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Post by LARK MARIE HARPER on Feb 5, 2012 14:33:22 GMT -5
Out of the ground I rise to grace Nobody knows it's just a phase Help me I'm out of breath again Nobody knows somewhere to make it go away OUTFIT.
Dark brown eyes carefully glanced over the book spines lining the shelves of the library; it was quiet, and the only faint noises to be heard was the mutterings of students who were gathered around a nearby table. Light filtered in from the large windows surrounding the tower, giving a bit of a homely feel to the aisles of books and chairs in the room. Lark had not been in the library in a long while, mostly due to the fact that she had been avoiding most human contact for the past few months. The only one she talked to recently was Brett; he was good company, but it was not as satisfying as talking to Joshua or Samson. She had been avoiding them too. It was not their fault though, and wondered what they must have thought about her lack of communication. Her fingers nimbly ran over the books, the titles somewhat of a blur. Lark simply wanted to find a distraction, and this was the best choice at the time. Finding a book that was chosen more for its color than content, the girl slid it off of the shelf and carried it over to a seat by one of the windows. The sunlight was warm and welcoming.
With a sigh, Lark leaned back a little in the chair. She did not take time to appear ladylike, and instead sprawled out her legs as her body sank into the seat. She flipped the book open and glanced at the introduction page, mind hardly processing the words. Sleep did not come easy the night before, what with her mind buzzing from doubts, insecurities, frustrations...it was slowly piling up and stressing her out. Eyes half closed with sleep, Lark ran a hand through her hair and leaned over on her elbow. The warmth of the sun was almost putting her to sleep. I need to talk to Josh...I owe him a conversation. She recalled the last time they went for a long time without speaking, and how edgy things became. This time, however, Lark knew it was her fault and was glad to admit to it, at least to herself. Shifting a little to reach into her pocket, she whipped out her phone and found Joshua's contact. She stared at his name for a minute before opening up a new text message. "Hey Josh...haven't talked to you in a while. Things have been...shitty. If you're up for seeing me, I'm in the school library." Lark sent the message and set the phone on the arm rest before going back to the book, a new sense of energy coursing through her veins. An anxious energy, but energy none the less.
As she skimmed the pages, she began to hone in on the theme of the book. The main character seemed to struggle with the same dilemma that Lark did, only it did not deal with an elemental alliance. It was the same with either plot, though; if you chose the side you weren't meant to be on, you were marked. A traitor. Hated by those you abandoned for the other side. Would she lose Sam? Brett? Possibly. Loyalty made the decision extremely difficult, being as she did not want to abandon her two friends, but at the same time she lacked the devotion to the fires and thunders that she used to hold so dear. Things were changing. It felt...nice to have Ashton hold such a laid back conversation that did not involve a fight, or a cold stare. The meeting was a bit edgy at first being as he was Earth leader and she was fire, but after the initial strain things leveled out. She liked it. Their accepting nature was appealing. Heaving a sigh, Lark shifted to her other elbow and continued to read, wondering if Josh would want to give her the time of day.
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Post by JOSHUA DONOVAN DALE on Feb 5, 2012 20:18:19 GMT -5
As it so happened, Joshua was already in the library when his phone vibrated in his pocket. He had turned the ring tone off so as not to disturb the others studying at the same table but he did pull the offending object from his pocket to check who had messaged him. Lark, he thought, surprised. What could she want? He was, admittedly, a little miffed at how she seemed to be avoiding him. She'd made a bit of a fuss the last time they hadn't spoken in a while and this time the loss of contact seemed to be her fault entirely. Josh had actually wanted to get into contact for a couple of weeks, owing to the fact that he was now engaged and still in the process of tracking down and informing the people that mattered. He'd told Ace, Devin, and several other people that he spoke to on a semi-regular basis but he had not yet gotten a hold of Lark. The irritation faltered ever so slightly when he read the text message. Shitty. How so? He briefly considered ignoring the message out of spite, but Josh was no Thunder and he'd never been very good at ignoring the call of a friend when they seemed to be in dire straits. He had no idea what had been going on with his friend lately and if something was wrong, he couldn't resist the urge to find out about it. I hope she's alright. He glanced around at the others seated around him as if paranoid they knew who had phone. There was a Thunder at the end of the table who kept looking up and frowning at him—this made him wary, but logic denoted that they could not read his mind and thus would not know he was breaking the unspoken laws of the alliances.
His subtle shifting had not disturbed the peace of the study group but this could not last for long. The Wind seated across from him blinked when he stood and gathered his books, giving him a questioning look. "Headache," he said quietly in explanation. She nodded and went back to her own work. In truth, Joshua didn't have a headache at all. If he had, his normal remedy would be to toss back a couple of the Advil that he always kept in his back for classroom emergencies. College lectures could be long and torturous when your skull felt like it was splitting so it was best to come prepared. He'd actually started making a habit of it in high school when it came time for exams, always paranoid that he'd develop a migraine that would throw him off his game. Josh made for the stairs down to the main floor of the library as if he really was leaving, but instead he slipped between two aisles and started to wander through the shelves. He stopped every now and then, picking up a book and reading the back cover as if he was browsing for something other than a friendly face in the area. It might have seemed ridiculous to anyone else if they caught on to what he was doing but he'd already risked enough when it came to his alignment. The Earths and Waters were all he had—he'd already betrayed his own, he'd have nowhere to run if the other side wouldn't have him, either. There was Wind, of course, but they didn't make a point of harbouring traitors. They were neutral. His attempts at subtlety made progress in locating Lark slower than it could have been but as he'd already been in the library upon getting the text, it was still only minutes before he spotted her.
Instead of plopping his bag beside a chair and sitting next to her, Joshua kept a safe distance and ensured there was no one nearby before 'browsing' a shelf close to the table. Not looking at her, but rather at the brightly coloured spines of the section he perused, Josh said, "A little risky, isn't this?" His tone was not hostile but it was certainly a little guarded. He wouldn't totally relax until he both found out why she'd been ignoring him for weeks and why she had chosen a place as obvious as the library to meet up. "Don't you remember what happened the last time? Why here?" He had not liked to see the Fire elementals turn on Lark. It had angered him to realise that his existence, his friendship with her had put his friend in danger. He knew that she didn't care as much about it as he seemed to but that didn't change much about his own opinion. It wasn't just Lark's reputation he cared about—he couldn't risk being seen with her any more than she could him. "Maybe we should leave." He glanced briefly and meaningfully at her before turning his attention to the shelves again. He had included them both in the suggestion to make it clear that he would still meet her, he just wasn't sure this was the safest place.
