendly guy and he remembered most of the folks he became acquainted with. "What did you want to talk about? It must be important if you're willing to put us both in danger." There was the slightest hint of an edge to his voice. He was protective of his position and he didn't want to lose it. "We can't make a habit of this." He recalled Asha and how much of a mistake that had been. He wasn't keen on a repeat experience but perhaps what Lark had to say was important. He went silent and waited for her to speak.
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Post by LARK MARIE HARPER on Mar 19, 2012 16:38:04 GMT -5
Once Lark entered the room she took a few steps back from the door. Ashton followed shortly after and closed the door behind him, locking it to ensure no passing students did not have the urge to wander in on them. She moved to the back of the room and leaned against the far wall, towards the corner along the wall of the door so no one could peek in and see her. This was endangering Ashton, and she knew it. "Yeah," The girl replied in question to her name. She was surprised he even remembered it, but then again she remembered his. He's the earth leader, a bit different. After Lark found out about who he was it made it difficult to just...forget his name and face. The sounds outside dwindled to nothing and she stood there in silence for a moment before looking up at him. Her heart clenched. Guilt weighed heavily on her chest, making it difficult to breathe. She was putting Ashton in danger for this. For a conversation. Lark dropped her gaze again and slid down the wall, bringing her knees to her chest. "I..." How was she supposed to start this anyway? "I wouldn't have put your job on the line just to say hi, Ashton. That would be ridiculous. Besides, I'm not worried about myself." She hardly risked it with her own best friend, for both of their sakes. Lark had had enough of that though.
At Ashton's next comment, Lark looked up and felt as though she were swallowing sandpaper. This was a bad idea. She knew it was. Now he was in danger, all because of something that he might not even deem to be a big deal. "I had no one else I could go to about this, otherwise I would have not bothered you.." She stated flatly, adjusting her dark hair with a finger. Lark wanted to get up and leave, to let Ashton go his way so he would not be in jeopardy. "Because you're probably the only one who knows what to do, or at least...can offer up advice." She had been rattling her brain for quite some time, sorting out possible questions and being sure they were actually worth asking. She wanted to ensure that he could actually answer them. But now that Lark was sitting there looking up at him everything seemed to drift out of the window, and she felt like a mute. The guilt, the frustration, everything was drowning out her train of thought. Lark let her chin drop to her knees as she stared at the carpet.
"I wanted to talk to you about switching sides," Lark's breath hitched in her throat, making it hard to speak. Her voice was quiet and meek, which was nothing like Lark. She was always bold, confident, and almost always found something to say. Or, at least, knew how to act confident. It was usually so easy to cover up her insecurities and fears, but that was not happening today. Fortunately Ashton was no enemy, and her fight or flight instinct was subdued. "It's been something I've been thinking about since last year. I just...I don't know what all entails with that. I know it won't be easy," Lark added rather hastily, tearing her gaze away from the carpet to look at him again. "And I don't expect full blown acceptance right away. I just...my heart is just not where people want it to be. Or well, expect it to be." Would Ashton turn away from her and tell her that it was a lost cause? Or laugh and leave her to sit there on the floor? No...he didn't seem to be that sort of person. Though her judgments had been faulty in the past and was not going to expect a certain response yet. Whatever happened, happened. All she could do was hope for the best.
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Post by ASHTON CAMDEN RALEIGH on Mar 19, 2012 17:03:22 GMT -5
Ashton felt his irritation diminishing as the girl in front of him seemed to deflate a little. She didn't seem as rough around the edges as a lot of the Fires were, though Ashton knew from limited experience that the Fire elementals could be pleasant toward the right people. It wasn't who you were but what you were in this school. It was a sad reality but it was one that most, Ashton included, accepted without much of a fight. The alliances were as old as the school itself—as long as it had been a school, anyway. It was to his understanding that elemental affiliations had existed even before the Academy had opened. Prejudice had occurred. The settlements were often purely consisted of a single element or at least two allied elements, with Winds as drifters or in colonies of their own. He didn't know the specifics but he did know what it meant for the alliances. It was in the blood. "Alright, as long as it's important," he said, dipping his head. His tone no longer carried the bitter edge. He was used to Fire elementals having his worst interests in mind and so his reaction to Lark had been almost automatic. Ashton was not a mean person in any respect but he could definitely get defensive at times. He knew how to stand up for himself, too, which was probably why he of all the guys in his element had been chosen as a leader.
