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Post by NELL DOE DALE on Jun 30, 2011 0:13:55 GMT -5
War sucked. That was how Nell decided she could sum it up. There was nothing at all good about it for anyone involved. No, that wasn’t right—she was sure the more sadistic people got a kick out of it. But she didn’t. All that aside, she held her head high and went about with a smile. She wasn’t going to let the assholes targeting her bring her down. She was here for an education, not for war—she wanted to get stronger with her powers so that maybe in the future she can defend herself without losing control. Because if that wasn’t in the forefront of her mind, she would have been defending herself all along.
And as if to add to that, her father kept calling her, even after she hung up on him before. Now he was concerned about how she was doing with the war, but she didn’t really believe he cared much. He may have cared about coming back into contact with her, but not her actual well-being. Even though her bitterness was incredible, she didn’t think of him as a terrible person—he just didn’t know how to be a father. Her mother was a teenager and her father not much older when Nell was born, and his own father was a terrible example to learn from. In a way, she couldn’t blame him. But she still wanted to, every time she saw the Spanish expletive on her phone and heard his aloof voice.
While trying to juggle these thoughts in her mind, she peaked out of her classroom like an episode of Scooby Doo. Nell felt like she had to ninja from class to class, inconspicuously darting in and out of doors. Unfortunately, Josh couldn't be around at all times, and therefore she had to be quick whenever going about without him. Too bad she had grown in infamy. It was like everyone honed in on her when they saw her, and a lot of them thought she was a murderer and wanted revenge. She slipped into the hall, making sure to stay close to a gaggle of Water students. God, she felt pathetic.
Just as she separated with the group to head into another direction toward her classroom, her path was cut off by a maliciously smiling girl and she instantly knew what was going to happen. She didn’t bow to her knees in despair, pleading to god to give her a break. Nell simply stood her ground with a glare, so she didn’t feel completely useless. Which was idiotic of her, since she didn’t plan to back her bark up with a bite. So, with the message of her glare sent, she began to walk away. Except there was a guy with her, who cut her off with a tsking sound. Nell rolled her eyes—again, not the wisest decision on her part. The chick stood next to her friend and summoned up her fire. She contemplated it as the flames licked at her hand. She was definitely going to be late for class. "Hmm...what do we do with a murderer?" The guy drew in closer so that she was edging closer to the wall behind her. Just as weak as you were with her, Nell’s mind scoffed at her.
Every time she was called a murderer, it unsettled her stomach with the painful truth. But not the truth they were thinking off. She looked to the side, all around. The hallway was emptying out. It might have seemed like she was looking for escape, but she was really just looking for something to bang her head off of. Or better said, it was probably both. ”Just back off, all right?” The sad this was Nell couldn’t do a mean voice—she couldn’t capture the vehemence that others could. Mostly because she was exhausted and frustrated and though she tried not to show it, very afraid. Because every time someone came after her, she feared that this might be it. Nell might have been paranoid, but it wasn’t like these were just bullies. The Fire students especially were like a pack of rabid wolves.
”I don’t think so,” the guy said, taking Nell by the shoulder and slamming her against the wall and subsequently calling on his powers to burn her. ”Ack!” she hissed through clenched teeth, cringing at the pain. Now she had a killer burn on her shoulder, and judging by the look on the chick’s face, she was about to get another one somewhere else.
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Post by JOSHUA DONOVAN DALE on Jun 30, 2011 7:55:33 GMT -5
[I don't even--my muse is insane. Disregard the length. Please. o.O I got to play vulnerable and badass in the same post and I think his muse liked that... a lot... There is no way in hell I'll be able to match it again if you do xD]
For the first time in a long time, Joshua could truly say that he hated having classes. Not because the workload was too much or he sat with some annoying people who talked too much, but because any time he spent in class was time that could not be spent making sure that his former Alliance hadn't succeeded in their goal. He was so worried for Nell from the things he was hearing through other people that he could barely concentrate in his first class of the morning. His hand was clenched so tightly on the desk that his knuckles were bleached white and his arm was trembling a little from the pressure. Gray eyes glared at the clock and willed the hands to just move already. Please, just move. "Dale!" The sound of his name actually made him jump for once. He had never been a very jittery person, but he was so off in his own world that this had done it. "What did I just ask you?" The Fire graduate blinked. He asked me something? Unfortunately, his subconscious could not help by providing the question to him, so he was forced to admit, "I... I don't know, sir." The critical glare of the professor made him very aware of the fact that his face was heating up and that people were staring. Some seemed surprised, others smug, some were outright leering at him. Others didn't care, and he found himself respecting those people in his very self-conscious moment. The professor glowered for a moment longer, then repeated, "In what way did the elementals influence the second World War?" Thank the heavens that this was Elemenetal History--it was one of his favourite classes. Josh ducked his head in embarrassment and gave the answer, finally getting relief when the professor nodded sharply. "Pay attention," he snapped. "I expected better from you." Josh winced a little. "Y-Yeah, of course," Josh responded, then exhaled in relief when he finally moved on to grilling the next person.
The rest of the class passed by with the same eerie tension, but he did not allow it to distract him again. He was at least ready for the next pop question thrown his way, not missing the fact that the professor seemed to have done it on purpose, but it did little to reassure him. It was rare to put other priorities above his grades, but the fact that Nell's life was in danger was probably the clincher for this one. If it had just been some stupid argument and they were aiming to intimidate her for a while... well, of course he still would have cared, but he'd have likely remained neutral in the war and would have been more more able to concentrate on his classes. The bell finally chimed loudly through the halls, and since this class was so close to the bell tower he could have sworn he saw the glass paperweight on the teachers desk vibrating a tiny amount. Joshua stood up and packed his things back into his back, but he was no less than a couple of feet outside the safety of the classroom when a Thunder student shoved him into the wall. "Nice going in class today, bookworm," he sneered. "Or can we still call you that? Dale seems like a bit of a nancy, cracking under pressure like that." His friends jeered but did not move to form a group attack. They were all sophomores of course, so he was a little more hesitant to fight back against the group of them than he would have been if they'd been younger than him. "Oh, just piss off," he snapped irritably. "I don't think I want to," one of them said slowly, as if he was actually thinking about it. "I think I want the answers to the tests on Friday, actually," he added. "Think you can do that for me, O Smart One?" It was clearly a taunt, and he sneered at Josh and shoved him again. The Fire student clenched his jaw. I swear, if I get you alone... But they weren't alone, unfortunately. "No, I don't think I can do that," he replied. "Unlike you lot, I actually study to keep my grades up. I'm not going to help you cheat." This didn't deter them, not that he'd thought it would.