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Post by LARK MARIE HARPER on Feb 6, 2012 13:56:23 GMT -5
Out of the ground I rise to grace Nobody knows it's just a phase Help me I'm out of breath again Nobody knows somewhere to make it go away OUTFIT.
Lark flipped through the pages of the book, glancing at her phone every few moments or so. The longer she sat there, the more she wondered why she even asked him to meet her at the library. It was on the school grounds, and they were not supposed to be talking. I definitely need to think before I make moves like this...and get more sleep. The sun continued to warm her skin, placing her into a comfortable state of peace. She was now a little on edge about Joshua seeing her--not that he would want to, and if he didn't Lark was more than understanding. It was her fault. She had been avoiding a lot of people lately. Her fingers peeled back another page, eyes barely capturing any words when she heard a voice nearby. Lark peered over the book a little bit; her eyes looked hollow and dark rings lurked beneath them from lack of sleep. Josh was here, and standing a few feet away from her going over the books on the shelf nearby. She decided to keep up appearances as well, and continued to look at her book as she spoke, voice an octave above a whisper. "Yeah, just a little," Lark replied, tilting her head to read the next page. She shifted her feet a little, trying to keep from being obvious. The only table occupied nearby was far enough away to where they couldn't hear their conversation. Luckily for us.
"Honestly, I wasn't thinking. I was already here reading when I felt the need to talk to you." Her lips pursed, the girl angry with herself for being so careless. She moved a few strands of hair from her face. "Not one of my more defining moments..." She trailed off with a bit of a sour smile, now feeling stupid for even texting him in the first place while in the tower of the academy. Lark had to admit that she was surprised he even took the time to talk to her after ignoring him for so long, and knew then that--even if he was upset with her--he was a friend she could count on. It was no excuse to ignore him though, and resolved to never go this long without talking to Joshua again. When she glanced over the top of the book again, her eyebrows rose up. So he was still interested in talking with her? A sigh of relief passed the girls lips as she flipped the page again, tired of sitting here acting like she was actually reading the damn thing. Her eyes glazed over.
After a few seconds, Lark stood up and stretched, snapping the book shut with one hand before glancing out of the window. "I agree. Where do you suggest we go?" Once Lark stretched herself out enough and emitted a rather long yawn, she dropped her shoulders and gripped the book in her hand. "You pick the place, I'll follow? I'm gonna go put this book away." Her voice was still quiet as she walked past him, making her way to the shelf where she found the book. She passed Joshua a glance before doing so, narrowing her eyes a bit as another student walked by. Lark hated pretending to dislike him, but it was safest for them both. Her mind was buzzing as she tried to think of how to talk to him, and what to say without feeling like she was burdening her friend, but it was difficult to come up with much of anything. If she told him about her doubts being allied with the fires and thunders, it was already a burden before pushing the conversation any further. A frown tugged at Lark's lips as she turned into the aisle and set the book back in its place, glancing at the other books to wait for Joshua to pass by.
[You can just pick a place and I'll have her follow. Don't worry if you have to powerplay a little bit, either. :3]
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Post by JOSHUA DONOVAN DALE on Feb 6, 2012 19:11:03 GMT -5
At first the narrowing of her eyes offended Joshua slightly, the Fire elemental wondering why she had the right to be irate with him when it was she who had been ignoring him. After a moment, the muffled sound of footsteps and a huff of boredom from the passing intruder, to whom Josh's back was turned, alerted him to what was really going on. In response, he glared back and made a noise of contempt in his throat. "What are you starting at, Harper? Mind your own business." Josh twitched his lips briefly in amusement, though he carefully forced his features back into neutrality to avoid suspicions. It was almost funny to think that they were standing here and pretending to loathe one another when they were instead defying the rules of the alliance by faking it. He dipped his head softly and subtly when she suggested getting out of the library, not bothering to reassure her about her reckless decisions. It would look suspicious if they spoke to one another too much. He kept his features arranged in a mask of cold distaste—even though the students at the other table couldn't hear their words, he worried that too much talking would gain their attention. A brief exchanged followed with Josh walking away could suggest argument, however, and so he said, "Act like I've insulted you. I'll go out to my car and wait for you; don't leave for a few minutes, just to be safe." It would look far too suspicious if they'd both left within seconds of one another. Some might assume that they were arranging to fight but he wasn't going to take the risk that no one would catch on or worse, follow.
He could feel the stares of a few other library patrons as he shook his head and started off at a brisk walk, as if something Lark had said caused him deep irritation and drove him toward the exit. He released a pent up breath once he was in the hall, feeling safer when he and Lark were not within close range to be ogled and gossiped about by others. He hated how strict the alliances were, hated how difficult it was to so much as breathe around someone that wasn't known to be on your same side. The Earths and Waters were kind to him but their tunes would change if they knew he still had connections on the other side. He passed one of them in the hall and offered a smile, his stomach fluttering as he realised how clueless other people were. And thank god for that. He remembered the brief scares with Lark and her alliance, not wanting a repeat experience. He realised that he'd forgotten to take the books out or return them to the shelves in the hurry he was in. Shit. He paused in the hall and briefly debated returning, then decided he would just put them back the next time he went in. He was sure the librarian wouldn't be too upset, seeing as the next time he entered the library would likely be in the same day and he could explain where they'd went if she was curious. He didn't plan to steal them, after all. At last, Josh reached his car and settled in the driver's side as he waited for Lark to appear. "Don't worry, parking lot's clear," he assured her. "We won't go far, we'll be back before they can miss us." It wasn't wise to leave the grounds during school hours but it also wasn't wise to meet up there.