He was usually not surprised when people came to him for comfort and advice. Ashton was like a giant teddy bear to his friends, always willing to offer hugs and warm words if they had something on their mind. Then again, his surprise this time around had more to do with whom it was he was speaking with. He was used to Earths, mainly, even Waters and the occasional Wind. Not anyone else. However, it wasn't in his personality to outright refuse to listen. He did not have to help her but he would at least let her put her words out there for him to hear. He would do it for any Fire no matter where they were in terms of the alliance. Any Thunder, too. He gave people chances. Not always as friends (in fact, hardly ever as friends when it came to opposing elements) but as people. "If you think I can help you in some way, I'll listen. I can't promise anything beyond that, though. You understand, right?" His position and his standing would need to come first. He did not seek to offend Lark or make her feel disliked but it was his duty to defend the alliances. When Lark mentioned these alliances, he did not try to disguise the surprise in his features. He did not immediately speak, instead dipping his head and gesturing with his hand for her to say what it was she needed to. His mind was whirring but he would let her get out what was on her mind before he interrupted.
As a leader with over a year's seniority, Ashton did understand that it was also his responsibility to cater to those who fell out with their own side and wandered over to his. Any leader approached with such a problem was expected to deal with it. He had an option when it came to dealing with Lark, though—a choice. He could turn her away if he wanted to. Luckily for the Fire elemental, he wasn't so quick to make his decisions. "What all entails?" he repeated, furrowing his brow with a frown. "What do you mean? Are you asking what you have to do or what will happen when you do it?" He thought to the traitors that the school did have and how they were recieved. Some fared better than others. Some weren't accepted by their new "allies" and those students became the absolute bottom of the school's social ladder. No one, not even the Winds, associated with them. It was a bit rare to be rejected by both sides but it certainly was possible. "I suppose I can understand that," he said fairly. He knew that not everyone felt at home within their element. Once again, it was rare, but rare did not mean it never happened. "You've certainly approached the right person," he admitted. It was his job. "If you're asking whether or not the Earth element will accept you, I can't speak for all of them, but I can give them my opinion. It would help." An element generally looked to its leaders for guidance. "Is there any strong reason you want to switch sides?"
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Post by LARK MARIE HARPER on Mar 19, 2012 19:36:47 GMT -5
"Of course," Lark replied, still looking and feeling incredibly guilty. Maybe this would not take too long and Ashton could go on his way. He had every right to feel edgy with her too, being as her element was not exactly kind or loving towards the other elements. "All I ask is that you listen. I don't expect anything more. Promise." When Lark made a promise, she held to it. She could hope for more, but would not sit there and hold it to Ashton to give her something he might not be able to give. That was not fair to the Earth leader by any means, and nor was it fair to her. It was just setting herself up for disappointment, if no help could be given. She sighed and glanced around the room for a moment before catching his eyes again, nodding at his question. It seemed that it was not very well put, so Lark attempted to try and come up with a better way to word it. Ashton came up with a few wordings himself, which was helpful considering Lark's mind was buzzing in a million different directions. It was hard to focus. "I guess both? I'm...not well practiced in this sort of thing so I wanna make sure that I do this right, and know what to expect."
Lark's shoulders fell in relief when Ashton seemed to understand what she was getting at. She was never an expert at explaining how she felt or how to deal with some of the feelings, which was probably why she resorted to anger when things became too much to handle. Lately the flame had diminished, but that did not mean she had full control twenty-four seven. Music seemed to help a great deal though. "I'm glad you can understand it a little bit," She admitted, smiling a little to show her gratitude. The only person who might have remotely found some common ground with how she felt might have been Josh, but even he seemed to miss the Fires. Lark nodded a little, glad that he took the time to stop and talk to her, and the fact that he was the person she needed to discuss this with. If it wasn't, the guilt would have been even greater for taking up his time. Lost in thought, Lark jolted back into reality when he spoke again. She tilted her head a little bit and frowned, swallowing the chunk of lead that formed in her chest. "Opinion?" Great. This was going to go over well. Ashton had nothing but her element and her name. They had one conversation, and it had been forced. What good was that going to do? Lark ran a hand through her hair and closed her eyes, turning to rest her cheek on her knees.