Josh was outnumbered enough that he'd more likely than not emerge the loser if this came down to fighting. He understood this, and it most definitely didn't make him feel any better about his situation as they fanned out a tiny bit to block off any escape routes. This is bad, he acknowledged, but he didn't attempt to make a break for it just yet. He'd have to fight them if he did. "I think you are," the primary assailant said darkly. Joshua could feel the static in the air start to increase. Oh god, this was worse than bad. They were going to force him into it, weren't they? He didn't want to admit his fear, but he swore his heart must have skipped a beat. Should I run? Fight? Fuck, this is so bad. His mouth was dry and made swallowing difficult. It was a bad time to be having flashbacks, but this just reminded him so much of the hard times he'd had in elementary school. If public school bullies were bad, those in private schools weren't much better. They all came from wealthy backgrounds so there was already a sense of egotism--the fact that they banded together in groups much like this one hadn't made it any better. He'd always been the one they went after if they wanted 'help' on a test. He'd given in a few times out of cowardice--he was still ashamed of those times--but mostly he'd refused, and that had usually ended in what he believed was referred to as 'circle' beating. Not a very nice way to end the day. He was too ashamed of his losing of the fights to tell his father about them, and usually 'admitted' to being an instigator or at least active participant when the bruises came under question. If it was ever brought up at school, Joshua had no friends to speak of that would back up his side of the story. He'd even been expelled from one school because he'd broken a boy's arm. He hadn't meant to do it! They had grabbed him and he'd panicked. "You're going to give us the fucking answers, or we're going to have to extract them from you. We could always drag you off to Blackthorn and your Fire buddies, Dale. I'm sure they'd love to have a chat." The laughter of the group and the snide comment jerked Josh back to harsh reality.
He knew what that was implying. 'If you try to fight us because your powers are stronger, we'll just throw you to the wolves that can match your strength.' He winced slightly and clenched his jaw as the boy readied a fist and feinted a punch, the group laughing at his automatic reaction. "Scared of me, huh?" The Thunder boy was gloating now. "Where are we, grade school?" Josh said with stupid bravery. Alright, so maybe he was more proud than brave--he hated having to admit that he was scared, so he was trying to deflect. "Must be, 'cause I think there are a few key lessons you still need to learn. Like what happens when you fuck with us." As cheesy and stupid as this sounded, it still managed to be intimidating when it was accompanied by a sharp shock from one of the boys. Not their leader, it seemed, for he snapped, "Back the fuck off, you'll get your turn if Dale doesn't cooperate." He raised his fist again, grasping the collar of Josh's shirt and pulling it back. Joshua thought about trying to struggle away and bolt, but he knew that wouldn't be very effective. "What do you say, Dale?" he sneered. "Going to play nice now or am I going to have to hurt you?" Josh could hear his heart pounding rapidly from the blood rushing in his ears. The Academy were serious about grades and he would lose any chances of staying at the top of his class if he was caught giving out the answers. But if he didn't... Joshua stared apprehensively at the boy's meaty fist. That was going to hurt. A lot. His breath hitched in his throat. "I... I can't," he said, and cringed as he waited for the fist to connect with his face.
But it never did. "HEY!" He'd never been more grateful for the interception of a teacher in his entire time at the Academy. Usually it was Josh getting in trouble for going after someone, but this time it served to make the Thunder students back off almost immediately. The boy holding him let go and took a few paces back, the way they moved backward as a group reminding him of a fucking wolf pack, a pack of predators. Their leader narrowed his eyes at Josh in a clear sign to indicate that this wasn't over, and then they all backed off. Joshua just stood there for a moment, breathing, trying to calm himself down. "Uh, thanks," he said to the professor grudgingly, though he didn't look at him. Jesus, this was so embarrassing. Not only did he make a fool out of himself in class, but now he was being singled out as weak and vulnerable as well. "Is that why you're so distracted in class, Josh?" the professor asked him, frowning. "Have they done this before?" No, they hadn't. They hadn't messed with him because they were afraid of him. He could take on a few Thunder students all on his own, and he'd always had the entirety of the Fire element to back him up if he started flagging. Now he didn't have that protection, and so they pounced. Joshua probably could have asked the Earth elementals to help him out of a tight spot, but he was too proud to beg for help. "Um, no, sir," he said truthfully. "This is the first time they've... yeah." His face turned red and he glanced away again. "I was just distracted, with the war and everything..." He trailed off, hating that he had to admit to all of this. But the older man seemed to understand. "I suppose that makes sense," he decided fairly. "But do try to keep up with my classes, Dale." Josh just nodded. Please leave me alone now. To his utmost relief, the professor only lingered for a moment longer before he started off down the hall. Josh took the opposite direction for the sole purpose of avoiding further chat.
Well shit. Where was he going to go now? Joshua had no idea where the Thunder students had gone off to, but he knew that this wasn't going to be their first and only attempt to goad him into doing their bidding. Throughout the years he'd never realised just how much the reputation of a Fire student could do for him in terms of protection from the Thunder element. He'd never been victimised much here because the usual assailants were of Thunder and Fire--Fire were his allies by default, and Thunder were theirs. But now... God, I hate this war. He was wandering around aimlessly and panicking at the slightest of sounds when a tiny Earth freshman rushed up to him, nearly making him jump out of his skin. The boy kept his distance and seemed quite intimidated, but there was something about the panic in his expression that made Joshua stop from snapping at him to go away. "What?" he asked instead. It wasn't the nicest of inquiries but considering his jittery mood it was quite an impressive show of self-control (for once). "I-It's Nell," the freshman stammered, and instantly Joshua was on full alert, gray gaze sharpening as he listened closer. "S-She was walking and they--they attacked her and--" Joshua held up his hands to caution the boy. "Calm down," he suggested, "Speak slowly." He didn't want to waste too much time over the stammering and blathering. "Fire students," he said. "I-I'm only a freshman and I'm an E-Earth student and you're n-not so I thought that--"
"Where?"
The student pointed down to the end of the hall. "T-Take a left," he said nervously, but only watched as Joshua took off with a fast stride. Running would only drain his energy. He didn't blame the freshman for not opting to follow him--Fire students could be dangerous to be around when they fought. Thank goodness that they hardly did. When he rounded the corner, Joshua immediately spotted the two culprits. "Cowards," he spat, "can't you face someone on your own?" He was especially sensitive to the subject of double-teaming considering what he'd just went through with the group of Thunder elementals. He noticed that the two seemed uninjured and wondered why Nell had not defended herself, but that didn't really matter as he glared down his new opponents. "Take me on if you've got the balls, why don't you?" This gained a reaction out of both of them. "I haven't got any balls to begin with, Dale, I'm a girl. Are you going blind?" The girl sneered at him, whilst the male seemed affronted. "Dale! You traitor!" Josh just snorted. "What, didn't get Blackthorn's memo?" he shot back. "The whole 'dead meat' thing? I might be in for it, but I'm sure as hell not letting you do anything to her." He nodded at Nell to indicate whom he was speaking of, not that it had really been necessary. The fact that he hadn't joined in on the beating had pretty much indicated whose side he was on for this fight.