He stuck to his word when he said they wouldn't go too far, driving for only five minutes before pulling his car to the side of the road and hopping out. They were halfway between Maple Hollow and the Academy, at a seemingly endless expanse of woods. It was perhaps a bit of an over precaution, but he was sure no one would think to look there. His car had an alarm on it and so he was confident that he'd know if anyone tried to do anything while they were away. He didn't plan to go deep into the forested area—it didn't have trails and he didn't want to get lost. He stopped a little ways in and leaned against the tree. "Sometimes I envy Nell," he remarked, looking up at the leafy canopy and then down at the ground, verdant with underbrush. "She could make a nice place to sit and everything." It was said lightly, though, for he really wouldn't give up his fiery abilities for the world. Glancing at Lark now, meeting her eyes with his steely gray ones, he got to the point. "What have you been doing? It's been a while." He tried not to sound too offended but there was the slightest hint of it in his tone. At least the last time it had been mutual. "I've been wanting to talk to you. You said things were... shitty, didn't you?" The irritation dissolved to slight concern as he recalled the tone of the text message. "Is everything alright?"
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Post by LARK MARIE HARPER on Feb 6, 2012 20:26:03 GMT -5
Out of the ground I rise to grace Nobody knows it's just a phase Help me I'm out of breath again Nobody knows somewhere to make it go away OUTFIT.
At first Lark was unsure whether or not Joshua was going to play along with her little charade, but it seemed that the other student caught his attention in time to diffuse a possible confrontation with her friend. She reeled her head back at his harsh words, which she supposed was a good reaction in front of the others. A couple of students diverted their attention on them, making Lark feel a little nervous. "Fuck off, Dale." Lark hissed, trying to retain a look of deep seeded hatred for the man. It seemed to work as the others went back to doing their own thing, leaving the room in a bit of a stale silence. She nodded at his suggestion, but it was brief as she rose her nose into the air and grunted with a dark frown on her face. In the process of walking off, she raised her middle finger as an added flair before disappearing into the aisle. As Josh passed by, her eyes grew sad and distant. I hate this. I hate it so much. Swallowing the lump forming in the back of her throat, Lark waited for three or four minutes before leaving, keeping her eyes focused on the exit. A sigh of relief breathed through her nose as she left, crossing the parking lot with her sense of awareness heightened.
Joshua's car was incredibly hard to miss, so without needing to search and look lost Lark made a straight path towards the vehicle, hardly taking a moment to glance around before sliding into the passengers seat. Her eyes found her lap. "Good. Don't need them causing more problems." Her voice was despondent and shallow as she spoke, not even daring to glance in his direction as he drove for a few minutes and stopped, getting out of the car. She did as he did and got out of the car, shoving her hands into her pockets and meandering into the woods. Luckily it was a bit off the beaten path and no one would probably take the time to nose around, which was better for the both of them. Once Josh felt they were far enough out of sight from the road he placed himself against a nearby tree. Lark pushed out a smile and looked at him. "Yeah, I envy them sometimes too." She looked up for a moment before finding her own tree, sliding down the bark and sitting on the ground. One knee was up, arm resting comfortably on her knee.
It was warranted, the edgy tone to his voice as he asked what she had been up to. Lark lifted her eyes towards Josh again, the lack of sleep not doing well for her complexion. "I haven't uh...I haven't been doing anything. I just...I've had a lot on my mind, and didn't want to bother anyone. I'm sorry I've been ignoring you. It was nothing you did." Lark felt her emotions heighten before forcing them back. She leaned her head against the tree and looked up into the canopy again, the leaves were green and beautiful. Her lips twitched into a tiny smile, then dropped into a frown. Yeah, things had been really shitty. Her parents divorced, mom was gone, dad was drinking all of the time and his anger issues were becoming more evident. She was always anxious to have him come home at night. She felt like her alliance with her element was dwindling, and wanted something more stable. Lark nodded. "Yeah. They have been." She sighed. "And no, everything isn't alright."
Lark took a moment to compose herself and sort out her thoughts, a hand running through her hair before she caught his gaze again. "I uh...I don't know what to do with myself anymore." She inhaled deeply, breath shaking. "What do you do when you feel like you don't belong? Like the people you thought were your allies...no longer feel like allies?" She shook her head and stared at her hand, locking her jaw in attempts to keep from crying. Lark hated crying, and Josh had already seen it once before. Not again. Never again. This is my burden, I shouldn't even be talking to him about this. "It was different talking to Ashton, you know. Good guy. Nothing like the fires and thunders...it was...nice. Made me realize that what I want has changed. And I don't know what to do." Lark half hoped Joshua would talk her out of making this decision, but it was more that she wanted to get it off of her chest.
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Post by JOSHUA DONOVAN DALE on Feb 6, 2012 21:11:28 GMT -5
Joshua did not join her in sitting, instead choosing to remain leaning against the tree with its stable trunk supporting his waist. The forest smelled of late spring or early summer and he could hear the wind rustling the trees. It reminded him of days spent wandering the forest behind the mansion and made him miss having such a scenic backyard. Apartments didn't have backyards. Whenever he felt himself missing some shred of his old life, though, Josh thought of Nell and how happy she made him. That counteracted it. He brushed aside thoughts of his fiancée and focused on Lark for now, not wanting to seem distracted and inattentive. This was his friend, he wasn't going to drag them all the way out into the woods only to ignore the conversation they'd came here for. "It wouldn't have bothered me," he frowned, not liking what that insinuated. Since when did the struggles of a friend become bothersome to Josh? Since never. He was always there for a friend in need if he could be. His good qualities might not have been abundant but his loyalty was the strongest and most redeeming. He loved his friends and he kept them close. He supported them if he could. Does she not trust me? Unease and an almost defensive feeling rippled through him. Trust was one of the most important things you could give to Joshua and one of the most detrimental things to take away. He remembered when Nell had doubted him, accused him of cheating. The circumstances were different here but the basics were the same—he still felt like he had been treated as untrustworthy.