"Giving an opinion about me would practically be lying, Ashton, since you have nothing to go off of." She blinked back tears, her voice going quiet. "This isn't fair to you. I'm sorry." If there was one thing Lark hardly did to anyone, it was apologize outright. She might have made a comment that sounded apologetic, or at least given them a look that let them know she was sorry, but the last--and possibly only--person that heard that word come out of her mouth was Josh. And just as the fire elemental crossed through her mind Ashton asked about her reasons. A faint smile graced her lips as she turned her head upright to look at him. "Besides my growing dislike for my 'allies'? Josh." Was all she said. There was no hesitation, no faltering, no doubts. Lark was not sure if Ashton knew him, but why wouldn't he? Joshua betrayed his element for Nell. It had been a pretty big deal. And Nell was Earth, who was in his element. "Josh is my best friend, has been for years. Like a brother. I'm tired of not being able to see him...and it's not fair to him for me to be over here and expect him to risk his good standing. He has more to lose than I do." Lark quickly wiped her face and cleared her throat before leaning her head back to look at the ceiling. It was one of the few times she displayed tears or weakness in front of anyone but her best friend and possibly her family (though they did not really count any more). "I don't...I don't have a lot of people in my life I know I can truly count on." She looked at him briefly, her lip twitching downward for a brief moment. "He's pretty much all I have."
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Post by ASHTON CAMDEN RALEIGH on Mar 20, 2012 8:56:24 GMT -5
Ashton's lips twitched in what might have been sympathy, though it was hard to tell. "Not many people are." Most of the school stuck hard to the alliances and the students never had a clear reason to betray their element. Thus, the knowledge on traitors and how exactly to become one was rusty or non-existent in the minds of most. Some managed the easy way by making their loyalties known in a war, which was about as clear a picture as could be sent. Times of peace were a little different and so their methods were also changed. "Well first I have to ask—are you a day student? It's easier that way." It wasn't simple to shelter an enemy elemental permanently in the dormitories. It could be done, yes, but it meant talking to the Academy's staff and making sure they knew about it. It wasn't to say it was out of the question, it was merely simpler when the student didn't stay overnight at the Academy to begin with and thus had nothing to lose by being blocked out of the dormitories. "If you are, it's just a matter of changing who you hang around. Cutting old ties, forming new ones." It meant slicing away those friendships in the alliance you were betraying and starting anew on the other side. "Are you really ready to do that? Your element probably won't take you back, no matter what regrets you have." He said it slowly and carefully, not wanting to offend but wanting to make sure she was aware of the risks.
Scratching the back of his neck, Ashton was quiet for a moment as he thought about what else he should tell her. He'd only had this discussion once or twice. It was more than a lot of leaders, given the rarity of traitors, but that didn't make the situation any less pressing. One thing he forgets to mention and he could risk messing things up for Lark and for himself. "Once people are aware that you're a traitor, it usually takes them a few weeks or even a couple of months to accept you as one of them, at least completely. It might be a bit slow but... they're only looking out for themselves." The elementals were always wary of someone from a side they were used to opposing. He knew that it had been that way for all traitors of the Academy thus far. It wasn't a matter of changing sides and having everyone love you within two seconds. "If you want advice, I'd say to be honest and as genuine as possible." The Earth elementals and most of the Waters responded the best when they felt they could trust a person. He wasn't asking her to be open, merely to admit her reasons for switching sides and to give them a sense of security. He observed her, feeling bad for how crushed she seemed to be. "That's why I'm asking you these things," he pointed out. "If it's any comfort, I don't think you're lying." She seemed to be in a pretty bad place so his opinion of her was a good one. Sometimes Ashton could be a little too trusting.
He was not sure how he felt to know that one of the traitors on the side of the Earths and Waters was associated with Fire elementals, but then he calmed himself with the reminder that Lark was considering a switch, too. There were weak points in every alliance. And more than most, Ashton could understand the pull of a friendship, of a relationship. He didn't think he could have betrayed his element for Asha but the fact that he'd stopped to consider it even once spoke volumes for how love or companionship could affect a person. "If you're positive about switching sides, the best I can do is let my element know that you're not a threat. I can't speak for the Water element but if we accept you, chances are they might, too." If Water accepted a traitor into their midst, the Earths would not be immediately friendly toward the other side, no. But if they realised that their allies trusted the newcomer then they'd come around eventually. Sometimes it didn't happen but there was a strong chance of it. Strong enough that he didn't feel the need to outline the risk further. "I'll have to talk to my partner, too, but she usually trusts me." They worked well together. "You have my backing," he told her. "It's up to you to do the rest, I think." She'd need to make it official on her own terms by creating her new bonds with the side she wanted to switch to. He wondered whether or not she would.