He sent a blast of fire toward the male first, distracting him for long enough that the girl stepped forward with an attack of her own. Instead of dodging it, Joshua lifted a hand and literally reversed the control of the fire over to his own pyrokinesis and sent it back toward her. The unexpected attack hit its mark dead on and caused her to shriek in surprise and pain. Assuming control of another elementals power was difficult and drained your energy, but it was worth it for the fear that it instilled. They were outmatched now that he was in the picture, they both realised this. The boy had gotten off better than his partner considering the hit hadn't been direct, and since Joshua was all about equality he blasted him again and then readied another swirling mass of fire. "Had enough, or would you like to keep going?" Taking the hint, they backed off pretty quickly and Joshua dispersed the fire with a relieved exhale. Fuck, his energy was beginning to seriously take a hit. The powerful shock from the Thunder elemental at his own level of power had only had half of the effect considering Joshua's advantage, but that coupled with the fact that he'd gotten little sleep, was already having a bad day, and was using more energy than usual because of his anger made it noticeable, even to the boy himself. "Fuck those assholes," he snarled, then turned to Nell. "Sorry I couldn't have got here sooner," he said, regret true in his tone. "I got a little, ah, held up in class."
He left it at that, however, when he saw the burns on Nell's skin. "Jesus," he breathed, then narrowed his eyes with concentration. "Hold still, I can fix that." He focused on the burn and on his powers at the same time, then repeated the mantra of his elemental professor from previous years. That which we inflict, we can repair. That was it, right? Something like that... There was a soft burst of scarlet, and then the burns started to reverse--when he was finished, there was only a slight reddish discolouration. "Nothing I can do about that, though," he said apologetically. It looked like a sunburn and would sting like one too for a while, but at least there was no permanent damage. Burn scars weren't the prettiest things if you didn't catch them in time. Joshua was now at about half his normal strength, and he knew he'd be screwed if the Thunder students came back. Especially if they had Fire elementals with them. "Do you... want to get away from school for a while?" he suggested almost hopefully. "We could hang out or something... change of scenery..."
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Post by NELL DOE DALE on Jul 1, 2011 0:08:24 GMT -5
[GBTS trained me for this. *nods* But I must say, this is probably a record for you. ]
Honestly, Nell didn’t know what she was expecting by just putting her tail between her legs and bearing her belly to the enemy. She hated herself for doing it, hated that she couldn’t just hook the guy in the jaw. There was no consolation in that she’d never dealt with schoolyard bullies, and therefore this was an okay reaction to have. She'd just had one big bully in her life, and that should have been enough. Something should have been gained from that, should have given her more reason to retaliate. But it didn’t. And now she was the victim again because she feared that it would come to this: she’d be terrified, overwhelmed, and just sick of all this stupid fighting and react without thinking. She was a coward, or as her aunt had so eloquently put it, “a pussy, just like your father.” A part of her knew it was because she hadn’t dealt with the consequences of her mother’s abuse and her murder and that’s why she hadn’t yet stood up for herself by pushing back, but the stronger part was right now trembling underneath the Fire’s student’s hold. Because violence still scared her more than anything, yet it was the most common thing in her life right now.
She still didn’t let it show as she glared straight into the eyes of the guy holding her against the wall. Never did she show weakness to her mother by crying, and she didn’t now. That was the only thing she had to cling to assure her that she wasn’t completely pathetic—she never shed a tear. If she was going down, it would be with dignity. With these thoughts of weakness and fear, she didn’t expect Josh. She never expected help, but there it came with a fierce-set glower and fighting words. Barely breathing, she cast a glance to see him and while the first thought on her mind should have been “thank god, he’s come to help”, it was “he’s going to have to fight his own element because I’m a coward”. Despite Josh’s venomous words toward her attackers, she was the true coward, which was why they had her cornered.
Nell kept silent, playing the victim oh-so perfectly. She’d fallen back into her old ways, and she couldn’t stop beating herself up over it, yet there was nothing she could do to change it. Stop feeling sorry for yourself! But it was hard to do when you had to have someone fight your battles for you. And when your arm hurt like a bitch. The pain was forcing itself into her head, yelling “pay attention to me!” Luckily, she took pain well as it stemmed from her past, but it was still very uncomfortable. As that pain prevented her from pretty moving too much, Josh preceded to curb-stomp the duo. Like a game of elemental ping-pong, he ricocheted the girl’s fire, and blasted the guy. Out of the Fire student’s grasp now, she held her arm, hissing when she touched it. Nell hated that Josh needed to do this for her because she couldn’t fight back. Nell thought she could get through the violence in her life from now on with words—she was wrong. And it was biting her in the ass. Some masochistic part of herself acknowledged that this must have been repentance for her matricide by some higher power, that she was being attacked again.
Nell watched them flee as Josh spoke. After a moment, she turned and cast her best-winning, false-in-all-its-glory smile at him to hold up the image of strength. Just like she’d continued to glare at her attackers even when she had her tail between her legs. “Don’t even worry about it—I was about to go fisticuffs before you came along,” she said with a light laugh, even though she still felt like so stupidly weak, and it ended in a sigh. No, she wouldn’t have fought back. And she must have looked like a complete coward to him. I’m not going to keep feeling sorry for myself. But it was hard when she was faced with her weakness every day. Still, she’d bounce right back like she always did. She took a second to recover, and said, ”Seriously, though, thank you.” She was damn lucky to have him around, that was for sure. Even if she really wished she didn't have to depend on him so much and wished that she could protect herself. He had his own life, and couldn't play bodyguard all the time.
He noticed the burn then, and she moved her hand. You’ve been through worse, Nell, you can’t cry over physical pain. She nodded acquiescently, and even as the damage reversed, she felt sick, the kind of sick when she’d curl up in bed and try to fall asleep after… She pushed the thoughts aside, but when faced with violence, she remembered the violence she’d endured for most of her life. Sighing gratefully, she moved her arm around a bit and finding that it felt better. Nell smiled up at him, and this time it wasn’t a mask. "A little mark is much better than a full-blown burn. I can deal. Thank you." All she had to keep doing was reminding herself that she had endured worse. But now she had people for support, and she had Josh. All she needed was the glass-half-full optimism, and she’d get through. Too bad that mind-set tended to disappear when in danger. ”Should you really have done that?” she asked with concern, sighing again. She’d been doing a lot of sighing lately. ”You look exhausted, Josh. I could have gone to the medical wing or just left it. I have a high pain threshold and it would have healed eventually.” Nell shrugged it off. That’s what she usually did—she couldn’t treat her wounds or go to a hospital before. You’re a trooper, Nell, her thoughts practically bit at her, and even unconsciously she was still beating herself up for being so weak.