She's talking to you now. This was true. Whatever the reasons that Lark had severed contact, she had decided for others to rekindle their bond as friends. He supposed that he could appreciate that, seeing as they had known each other for years and it would be unfortunate to cut ties completely. He tilted his head slightly—not comically, but thoughtfully—as she spoke, blinking as he took in her words. It was strange to hear Lark admit that she was uncertain about herself and what she was doing in her life. His previous disdain at being mistrusted started to ebb slowly as he recognised this in itself was a sign of trust. They were Fires, they were proud. They didn't normally open up in any way whatsoever. "You aren't referring to us, are you?" It was a quietly spoken and honest question. When your allies felt as if they were no longer? He didn't immediately make the connection to the Academy and its alliances because everyone knew what he had done about that. His choice might have been the wrong one—if there was a wrong choice in the matter—but to Josh it felt right and he hadn't regretted it. There were moments where he wondered on what could have been, but they were fleeting. "I would stop treating them like allies," said Joshua slowly, unsure of what else he could say. He was a very blunt and direct person, not the type that could pretend he was something that he wasn't. It was why he'd chosen to betray his element rather than keep his friendship and then relationship with Nell a secret. He'd kept contact with Devin and Ace a secret, but Nell had been different. Her existence had changed things in the alliance for him.
"Ashton?" Josh couldn't keep the surprise from his voice. "The Earth leader?" He knew the guy himself, though not well. He'd messed with him when the poor guy had been a freshman and Joshua himself had been into the alliances and then it had been Ashton who'd gave the word to let him take cover in the Earth dormitories during the first war when Fire locked him out. He respected the boy but had never spoken to him on a personal level. It sounded like Lark had. "When'd you talk to him? And... why?" He was not judging her for any contact with the Earth elemental—hell, he was the last person who should be allowed a say in such matters. He didn't understand why she would take such a risk, though, or why the Earth elemental would. Unless she means a different Ashton? He doubted it, though. Based on what she'd said, Lark was definitely referring to someone in the Earth or Water element. He supposed he could loosely consider Wind but didn't bother. They weren't usually considered a refreshing change and talking to one wasn't a big deal. "What you want has changed," he repeated, mulling that over. "Lark, are you... do you mean the alliances? Are you doubting them?"
He felt a flutter of panic in his chest, considering what that might mean. Betraying one's alliance wasn't always as simple as waving a white flag and dancing over to the other side. Joshua had been propelled by his affections (even if they were only friendly at the time) toward Nell and his protection of her in the war had granted him some respect in the enemy alliance. Then, when he'd stood with them the second time, his choice had been made permanent. Remembering Asha, Josh coughed uncomfortably. "You aren't, uh, involved with Ashton or anything... are you?" Rubbing the back of his neck, worried in case she was and his prying would be considered offensive, he said, "Had to be sure." The Earth elemental had already crossed that dangerous boundary once but Josh had thought it was over when Asha disappeared. He still didn't know where she'd went, or why. He'd spoken to her only briefly after her disappearance and there was never any word from there. God damn. The Earth leader? I sure as hell hope there isn't anything going on with them. Nell had been a dangerous choice but at least neither of them had been in politics, even if Josh was a former leader. That counted, just not as seriously. "What are you planning to do? Do you even have a plan?"
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Post by LARK MARIE HARPER on Feb 6, 2012 22:31:05 GMT -5
Out of the ground I rise to grace Nobody knows it's just a phase Help me I'm out of breath again Nobody knows somewhere to make it go away OUTFIT.
"It bothers me, Josh," Lark replied flatly, searching his face for a brief moment before looking away. "I don't like to burden my friends if I can help it." Although she had changed considerably over the past few months, that was the one thing she did not want to do willingly. But you're doing it right now. She used to be hardened to the world, tough and unwavering. The fights, though she never started them, still gave her a sense of power. Her words were harsh and sharper than a sword if you got her angry enough. Now, there she was leaning against the tree and looking as though she were about to fall apart. It took everything she had to remain composed in front of her friend. She looked up at Joshua, eyes wide when he asked the question. Vigorously the girl shook her head. "N-no no...it's not us. You're like family. I could never..." Just the thought of walking away from Josh made her heart ache, and quickly dashed the thought away. I would be doing that to Sam and Brett though...god I feel so torn. Lark rubbed her eyes with a thumb and forefinger before staring at the ground. So Joshua seemed to have the same feeling she did; to stop treating them like allies. Did he understand that she was referring to the alliances at school? Or was he still on about their friendship? She refrained from responding for now.
Noticing that Joshua seemed rather perplexed about Ashton, she tore her gaze away from the ground and caught his steely gray gaze. "Yeah, the Earth leader," Lark replied, lifting her shoulders a little. "I met him at the Valentine's...thing. He was my 'blind date'." She waved her hand in the air to try and think of the exact title of the event, but it didn't come to mind. All she could remember was their pleasant conversation, the grumpy couple sitting across the way from them, and the cold stare she received from them. The male confronted her later on about her date with Ashton, and it ended rather quickly. Lark was so sick and tired of being told who she could and could not talk to. "Yeah I am, actually." Lark muttered, picking at a few blades of grass nearby. She had been questioning her alliance for a long while, but only recently had it reached an all-time high. "I just...I don't feel like I belong with the fires and thunders anymore. I thought I did but...I can't stand the hostility and the anger anymore. I like the personalities like those of Nell. Welcoming. Bright." She felt almost like a child as she rested her chin on her knee and continued to pick at the grass.
At hearing Josh cough, Lark pulled her attention away from the soft green blades and glanced at him with her eyebrows furrowed. "Involved? What--" The brunette tilted her head a little in confusion, trying to process what it was Josh was asking. Lark was not accustomed to relationships (at least, romantically) and never really paid much attention to flirting, physical or commented. The girl had never even had a first kiss. Any possible relationships were possibly ruined by her, and she hardly took time to notice. Once she mulled it over for a minute or two, she blinked and pulled her head back. "Oh...you mean like that. No. He's just really nice is all. Besides you, Sam, and Brett he's the only one that's held a decent conversation with me." She had never even considered Ashton to be anything romantic--hell, normally someone had to shove their affections in her face for her to even take notice of their existence. It left her really lonely, but by the time she figured it out it was too late. Lark shook her head. "No, I don't have a plan. I don't know what to do...If I leave, Sam and Brett will never speak to me again, but at the same time...I feel like I have a better chance at happiness being with people like Nell and Ashton. People who can handle our more fiery tendencies."