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Post by LARK MARIE HARPER on Mar 20, 2012 10:54:22 GMT -5
Lark was slowly falling into a more comfortable sense of security with Ashton; not that he had been intimidating in the beginning, but knowing that he held the power to tell her no placed her there. She was sure the Earth could hold his own though; why would they have chosen a leader that would crumble under the slightest bit of pressure? A very faint gleam of admiration crossed her features, but it was brief. "Oh, yeah...I'm a day student. I used to stay in the dorms, but I live at home now." The word 'home' passed her lips in a bit of a hiss, but did not take notice. Her home was no longer a home. It was simply a roof over her head so she did not have to sleep in a box. Frank had been steadily getting worse, so Lark did wind up spending a lot of time outside of the home, but that did not mean she slept on a park bench. The more she thought about it, the more Lark realized why she might have resented her element more than she should have. Her parents were both fires, and took it upon themselves to keep her elemental powers a secret. No heads up, no warning, no nothing. She had to find out the hard way, and was then shipped off to the school after that. Lark watched as her parent's relationship fell apart, watched (and felt) what Frank did on a daily basis. Her resentment towards them seemed to fuel this decision even further, and it had taken until now to realize that. "Fortunately I don't have a lot of ties to anyone so that won't be much of a problem." There was no need to go into detail on that one. She figured that Ashton could see that she had nothing to hold her there, otherwise they wouldn't be discussing this now. Lark looked at him with a nod. "I won't have any regrets."
Why would Lark want the Fires and Thunders to take her back anyway? It would have been different if she had a lot more friends that she felt she could trust, or if she had a significant other among her allies, but she had neither of those. Some of the ones she felt to be trustworthy had dwindled away and Lark refused to force them to spend time with her. She did not like putting that on Josh either, but he had already stated that he would be there. That made the difference. "I understand," Lark replied, scratching at her neck. "I definitely don't expect a giant welcome wagon with flowers and confetti for sure. But having someone I already know will help a great deal." Having Joshua around would alleviate any alienation Lark might feel, as would Nell (at least, she hoped). Ashton did not know how alone Lark truly felt with her element. A smile twitched at the corner of her lips as she looked up at him. "That's all I've ever been. I hate liars and fakes. I don't know if I could outright lie even if I wanted to." Although Lark had her temper as a downfall, she was honest and genuine almost to a fault. She was almost blunt in her honesty at times, and was not afraid to tell people how it is. Recently she's tip-toed more than usual because of spending time with her best friend, but never lied outright to someone's face. Don't forget that one time with Altair when she questioned you about Josh. It killed Lark to lie to the girl's face, but it was out of protection for her friend. If it had only involved her own well-being, she would not have cared.
"I'm glad you don't think I'm lying," Lark sighed a bit of relief, hugging her knees tight for a moment before releasing them and letting one fall to the floor, the other still upright to support her arm and chin. It was more of a comfort than Ashton realized. She was not sure if he was wary, but if he was that was understandable. "Thanks," She replied, knowing full well that he did not have to go to the extent he was going. Telling someone that an opposing element was not a threat was a lot to swallow after what they did to the Earths over the years, and knew that it would take adjusting and coming around to accepting her. At least she did not switch sides without having someone there already. That would have made things difficult. Ashton had helped her more than he knew, but was not going to voice this aloud. Lark had already revealed enough weakness for one day and would rather keep a little of her dignity in tact. She would thank him one day, though. Lark exhaled a little and stood up part-way, back still leaning against the wall. "And you have my backing, one-hundred percent." Lark would fight for him. She wouldn't back down. "I'll do what's necessary to let the others know that too." Pushing away from the wall, the brunette offered Ashton her hand, to which she added a smile and a nod. "Thanks again. I'll let you get back to whatever it is you need to do. You can leave first. I'll come out in about five minutes." That would give them ample time to ensure no one noticed their meeting. She might be switching sides but as it had not been made official yet she was not going to take any chance at getting Ashton in trouble.
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