It was obvious he wanted to blow the joint and she raised an eyebrow. ”Joshua Dale? Skipping classes? Now that doesn’t sound right.” She didn’t disagree at all however. Some days she considered just playing hooky, but knew that if she wanted to get stronger and be able to defend herself without the paranoia, she couldn’t run away from the Academy. It used to be her haven; now it was ground zero. ”A change of scenery sounds really nice right about now,” she agreed with a nod. She started walking down the hall, and then turned to him with a slightly apologetic expression, her face drawn in a small frown. ”Would you think I’m childish if I say I want to go to a playground?” In truth, anywhere away from school would be just fine, but a playground would be even better. It would be fun, the exact opposite of what was going on in the Academy right now. It was also part of her ‘childhood campaign’—doing things she should been doing years ago.
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Post by JOSHUA DONOVAN DALE on Jul 1, 2011 11:48:54 GMT -5
He didn't believe for a second that Nell had been about to fight the two Fire students, but his lips twitched for her benefit, seeing that she seemed to be trying to lighten the mood. The mood couldn't be brightened even if they dragged the sun down to the Earth to hang over their situation. This was war, and they were trying to kill her. But Joshua would at least make an attempt, for Nell's sakes. He couldn't just imagine what it felt like for people to hunt you down--he knew what it felt like. So he sympathised with her on so many levels right now that it was actually making him dizzy. He still wasn't used to this whole 'protective' thing expanding outside of his sister and parents. "Of course," he said, dipping his head in acceptance of the thanks. "I could never just stand there and let them do something like that; I chose your side for a reason, after all." He offered her a smile, but it was grim and tinged with something a tad too serious. Even when he was trying to look cheery, he managed to fail miserably and slip back into a constant state of gloom. It wasn't his fault that this sucked, though. "I'm guessing they just attacked you out of nowhere, huh?" Normally there had to be a reason for instigating the fight, but right now the whole war was reason enough for anyone to attack. "Jerks. I don't know either of them well, but it makes me sick to see people I used to be allied with stooping this low."
Not that other elements were completely innocent. Water was especially spiteful when the Fire element riled them up enough. He could still remember when they'd flooded the dormitories and everyone had gotten sick and their powers had stopped working for a few weeks. That had made Josh panic something terrible. First of all, drowning was his worst nightmare. When water had started pouring through the sanctuary of the Fire dormitories, he'd probably been one of the first to try and barricade himself into his dormitory in fear of it. It had been hot water, too, thanks to the absolute heat of the dorms. Despite the efforts of everyone to get out of the way, it had poured through the smallest of cracks under doors and filled the rooms with teasing slowness. That had been hell. He had literally thought he'd lost his affinity for Fire by the end of it. He'd stayed to attend his non-elemental classes, but a lot of the students had dropped out or gone home. So it wasn't just his element that could go too far... but there was a serious difference between a massive and dangerous prank and murder.
He was stubborn as usual, however, when Nell expressed more concern for his own exhaustion than her well-being. "Sure I should have," he argued, but it was not a fierce argument. "The Medical Wing is insane, I was up there with Elaine the other day. It's packed. You'd have to have waited for hours." He was quiet for a moment as he thought of how to word what he was going to say next. As it was, he started slowly and spoke with hesitance, "Besides, I don't think you can go to the Medical Wing, Nell." His tone was full of regret and apology, even if it wasn't his fault. "Even if I went with you, if a bunch of your own element went... there are always a large crowd there. It's a sanctuary, but you walking in there? It's like painting a target on your back and standing in the shooting range." Translating to, 'Not a good idea. At all.' "I've just had a bit of an off day for stamina, that's all," he assured her. It was only partially a lie, but he certainly didn't include the fact that he had a bunch of Thunder graduates planning to hunt him down. "And just leaving it would be a horrible idea," he frowned. "That's needless torture of yourself. No way I'd let you do that." Even the idea of it displeased him.
He winced. It was true, he was going to have to skive off a couple of his lessons in order to get away from the school. It didn't sound right, and that was because it wasn't. He never skipped classes, it was like a sort of taboo for him unless he was ill or, like when he was recovering from the assault, seriously injured. "I just need to get away from the Academy for a while," he said, swallowing because his throat was dry and he was nervous as he made up excuses for why he wanted to run away from here as fast as fucking possible. He hoped that Nell wouldn't insist on staying at the Academy, because then he'd feel the need to stick around and protect her and that would be like painting a target on the both of them. And then she agreed that it would be nice to get away, and he had to make his breath of relief seem subtle as he nodded. "Okay. Where should we go?" He really hadn't thought that far yet. All that had been on his mind was, 'Out. Now.'
Nell suggested a playground, and though this surprised him for a moment he was not going to object. "I wouldn't call you childish," Joshua promised. "I think it's a good idea. There won't be anyone to bother us there." So he smiled with a little less difficulty this time and nodded in the direction closest to the exit, leading the way. "There's a park near where I live," he said as they walked, his tone neutral but leaning toward a lightness that wasn't usually there. It was the relief doing that, he supposed. He was trying to distract himself from the horrors of the war by focusing on nice things like parks and playgrounds. "It's got a forest and a playground and a fountain and a bunch of other stuff. I wouldn't mind just... spending the day there." He paused thoughtfully. "It's in the nicer area of town, too, so I doubt many of my former allies would think to go there. They aren't in a cheery mood, I wouldn't think." His tone was wry and accompanied by an almost sad smile.
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Post by NELL DOE DALE on Jul 2, 2011 1:03:00 GMT -5
Nell really needed to get used to the fact that there was someone around to help her. It definitely wasn’t unwelcome, it was simply different. So it took her a second to change her blank expression of surprise into a smile, because it was obvious that he was having trouble doing so himself. Josh just wasn’t a smiley person in general, but he seemed particularly gloomy now. She didn’t want that. But not even being able to come up with words that could properly express her gratitude, she laughed softly, instead opting to answer his question. ”Yep,” she responded as if it didn’t bother her in the least that she’d just been attacked. Even though it really had. A lot. "They probably don’t see it as low. Since they believe I’m a murderer, they think it’s justice.” Wrong choice of words, she thought, but she kept her face carefully placid. She was a murderer, it’s what she kept thinking whenever someone said otherwise. Nell couldn’t help it. ”Or they just do it for shits and giggles. Either way, they probably just don’t care.” It was really more disconcerting to her than she made it sound, but that was the glory of the optimistic shell she put herself in.
With Josh’s reply that he should have done it, Nell gave him a skeptical look which changed when he mentioned going to the medical wing with Elaine. The blind girl had told her about their friendship, but that wasn’t what on their mind right then. "You and Elaine had to go to the medical wing?" Her voice swelled in concern, eyes wide. If either of them got hurt... Elaine was neutral, for God's sake, didn't that mean anything? No, of course they would end up getting hurt. It was war; no one got out unscathed. And Elaine had to deal with assholes on a regular basis anyway. And even though Josh proved himself capable of taking care of himself and other students being targeting, she worried about him, too. Quietly, she asked, ”What happened?” Her gut twisted, coiling up like a snake. She hated this war more than she hated anything in her life. The fact that her friends were getting hurt because of some stupid war formulated by vindictiveness—it made her feel close to rage as she’d ever gotten. That’s one of the few ways to make Nell angry: screw with her friends. And then she realized she actually considered Josh a friend.