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Post by JOSHUA DONOVAN DALE on Feb 7, 2012 16:43:06 GMT -5
Noting how surprised she seemed by the mere suggestion, Josh decided that he believed her. So if it wasn't their friendship that she was having doubts about, what could it be? They didn't have a whole lot of mutual friends and so he didn't know much about the people she hung around. The same could be said in reverse, as Josh had never made much of a point to introduce her to his other contacts. Not even Nell, who was the pride and joy of his life, his fiancée now. It was strange to think that he'd never introduced them formally. If they'd ever met, it was news to him. He nodded mutely and crossed his arms over his chest, more to have something to do with them than an expression of anger or stubbornness. He toyed with the idea of sitting down but decided against it, not wanting to get bits of forest debris stuck to his jeans. The bark of the tree he leaned against was bad enough. He frowned in thought but remained quiet as she confirmed that Ashton was the Earth leader who'd come to mind. It wasn't until she explained where she'd met him that Josh looked a little surprised, yet again. "You went to that? I didn't peg you as the type." It wasn't an insult, merely an observation. He had never seen Lark as undateable or overly masculine before but he assumed from her attitude that she didn't like anything to do with blind dating and other cheesy romance stuff. Maybe he was wrong. He was alright with his assumptions being proved wrong, especially when they were based on such little fact. "Geez, the Academy knows how to pick them." A dangerous match, that was. The Earth leader with a Fire elemental.
Nell. Yes, he liked her personality as well of those that she shared an element with. Devin and Autumn, too. He had quite a few friends in the Earth element now and he was appreciative of how kind-spirited they tended to be. However, he had never desired to switch his alliance before Nell had come along. Heck, he'd hid a couple of friendships and led his element against the Earths in his twelfth grade year. If Lark's motivations were not romantic then why was she so certain? These thoughts and more crossed his mind over the space of a few seconds, during which time he was contemplatively silent. "It's not that simple, you know," he said at last, deciding to be straight with her. "They might not be hostile but I doubt immediate acceptance would be in order. They need to trust you." Not that she was untrustworthy in his eyes—hell, he'd trust Lark with his life. He was thinking of his current alliance and the way they'd warmed up to him rather slowly. He'd been forced to make a choice twice over. They accepted him now, treated him almost like one of their own, but there had been a lot of patience involved. "Is that really what you'd want?" Knowing that no element trusted you was an uncomfortable feeling. He didn't put much stock into the opinions of others but the glares—some of hatred, from the Fires and Thunders, and the rest of mistrust from the others—had not been pleasant to endure. He did not regret it, for now he had Nell. But it hadn't been simple.
Sam. Brett. The irony of the situation in Joshua's eyes was that these two Thunder elementals were not people with whom he got along. Samson had hurt Harley and earned his distrust and Brett had insulted Nell. No one insulted Nell around him without paying the consequences. At the same time, Lark was his friend, and he wasn't about to go off about how much he disliked her choice of companions. It was Josh that harboured ill feelings, not her. "They're definitely a friendly sort, once you get to know them," he admitted. "It gets weird, sometimes, though. There are times when I realise I'm the odd one out." He wasn't going to bother lying to her. For someone who'd lived with the companionship of the Fire element, their loyalty and the often silent and deadly support of the Thunders, it was strange to suddenly lose that comfort. The Earths were his new family. They were nice, but he couldn't sit in the roasting hot common room and discuss his elemental tactics with an Earth elemental. Nor a Water. "There are compromises. The grass was greener for me, yes, but I have Nell for that. How many friends do you have on the other side?" He blinked slowly at her. Did she have any Earths and Waters she'd befriended, or was he, the traitor Fire, the only friend she'd have if she defected? "I guess you have to put some thought into it. Are you willing to lose a few good friends for the sake of a broader circle in the future?" He hesitated, then added, "I'll stay your friend no matter what, by the way. The alliances don't matter with us." He had to admit that it would be nice to hang around her in the public eye again, but he didn't want to be selfish and point this out.
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Post by LARK MARIE HARPER on Feb 9, 2012 3:20:31 GMT -5
Out of the ground I rise to grace Nobody knows it's just a phase Help me I'm out of breath again Nobody knows somewhere to make it go away OUTFIT.
Lark was not a romantic person; she had often wondered what it would be like to find that one person who truly made her feel safe, that could make her want to fall for them, but so far nothing--or no one, rather--came her way. She felt a strange inkling towards Jack, but when he disappeared without a trace Lark figured it wasn't meant to be. Living life alone seemed rather, well, lonely, but maybe that's how it was supposed to be lived. A frown etched her features as she thought about it. I have no reason to switch sides...not like Josh. I have nothing. Lark blinked back the burning sensation in her eyes before paying attention to the discussion at hand. "Nope, me either. I just...wanted a stranger to talk to I guess. Didn't turn out so bad. I can't be friends with him but oh well." She shrugged it off like it was nothing, even though under different circumstances chatting it up with the Earth leader was fight worthy. She sighed and toyed with the ends of her hair to distract herself. Maybe going back to Hawaii wouldn't have been a bad idea. I would be leaving Josh, but that's about it...
"I'm not accepted anyway, Josh. It's not like it matters all that much at the moment." She pondered on his words for what seemed like forever; they needed trust. They needed reassurance that she was not going to go back to the fires and thunders, leaving them hanging out to dry. Right now, Lark could not offer that reassurance because the girl herself was not even sure of what she wanted. That was why she came to Josh, and so far his questions and answers were only confusing her more. Better than working this out alone, She thought, emitting a bit of a sigh. "I don't know what I want. I really don't. That's why I came to you. Someone to just...help me talk it out a little bit. I wasn't expecting an easy solution or anything. When dad is drunk all the time and my friends are very few--and busy--I kinda just kept it all in. Didn't want to bother anyone." Lark had not intended to reveal the issue with her dad, but in her attempt to explain herself it slipped out in the process. It was too late to draw the statement back now; if she tried to reel it back in Josh might think she was distrusting. Truth be told, he was the only one she could trust at this point.