It seemed as if Josh didn’t want to be the one to break it to her, and when he explained what it would be like to go into the medical wing, it was clear why. She bit her lip as he explained. "I didn't think of that," she murmured pensively. "I never thought that the medical wing would be dangerous. but everything is dangerous for me now, so I shouldn’t be so surprised. I’m just a dead man walking." Nell’s jaw clenched and she looked away, her cheery mask slipping. However with his next statement she recovered her skeptical look, looking at Josh from the corner of her eye, but just sighed anyway. Still, she didn’t really believe he could have an ‘off day’ when it came to stamina. Perhaps he wasn’t getting enough sleep or hadn’t eaten well, but something told her it was more than that. Of course Mr. Future Doctor believed that she shouldn’t leave wounds unattended, but she had a lot of scars that had come about by just leaving them, so it was a moot point on his part. She said seriously, ”Torture? As I said: high pain threshold. I can walk off most injuries. That’s what I’ve been doing anyway. But nonetheless, thank you again.” She didn’t say it to brag as if having a tough skin because of past abuse was a good thing; it was a reassurance that she could at least take care of herself in that department. She didn’t want to be seen as completely useless, and the biggest thing she had going for her was a high tolerance for pain.
Okay, it looked like Josh really wanted to blow this joint. Nell had been joking about him skipping class, but he cringed when she brought it up. She wondered how badly the war was affecting him, and could tell it sucked hard. Of course it did. He was turning against his own. And they were probably attacking him, even if he hadn’t told her about it. If he was getting into trouble, she had a feeling that he wouldn’t tell her. No, it wasn’t just a feeling—it was a fact that he wouldn’t admit something like that. The only good thing is that it’s not so awkward between us now. Mostly because they were both stressed out of their minds and had bigger things to worry about than half-hearted pleasantries. She guessed that’s what happened in war. And she had a feeling that he somehow sympathized with the fact that half the school was trying to kill her—he had people who’ve apparently been trying to kill him for a while. And are still probably out for him, she realized with horror. Of course, she had people hunting for her before, but he didn’t know that.
When he seemed surprised by the idea, she blushed realizing how much she actually wanted it. Therefore, she was honestly surprised to see that he seemed somewhat cheered by the prospect of going to a playground. Nell didn’t necessarily expect him to scoff at her, but at least expected a strange look and a rejection. She was glad for that. ”Unless there’s a chance that Thunders and Fire like to hang around playgrounds,” Nell replied, truly relieved that they were getting away from the battlefield. She walked close to him for fear that someone would pop out of nowhere and attack. If they tried to attack Josh? She may just have to give up her passivity for that. After all, the main reason she kept her hands to herself was out of fear for fear of losing control while under attack. If someone else was in harm’s way? That was different. That made Nell angry, and luckily her anger was cool and silent—she was less likely to lose control. But what could she do for Josh? She was weak against Fire, and if any older students came along she was royally screwed considering how weak she was even for a senior in high school. Didn’t mean she wouldn’t try.
”Sounds like a nice park, actually. But if it’s near where you live, than that’s expected,” Nell spoke amiably, since it was apparent he wanted directions. ”The parks I’m used to are the kind where benches serves as beds for the homeless and there’s at least three swings missing from the swing set and graffiti on the playground castle.” This was The Bronx she was talking about—though he didn’t know—but it could very well be any park downtown. ”Those are the kind of parks where I honed my abilities with Earth.” This was actually revealing something pretty personal to her, but he already knew that she hadn’t attended the Academy before this year. City parks were generally considered her sanctuary anyway. When she needed to escape, she’d limp off like a wounded animal to find a secluded area to practice and pretend for a few moments that her life wasn’t shit. And that’s what she would do now. Then something hit her with the full force of a punch: It’s also where I killed my mother. The thought made her shiver a bit, even though the winter chill wasn’t as terrible as it had been before. Snapping away from her thoughts, Nell said, ”Their loss. Better for us, though. I don’t know if many truants think of going to the park, honestly.”
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Post by JOSHUA DONOVAN DALE on Jul 3, 2011 13:27:21 GMT -5
Joshua sighed, nodding slightly. It did make sense that they would see this as some sick and twisted way of 'getting back' at Nell, but it didn't make their actions any more justified. "They're still assholes," Josh muttered, shaking his head. "I'd love to give them all a taste of my power, but I'm not stupid enough to think I'm invincible." It was an admission of some sort of weakness--or at least admitting that he lacked immunity. It might have seemed like common sense, but it was a show of trust whenever Josh Dale let his guard down around someone. Even if it was as subconscious as it was now. "Fire students don't always need a reason for violence," he acknowledged grudgingly, even though he once would have had some sort of defence for the side he was allied with. ("Not all of them are bad!"). "But even for them, this is new." He'd never truly seen Fire students turn on their own, but then he reminded himself that he never really paid attention to the in-depth politics in times of war. And 'turning on your allies' usually just meant sitting out from a war and claiming to be neutral due to separate loyalties. People didn't often actually fight on the other side. When anyone brought murder into the picture, however, it changed things. Josh could acknowledge this. He understood why they attacked him, he just didn't like it. He did not understand how they could think that Nell was guilty. It was... Nell. She was just too innocent for that.
Nell seemed so concerned for Elaine--he would have smiled at her if he'd had the energy to make an effort. "She's okay," was the first thing he said, reassuring Nell almost in the same way he always tried to make light of a situation for his sister's sake. But at the same time it was very different; he shielded Annabel, whereas he was just trying to make sure that Nell didn't worry too much. She wasn't blind to the evils of the world, he didn't need to provide a barrier for innocence that was already shattered. "Some fucking Thunder student messed her up a little." He was silent for a moment, then, "I broke his arm." It was as simple as that, stated matter-of-fact and without regrets. You didn't hurt his friends, he wouldn't let you hurt his friends. Seething for a moment longer, Joshua's expression was all scowl and no brightness. "I hate even the idea of someone going after Elaine," he spat. "She's neutral--she told me so herself! I just don't get why those stupid assholes like to go after her all the time! Do they think picking on the blind girl makes them look tough? Bunch of fucking cowards." A wave of extreme heat swept the hall, and he winced a little as he remembered Nell's weakness to Fire. "Shit, sorry." The apology was both sincere and effortless this time around. The war really was erasing all of their usual awkwardness, but it came at a terrible price.
His expression could only be described as grim as he nodded slightly. It was sad to think that the one place in the Academy that was supposed to be safe wouldn't even harbour Nell. "I wish there was something I could do about it, but..." He trailed off, and the message was clear enough: 'there isn't'. "Though honestly if it was bad enough, there's always the hospital in Maple Hollow. I know you'd be safe there. They just couldn't heal any elemental wounds like the Academy can." He could guarantee safety at Maple Hollow's medical centre because he knew that his father would never refuse to have someone treated if they were a friend of his son's. Josh and Donovan shared a very strange relationship indeed. "Let's just hope it doesn't come to that." Really, right now hope was all that they had. Their situation was so incredibly bleak and frightening that they just had to put all of their hopes into the 'what ifs' and the 'hopefullys'.
It displeased him that she treated her injuries so lightly, spoke of 'walking them off' as if it was nothing. He usually didn't give a rat's ass how someone treated their medical history, but since this was Nell and he was actually warming up to her, the whole 'giving a damn' thing kept getting in the way. "You should care a lot more than you seem to," he said stubbornly, frowning. It wasn't fair to her, having all of these people out for her blood, but that didn't mean she should just walk around with a bunch of cuts, bruises, and burn marks. He could take care of any burns but he really didn't know any Thunder elemental with healing capabilities that was on their side. Damn it, this sucked so much. "One injury might not seem like much but they'll stack, and that won't be good. Not to mention infections, blood loss, weakness..." He closed his mouth for a minute to stop himself from going on a tangent about how dangerous it was to just leave wounds hanging. He may have seemed like a hypocrite considering how fast he'd taken the bandage off of his horrid injuries, but it was different somehow. He had a doctor in the family that would easily be able to tell him if something was going wrong and would be able to fix it just as quick. Nell...
He realised then that he knew absolutely nothing of her family, save for the fact that she 'used to' have a sister, implying that they'd either lost contact or there had been a death in the family. He'd dropped it at that, and he certainly wasn't going to bring it back up yet just in case it was a sensitive subject. But she never mentioned any parents or other siblings, and he knew that she lived alone. I wonder why...? Wondering but never asking. It seemed to be a daily occurrence between the two--well, at least once every time they were in company of one another. The war was eliminating a lot of the discomfort, but the lack of knowledge and trust was still there. He realised with an oddly sick feeling that she knew much more about him than he did about her, and this frightened him. He'd crossed a line, there. He'd sworn to himself that he'd never tell anyone anything unless he got some information in return and knew that they couldn't use it against him. But Nell? Nell...? I don't know anything. Shit! Suddenly he didn't feel so good.
She managed to snap him out of it momentarily by going on about the park that he'd mentioned, but though he was listening and nodding and seemed whole-heartedly as if he was paying attention to her, his mind was truly somewhere else. Oh god, oh shit. Breathe, Joshua, breathe. Let's just hope he didn't go into a panic attack or anything--that would have been a give-away. "There was a park like that near m--the apartment. It definitely didn't look like a good place for kids to hang around." No, it was usually stoners and homeless folk that frequented those parks. Parents would sooner take their kids for a walk to the schoolyard than the putrid and disgusting parks of which Nell spoke. But this park was clean and breathtaking, the pride of Maple Hollow's upper-class neighbourhood. He sometimes went there with the family dog and Annabel would tag along. They'd let Quartz run around and they'd sit on the playground equipment--not really doing anything, just sitting there from the higher vantage point and talking. He loved his little sister, he really did. "Really?" He was surprised that she'd learned her Earthen powers in one of those shitty parks rather than somewhere more... suitable. He'd known she hadn't attended the Academy, but... "I just went to the school--why didn't you go? Didn't they ever ask? They're supposed to contact any elemental when they turn fourteen if their parents don't enrol them." He didn't have a fancy story about the serious business agents that showed up at the door--Donovan and Patricia had registered his name in the Academy roster since birth, and when his powers did surface he'd been sent off the minute the year turned prime.
Joshua offered to drive, and this time it was a much different car that greeted them in the parking lot. He felt strangely self-conscious as he unlocked the doors and held the passenger side open for Nell--it was an old habit of politeness that had been drilled into him by his parents to impress their friends at the parties and galas. He barely thought about it any more. But that wasn't what was making him feel strange--it was the fact that the sleek black vehicle was an incredibly expensive sports car that made him conscious of the fact that it was so noticeable. His father had given him back the keys almost immediately after he'd paid him back (even though Don had never actually asked for the 'stolen' money). He suspected that Donovan had just been keeping them out of spite and thus had been guilted into handing them back once his son displayed some sign of regret.
He was much more pleasant company on the drive this time around, turning on the radio (though he kept it low so that they could still hear one another) and keeping up conversation about silly things like classes and parks and random things. He told Nell about how Annabel thought she was pretty and how it had popped up randomly in conversation, told her of how he'd officially moved back into his parents' house, pointless things that didn't reveal too much but still helped to fill silences that would otherwise have turned awkward. And then they were pulling into the wide parking lot across the road from the park, and he got out of the car with a, "So what should we do first? The playground is over that way." He pointed, shielding his eyes from the sun to the snow-covered equipment. He could fix any issues of cold and wetness, though.
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Post by NELL DOE DALE on Jul 4, 2011 14:21:19 GMT -5
Even as Josh assured her Elaine was okay, she couldn’t let herself be too comforted. Oh dear god, it was almost as if her heart was using her ringers as a drum pad. Her own injuries and concerns were easily pushed aside--it really got to her when her friends were hurt. She felt the closest to crying she'd been in a while, and chalked it up to stress. Josh was trying to reassure her, she couldn't freak out and break down like a baby. The fact that she was upset, though, showed in how her face scrunched up. "She...someone went after her..." This is what Nell wanted to avoid, why she supported her friend’s neutrality (other than the fact that Alex Blackthorn was Elaine’s friend). And now here she was getting attacked by a Thunder student. "Thank god you were there," she sighed, trying to calm some. It was too easy for her to get worked up now. She almost smiled when he stated he broke the kid’s arm. "Usually I don’t advocate violence, but anyone who lays a hand on Elaine obviously deserves it." She realized then that at least there was something in common with Josh—their friends were triggers for their wrath. Which meant that Elaine had better not be fucked with again. Nell wasn't a serious threat in terms of physical or elemental strength like Josh was—but she was crafty.
As the Fire student practically ranted, Nell blinked. Yeah, you definitely did not screw with Josh’s friends. Again, she almost smiled. She felt much better knowing that Elaine had people to protect her. It made the knot in her stomach loosen a bit, but there was still the fact the girl was going to be attacked. She flinched at the sudden heat wave, feeling her energy drain somewhat. Josh caught it in time for it not to have serious effect. "No, it's okay. You're mad, as you very well should be.” Her hand clenched into a fist by her side. If Elaine ever got seriously hurt... Nell felt physical sickness so much as considering it. She realized then how much of the Fuentes vindictiveness she'd inherited. "I swear by all that is holy if someone even looks at her funny in my presence I'll show them how much of a threat I can be." She didn't sound mad—her voice was completely level. But that’s just how Nell’s anger worked. ”This war is just getting more and more stupid by the second.” Nell didn’t care that her friend had chosen neutrality, it didn’t make much of a difference to her—no matter what, she’d always be there for her friend, even if that friend couldn’t exactly be there for her.