Although Lark wanted to wallow in self-pity and be miserable, a smile tugged at her lips as she caught Joshua's gaze, a sort of amused snort passing quietly through her nostrils. "Well...you do kinda stand out. Over six feet all, wields fire...but it could be worse. You have Nell. I'm sure she makes the awkward feeling go away." She had no idea what their relationship was like, nor did she care to dig around and find out. All she knew was that Josh was happy, and that mattered most to Lark. It made her realize that if he could find someone like Nell, she had a chance too. Yeah right...not with another fire or thunder. I'm screwed. Her heart sank a little and she sighed, the smile fading considerably. "One or two, I guess. But you know me...I can be pretty unapproachable. That, and I was scared to make friends because of the alliances. I haven't had a chance." But she wanted to have a chance. That was one reason that urged her forward, but at the same time Lark pulled back. It wasn't a good enough reason to switch...was it? Probably not.
Joshua's suggestion was nothing she had not tried before; for a couple of months now Lark had been playing with the idea of finding a greener pasture with friendlier people, but it made her feel foolish. There was no reason for her. Nothing. A stray tear drifted slowly down her cheek as she drew her legs to her chest and rested her arms on both knees, chin settling on top. "Part of me thinks that the broader circle of friends would be best but...I feel like I'm betraying friends I already have for a chance to make other friends. They might not accept me." If Brett or Sam took off to the other side for a reason less compelling than someone they fell in love with, Lark would have been offended. Like her friendship meant nothing. But...I'm just one person. They could find ten new people better suited. Like Josh did. Only difference was, Joshua was still her friend. It came at a price, however. "Thanks...I'm glad you've stuck by me. It means more than you know. It would be nice to see you without hiding in the woods though...to actually hang out without pretending to hate each other."
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Post by JOSHUA DONOVAN DALE on Feb 10, 2012 17:59:01 GMT -5
Joshua nodded sympathetically, understanding all too well how that felt. The alliances really made it difficult to befriend people at times. You could find a person you really clicked well with and then the moment you found out that they were supposed to be the 'enemy', you had to sever all contact or else lose the support and faith of your allies. "He's a good guy," Josh said, having no other opinion on the Earth leader. They didn't know each other well but Ashton was friendly and he was in Nell's good books so Josh figured that he couldn't be all that bad. Most Earths weren't. If Joshua had been aware of the falling out between Nell and Ashton as well as what the boy had said to his fiancée about the trial he would have been a lot less pleasant but for now he was ignorant of that. "Did he say that?" Joshua wondered, giving her a questioning look and a light frown. He's one to talk, isn't he? He could remember with clarity the time he'd spent talking with Asha in Northern Lights. Asha had talked about Ashton fairly freely, probably trusting Josh to be a friend and not sell her out (which he hadn't). Then again, that was a while ago. Maybe something had happened between them that he didn't know about. Heck, maybe the Earth elemental was the reason his old friend had left the Hollow. He still wondered about her sometimes and had tried the number but had recieved no answer thus far.
Having been unaware of how the alliance was currently treating Lark, Joshua's gray eyes narrowed slightly in distaste. "I thought they'd let it go?" He knew that it had been risky and stupid to hang around Lark but they had taken the necessary precautions. They had been all the way in the Hollow, not the school itself. Real life was supposed to be left out of politics—people had siblings and childhood friends that could not be ripped away from them by the simple introduction of elemental high school. He'd never gotten in trouble with Devin, Andrew or Ace because, before Joshua betrayed his alliance for good, he made sure to completely ignore them during school hours and never discussed elements and loyalties if he could avoid it. He'd been a tough-skinned and respected Fire. Why did things have to go so wrong? He tried not to dwell on the past, knowing that it was unfair to feel a bitterness. He'd done it for Nell and usually succeeded in convincing himself that she was enough. He sighed and shook his head. "It was so much easier before the war went and fucked things up." He had possessed an easy and unhindered relationship with Lark during his high school years and part of the way through college. They were Fires, elemental kin—their friendship had been encouraged in the past. "If you're not accepted, though, it really doesn't seem there's much of a reason to stay."
He wasn't sure what to tell her. On one hand, she might end up happier if she severed ties with their old allies and stepped over to join the other side. On the other, it could go very wrong. And Joshua knew from experience that there was no taking it back once you'd made a public statement of your betrayal. Mention of her father distracted him from his thoughts, however, and his gaze sharpened. "Are things okay at home?" He voiced the question cautiously, not wanting her to think he was prying too much. He hated it when his friends were suffering, especially when it was due to something out of his control. He couldn't do anything to cure alcoholism and he couldn't make their fellow Fires behave in a more accepting manner. "I'm a busy guy, Lark, but if you ever want to talk I'd be willing. You should know that by now." His tone was not scolding but friendly, softer than usual. Of course, if he had to choose between Lark and Nell (were both of them going through something) his fiancée would need to be his first priority. It was just the way of things in his life. Nell had done more for him than he could explain to any of his friends and while he valued them deeply, they had other friends. Nell only had one fiancé.
His quiet laughter, followed by the relaxing of his tense shoulder muscles, were a few of the things that indicated he was calming down after her joking around. It was getting slightly and slowly easier to push aside his anger in some cases. The idea of Lark's father drinking all the time and not really being there (properly) for his daughter made him bristle but he understood there was nothing in his power to be done about it. So he let it go. "She does," he agreed. "And I've got a lot of other... friends, now. Who'd have thought?" His lips twitched and there was an almost reminiscent glint in his eyes. He remembered being the loner with the few friends and was surprised himself at how much better he was getting with people. He credited this to Nell, his other friends in the new alliance, and the elements themselves. It was harder to be angry all the time when you spent all your time around the sweetest, most caring people in the Academy. Not to say it wasn't possible—all of his friends managed to set him off at some point or another—it was just a lot less common than it used to be. "They might not," he agreed, his tone grim. He wished he could reassure her but the only thing he knew about Samson and Brett was how much he disliked the pair of them. "Don't I wish," he said, shaking his head. "It's what we were used to." Fires didn't hide from each other. At least, they weren't supposed to. The war had changed everything.