Nell understood that he couldn’t help in that department. Wouldn’t even ask him to. He was already doing more than she had ever asked for her, and she still felt bad for him turning on Fire as if she was somehow responsible for his decision. ”That’s you dad's hospital, right?” And since Josh had said that his entire family was full of Fire elementals, than she could believe that the hospital was better than the school’s own medical wing. How ironic that a place meant for normal injuries would be better for her than one for elemental injuries. She felt herself deflate a bit, thinking about it all. ”I won’t let it come to that.” Promising herself that it would take care of herself, she thought of how desperate and useless such thoughts were. There was no guarantee that she would get away from all this without serious repercussions. And that was absolutely terrifying.
It seemed she'd been unsuccessful in assuring him about her brushing off of injuries. As a matter of fact, it caused even more consternation. "Josh..." she sighed. "I want you to understand that any injury I get in this war is just a scratch compared to things I've been put through before. It's not that I don't care, really, it's that I've been...desensitized. I especially know about injuries stacking up." Oh, how did she know. She had to say being both physically and psychologically abused by your own mother for upwards of ten years was a bit worse than strangers coming up and attacking you. But they were almost on the same damn level. "Blood loss and infection—been there, done that. Let's call it immunity." Nell bit her lip. Okay, maybe that was too much. She sighed. "I'm not invincible, I know. But I'm not completely weak either." Most wouldn't believe that violence had been a defining principle in her life. She was a pacifistic doormat, after all. But that was part of why she took it for so long. It was as if he mother had given her training from hell in preparation for this war. "But thank you for caring. It means more to me than you know." She was always shocked by general human decency, especially when expressed by Josh. She thought he generally wouldn't care—but she was sure now that he was a good person, no matter how they first met. Obviously he did care, and having someone care about her injuries other than causing them—it was a very nice new experience.
Nell noticed that he fell silent after a while and she normally wouldn’t have called attention to this. After all, it was Josh. He was a silent person. But more than anything, she was worried about his well-being. "Josh, are you really okay?" she asked, her eyebrows furrowing. "I understand that you want to get away from school, but you've been put through hell lately...if you need to go to the medical wing or rest at home, just tell me." She was still worrying about the injuries he'd sustained from the jumping. He didn’t need this much stress right now and just as she had been concerned about Elaine, she was worried about his health right now. She didn’t know exactly what else was occupying his thoughts, but she knew this war was a terrible time for everyone. Which is why she wanted it to end as quickly as possible. But how would that happen? What did they have to do to clear her name? A pang of fear entered her heart when she realized that if anyone found out about what happened in America, it’d be over for her. That seemed like a greater possibility when her father was probably only a week away from moving here. Would he sell me out? Would he even bring it up? Great, she didn’t need this to weigh on her mind either. Her father was just another thing to stress about.
Josh seemed to be paying attention to her words, but she studied him carefully. Just how bad was he doing, really? Would he tell her if something was seriously wrong? ”When you grow up in the projects and have nothing better to do, kids go where they can. Where I grew up, people used fire hydrants to cool off in the summer.” She was pretty sure such an action was illegal, but it was the city, and the slums to boot—pretty much no one had a pool. She didn’t understand upper-class or even middle-class life. It was something completely foreign to her. But Josh had grown up in the lap of luxury, as she now knew. This park in Maple Hollow might have been a place where he’d spent a lot of time. She only wished she had had something like it years ago. He seemed surprised by the fact that she had to use a slummy park for practice. ”In the city, you do what you can. I didn’t have any forests or wilderness, unfortunately.” With his next question, she immediately bristled. Shackles up, deadbolt in place. She shrugged. "It's complicated," came her stock response, recited like a robotic voice when calling for customer service. Okay, maybe she could have said something like ‘my mother didn’t want me to go’ but she didn’t even want to say that.
It seemed that Josh had a new car, but she figured it was the one that Annabel had talked about when first meeting the girl. "Nice wheels, homes," she said as she rapped her knuckles on the window, peering inside before he opened the door for her. "I was jealous of your other car--clearly you were holding back the big guns." She knew that she was forming a fascination with automobiles like one of those people who drooled over a classic muscle car like some sort of freak. Too bad her Monte Carlo was sitting like a derelict in the parking lot. She had only recently realized why no one had bothered to even jack the tires—they were just that bad that no one thought it was worth it. Nell was surprised a bit by the small talk, but she enjoyed it. Especially talk about Annabel. Get her started on kids, and there was almost no end to her gushing. She found herself again wishing she had a sibling, but felt that was a bit cruel to Tilly’s memory. The girl was and always would be Nell’s only sister. Unless, of course, papa got remarried and has a family of his own. But if he moved so easily, then probably not. Who knew, maybe he would get married again. It made her immensely bitter to think about it, so she steered her mind back to Josh.
Her demeanor brightened greatly when they reach the park. As he asked what to do first, her answer was immediate as she started jogging toward the playground. ”Playground, playground!” Heading through the gates, she looked around wondering what to go on first. She flitted around a bit, going in the castle and the rock-climbing wall, before she set eyes on the swings. It was the first time she ever saw a swing set without the seats hanging from one chain, or twisted around the top. Wondering who could ever get their jollies from such a thing, she noticed the seat was wet from melting snow, and decided to stand on it as she swung. ”Do you ever take Annabel here?” she asked Josh with a large smile. Unfortunately, she thought of her sister again and how she wished she could have brought the girl out to have fun. But that would have been ten kinds of dangerous. Stop thinking like that, Nell. Instead, she focused on what else she wanted to do. The monkey bars, definitely, and the merry-go-round too. There actually hadn’t been one where she used to frequent. And instead of letting her thoughts wander to the past, she thought of how fun playgrounds still are even though she was practically an adult now.
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Post by JOSHUA DONOVAN DALE on Jul 7, 2011 16:36:57 GMT -5
Joshua was surprised to see Nell get defensive over Elaine--at least in the threatening sense, that is. He was accustomed to the fact that she was an Earth student and a pacifist, that she likely wasn't going to fight back against anyone unless it was literally a life or death situation. So hearing her make threats against those that challenged Elaine made his lips twitch slightly. "It's good to know she has people looking out for her," he said, sounding softly relieved about this. By 'people', he was obviously indicating those other than himself. He wondered where Alex stood in all of this. Elaine had confessed that he was the reason she wouldn't outright oppose the Fire and Thunder elementals, and so he wondered whether Mr. Jackass would step up and defend the Wind girl if the situation called for it. He was sure quick enough to call exile on a few of his own. I wouldn't put it past him to ignore her pain. Joshua wasn't too offended that he'd been kicked out--as well as a few others like Harley--but it made him doubt Alex Blackthorn's decency. He didn't trust the guy, never had, and he certainly didn't trust him around Elaine. "She's tough, but there are some situations that would just... be too much." He didn't like to bring this up around Elaine because he didn't want the girl to think he was calling her weak, or any less capable than someone else. But her wind sight was necessary in a fight and thus would drain her energy faster. If two or more attacked at once, she'd be at a severe disadvantage. So he'd protect her from a distance if he had to.