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Post by LARK MARIE HARPER on Feb 11, 2012 14:53:04 GMT -5
Out of the ground I rise to grace Nobody knows it's just a phase Help me I'm out of breath again Nobody knows somewhere to make it go away OUTFIT.
"N-no he didn't actually say it," Lark said, twiddling her fingers a little bit. Did Ashton actually have to say it? She was a fire, and he was an earth. The earth leader no less. There were two main reasons he wouldn't want to keep ties with her. One, they were opposing elements. Even though Lark was heavily considering switching sides, she was still a fire and more often than not they were not readily accepting of elements not already in their alliance. Two, she was...Lark. For some reason unbeknownst to her, a lot of people tended to pull away. She would make a couple of friends, and then they would vanish. They distanced themselves. She did not even know why, and it hurt more than she could have imagined. Lark was a loyal person so to have people she made attempts to trust leave her behind was painful. Would Brett and Sam feel the same way if she left? Or would they just quickly turn the other way and give her the finger? It's amazing how feeble friendships are in this school. It made her grateful for the intense loyalty Josh had for their friendship. "But I figured that it won't happen. There's more suitable people for friends out there anyway."
It was hard for the girl to go easy on herself; after dealing with issues at home and problems in the past Lark did not really see herself in a good light. Maybe staying with the fires and thunders was best, being as the better people of the academy should not have to deal with her. Lark bit at the inside of her lip before looking at the ground, avoiding Joshua's gaze. "Oh, they don't say anything but I can feel their glares on the back of my head. They don't trust me. After what happened in the hallway several months back..." The girl trailed off, a reminiscent glaze in her brown eyes. All they did was walk through the Hollow and talk, and then things at school somewhat blew up. She protected him during that confrontation, and even when they tried to pretend to be enemies afterward it was evident that most of her allies did not believe it. It is true. I really don't have anyone except for Josh. "I guess not. I just...don't feel I have a strong enough reason. Not like you did." Aside from Josh, Lark had not much else to give her a proper reason to move alliances.
What was she going to say? 'I'm taking up my alliance with earth and water because Josh is there'? Yeah, that would be a very solid and viable reason. She knew several of the other elementals on the other side, but not well enough to put herself in the crossfire. Then again, he was her best friend and she was sick and tired of hiding all of the time. Maybe that was how she needed to go about it. "Oh, things are fine." Lark lied through her teeth, smiling at him in attempts to reaffirm her statement. "After mom left he just...I guess he doesn't know what else to do with himself. Annoying as fuck, but he'll grow up eventually." His aggression was increasing, but Lark avoided the bullets for now. She tended to stay in her room when he came home and only talked to him when he was hung over or sober (though those moments were few and far between). So long as the man kept his hands to himself she could ignore his actions. Lark would not be afraid to fight back. She didn't want anyone else involved in her personal problems more than need be. "I know that, Josh. I know. But you have better things you can occupy yourself with." To slightly turn the discussion to a lighter state and make Josh feel like his needs and wants were important--which they were--Lark tilted her head and pushed a little smile. "How is Nell by the way? Doing well I hope."
Friends. What Lark would have given to be able to open up her phone and have more than three or four numbers. To know she could rely on more than Joshua, who she knew had a lot going on. If I had more friends, I wouldn't have to bother him so much. Lark sighed and pushed her hair back away from her face. "You're a good person. I'm not very surprised you made friends." Sure he was a little rough around the edges and could have quite the fiery temper, but he was loyal and a good friend. Those were important. However, Lark figured he was with a crowd that were more accepting of the more negative traits, which made it easier. For a moment, she fiddled with a string on her shirt, glancing his way with a look of severe uncertainty. "Do you think...it's worth it? Me switching sides? Or am I just better off with what I have?" It was a rather difficult question, Lark knew that much. Joshua did not know the inner workings of her mind, how she was feeling, what she felt might be right. She did not expect him to. All Lark wanted was just an opinion based on what he knew so far.
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Post by JOSHUA DONOVAN DALE on Feb 18, 2012 13:23:30 GMT -5
Though he almost wanted to tell Lark why he was questioning all of this, Joshua kept his mouth shut. He might not have been friends with Ashton but even the secrets of an acquaintance deserved to be honoured. Ashton hadn't done anything to cause him trouble and so he wasn't about to let slip a secret that could cost him his position. Not that Joshua thought that Lark would tell anyone. Better safe than sorry, he thought to himself. "If it doesn't happen, Lark, it's because of the alliances," he said firmly. "Not because of you." Whether it was because they'd been friends for so long or because Joshua was certain that Lark was not as abrasive as she thought she was, he didn't think she was at fault for any lack of friendship found in the Earth leader. Earth kids were a friendly bunch. Sometimes they were a little too friendly, even. He thought of Nell and how forgiving she was, how genuine and compassionate. He wasn't a terrible person but he couldn't dream of being that selfless. Devin, too. Andrew. Ace. The latter wasn't an Earth but he was still on their side. "Nell and I weren't really friends before the war. Study partners, maybe, but not friends. That's why the alliance didn't really bug us until all hell broke loose." They had not spent an overwhelming amount of time together and when they had, it had mostly been to pore over books and discuss elemental tactics. Nothing interesting or particularly personal. It was ironic how they had come so far.
He nodded, expression solemn with understanding. He wished that he could tell his friend that the staring was all in her head and that he was sure they'd come to trust her again but he was not so sure of that himself. He remembered how they had treated him after the first war, the way they'd frowned at him when they thought he wasn't looking or talked behind his back. At fierce command from the leaders they had not started any physical fights within their ranks, therefore protecting the Fires' image of unity, but he was not stupid. He knew they hadn't trusted him. They'd started to accept him a little more as the weeks turned to months and so forth but it had been a sluggish process, one that had halted completely when he'd made his final decision. He sighed, raking his fingers through his dark hair. "Things would calm down eventually. Trust me, I've been there. I just had more going for me on the other side. If you want to stay, though... sacrifices would be necessary." He hoped she understood what he was saying. She wouldn't be able to hang around him quite as much in case they were caught and she certainly wouldn't be allowed any friendly conversations with the Earth elementals, let alone their leader. She'd need to find her friends among those that currently, according to Lark, felt more like enemies. "Not everyone betrays the alliances for love," he shrugged, then gave a dry chuckle at how lame that sounded. "But if you don't feel like you have a good enough reason, there's a good choice you don't. I wouldn't make any commitment until you're positive about what you want."
Though he was not exactly what you could call selfless—he did put himself before others at times—it still didn't make him very comfortable when Lark pushed aside her own worries and focused on his life. He respected her desire to stop talking about her issues but he wasn't sure he wanted to focus on himself, either. It felt like she was holding his own importance above her own. However, mention of Nell was enough to distract his unease and bring a brief smile to his lips. "She's great," he said, then went quiet for a moment as he thought of her. He was smiling, his expression momentarily distant. "I asked her to marry me," said Joshua at last, turning his attention back to Lark. Marriage was a big thing, the ultimate commitment for couples (except perhaps children). In a perfect world it meant being together until death came between the pair. The world was far from perfect and divorce was all too common but he loved Nell enough to give it a shot. "She said yes. We don't know when, but... we're engaged now, at least." He hadn't told her right off the bat because her other problems had seemed more important but Lark deserved to know what was going on in his life if she wanted to. At least that which he was willing to admit. He wouldn't tell his secrets if she requested them spilled but the details of his life that he didn't mind going public were definitely offered to friends.
He hesitated to give her his opinion on the question, not sure of what was right for Lark and what she truly wanted for herself. Not wanting to lead his friend astray, he thought hard on what he would say next. "Only you know that," he said, and his tone was apologetic. He knew it was a lame response to the question but he at least felt that it was a truthful one. He might have known what was right for himself but it was not his place to decide for other people. He could lend an ear and even an opinion or two but he could not make decisions. "If you truly feel like you'll never be happy with our kind, then yes. But if you're doubting yourself, I don't think it would hurt to sit on the decision a little longer." Much as the Fires didn't trust Lark at the moment, he doubted they knew what she was thinking of. If they'd known they had a potential traitor in their midst, they would make the decision for her—or at least force her to make one for herself. "Whatever you decide, though, I'd like it if you let me know." His lips twitched briefly in a smile that did not form.
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Post by LARK MARIE HARPER on Feb 19, 2012 4:13:22 GMT -5
Out of the ground I rise to grace Nobody knows it's just a phase Help me I'm out of breath again Nobody knows somewhere to make it go away OUTFIT.
Sacrifices. Lark dealt with them every day, along with about a million other people in the world. She sacrificed her time to do schoolwork and improve her elemental powers. She sacrificed living back in Hawaii to stay with the people she cared about. She sacrificed more than she felt she should have. A low growl formed in her throat, but not towards anyone in particular. She was frustrated that there even had to be a decision in the first place. Sacrifices with friends, at least the sacrifice she was dealing with, should not have been happening. All of it should not have been happening. It was not Joshua's fault that she was so torn; he had Nell to protect and love, and she was more than supportive of his decision. That choice hurt their friendship, but Lark knew that that was quite insignificant in the big picture. She looked up at her best friend and could not even fake a smile. "I'm tired of sacrificing Josh. I hate pussy footing with our friendship." Her eyes looked up at the sky in attempts to keep rein on her tears. "I miss you. I want to just...be able to sit in the god damn library and talk to my best friend without any bull shit from other people." Her voice was hard, but quiet as she leaned her head back against the tree, hitting her head a little harder than she should have.
It was odd, because Lark knew exactly what she wanted, yet her loyalties fought against her like a raging riptide. Joshua was on one side, unable to even converse with her in the open without causing problems, while Brett and Samson were on the other side. No hiding, no feelings of guilt when she saw them, no secret meetings. It was easy. Sticking with the thunders and fires was the easy choice. The most efficient way out. However her bond with the two thunder students was not half as strong as the one with Josh. He knew more about her than the others did, and knew that no matter what side she chose Josh would always be there. So shouldn't I do him the courtesy of making it easier on our friendship by doing this? It still felt infinitely smaller than Joshua's reason for switching, but it was good enough for her. Without her mother in the picture, a drunk dad, and very few friends taking up sides with the only person she considered family made sense.
"Y-you did?" Lark blinked, drawn out of her thoughts by Josh's comment on marriage. She tore her gaze away from the sky to look at him, a genuine smile gracing her features. For the moment, all of her problems ebbed away as she observed the smile on her friend's face. She thought something was different about him, but until now could not figure out what it was. Lark shook her head a bit and chuckled out of happiness for him. "That's amazing Josh, really. I'm glad you guys are starting a new chapter in your lives. You deserve the best." And it was said with sincerity, and complemented by the smile she wore on her face moments before. She did not know a lot about his past or everything he went through, but she knew enough to know that this was something he needed. Now if I could just sort out my shit and find happiness like Josh, then we'll be good.
Unfortunately the smile faded away. "I know..." Josh was right; only she knew what was best, but at the same time she was hoping for a little confirmation or maybe offer something that would at least make the choice easier. Then again, that was a rather stupid request. It was not his job to make the decision. If someone else would I could at least get some sleep. "I guess I'm gonna set a deadline for myself. Give myself a couple of months. I can't keep losing sleep over this." She ran a hand through her hair before scanning the area around them, her gaze finally resting on him once again. Grunting, Lark pulled herself to stand up, brushing off her clothes before stuffing her hands into her pockets. "You'll be the first to know, of course. Thanks for meeting me, Josh. Maybe I'll get a decent night's sleep after talking to someone about this." She turned to walk out of the woods, to make way towards home so Josh could get back to whatever it was he had been doing in the library, before turning to look at him with a tired smile. "And congratulations again on the engagement. I like that she makes you smile. I'd like to meet her sometime." With that, she nodded to him and offered up a small wave before exiting the woods, shuffling her way home.
[Finished? I guess? XD]
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