At her question on the hospital, he only gave a subtle dip of his head. Again he felt a mild prickle of discomfort, but then he reminded himself that she already knew that part of his life, he didn't have the ability nor the need to hide from it any longer. Still, there was a part of him that regretted revealing such things as the wealth and status of his parents, that the gang which had attacked him he had previous connections with. For what did he have in return to nail her with if it came to a battle of blackmail? Joshua was always suspicious in some way, always. She wasn't from Canada, but that wasn't enough. So what? It wasn't like she fucking border hopped or anything--the school probably handled her crossing into the country like they did for most of their international students. Basically, he felt backed into a corner by all of the information he'd leaked out. However, they were in a war and thus he forced himself to push this to the back of his mind. She said she wouldn't let it come to that and he winced a little in hesitation. "Nell," he sighed, trying to choose his words carefully. "They don't always fight fair. They might... well, there were only two this time, but I've seen worse. You might not have a choice." Again he felt bad about pointing out disadvantages, but there was no use in just keeping his mouth shut.
She dug an even deeper hole for herself when she started insisting that she'd been through worse, that she was desensitised, that she could handle it. And he didn't like this at all. He was astounded as usual by how much it bothered him, but he merely shook his head before speaking to Nell. "I can believe you've been through hell," he said slowly--and he could, for why would someone lie? "but so have I, and you don't see me passing off every injury as unimportant." Well, he was sort of lying through his teeth there. The shock had not burned him with electricity, but it sure as hell left a lingering pain on his shoulder. And he'd did his best to shirk off the severity of the knife wounds. But there was a difference--he could get all of his wounds treated by simple request to his father that they take a trip down to the hospital for the bad ones. Smaller injuries could be treated right at home. Unless Nell was hiding some doctor family that she hadn't mentioned, Josh didn't think she had that luxury. "That's right, you're not invincible," he agreed a little sharply, "and I'm worried about how far you'll let something go before you do get help." He could deal with minor things. He knew how to treat infections, bandage wounds, create a tourniquet if needed. Donovan had taught him the basics of such things for if he sustained injury while away from home. But he couldn't stitch wounds, didn't have the necessary medical supplies to do most anything, and they were practically forbidden from the medical wing. This was why Nell's words bothered him.
Then she thanked him for caring, and his fierce attitude softened with surprise. Yeah, that was right. He did care. He was still getting used to it, but he did. The desire to protect her was almost funny when he considered that she'd been needing protection from him the day they'd met, brandishing his switchblade and making threats. He would have done it, too. But not now. Now the only reason he'd be using the knife would be to threaten cutting the throats of any that tried to take her out permanently. "Any time," he said, and with the awkwardness this brought into the situation Josh fell silent and left it at that.
Nell asked him how he was doing, and all manner of hypocrisy came back as he shrugged and said predictably, "I'm fine." There was never anything seriously wrong with Joshua, heaven forbid. He'd gotten so close to admitting true weakness when she'd seen him at his apartment--damn it, there was the panic again! She knew too much, far too much and it was strangling his nerves to death. There was also the attack from the Thunder students, but she wasn't aware of that and he certainly wasn't planning to tell her when he was in this much of a panic. He could literally feel it fluttering in his chest and severely hoped he wouldn't start breathing quickly and shaking. Panic attacks were a rare occurrence for Joshua, he usually didn't allow himself to lose composure, but they had certainly happened before. "I don't need the medical wing, I've got a doctor for a father, remember?" Damn it, don't lose control now. "And I certainly think that making sure nothing goes wrong at school is more important than resting at home right now."
'It's complicated'?
So she didn't want to talk about it. Normally that was fine, normally Joshua would be able to nod with clear conscience and move on. But normally people knew nothing about him in return. This sucked. Even still, he did force the nod and further still demanded that he not pursue to the subject. If Nell didn't want to talk, that was Nell's choice. He'd just have to be more careful about what he said in return. She complimented his car and he chuckled a bit, the sound a tad strained. "It was a gift," he said, not going into specifics because he was still very distracted by his fighting of the panic. Damn it, he felt like a child. He was being stupid about this whole thing--he knew that, but he couldn't shake it.
Nell seemed very excited about the playground, something that surprised him a little. He had known that it was her suggestion and all, but he hadn't guessed at just how eager she would be. Still, something about it made him almost smile. Maybe he could relax if he just focused on the here and now rather than what she knew of him and what he didn't of her. Calm down, he thought, placating himself. He followed more slowly, but he was still near enough to catch the question about his sister. "Sometimes," he nodded. "You can walk to my house from here... well, it's a bit of a distance, but it's not alarmingly far." He paused after he said this, analyzing. But no, there were a lot of homes which you could walk to from the park. She wouldn't be able to guess which of the many it was. Plus, the home had a front gate and a large driveway that led into the garage, it wasn't like she could spot his car parked outside and pin it. Of course not, don't be ridiculous.
The monkey bars were situated close to the swings--they were meant for children or at least shorter teenagers, so he was literally taller than the equipment by a small amount. He grasped one of the bars and move to sit on top of the structure. As uncomfortable as it was on the backside, the bench was too far away to sit and talk normally, so he made do with their surroundings. "I hope I didn't make you miss any important classes by coming with me," he mused--of course he'd think about class at a time like this.
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Post by NELL DOE DALE on Jul 7, 2011 20:13:31 GMT -5
Nell smiled softly, friendly and serene as if she just hadn’t threatened those who would harm Elaine seconds ago. ”’Course,” she said with a chipper tone. Nell hoped her friend knew this too. Despite her neutrality, she was never alone. She just wished politics didn’t get in the way, because politics didn’t see relationships and emotions. Politics were blind. In the back of her head, she found herself hoping that Alexandre wasn’t either. She could care less about the fact that he back up the Thunder leaders in attacking her—if he didn’t support Elaine, he would be dealing with a protective Nell. She knew about the feeling Elaine had for him, and if he ever stood by if she got hurt… Nell grinned at his words. ”She’s amazing, I’ll tell you what. But…you’re right. Everyone needs allies.” No one could survive on their own, even if they wished to. She’d been told humans were ‘social creatures’, and though she remembered exactly who had told her that, she’d rather not think of him. ”Ya know…the same goes for you. I’ve got your back when the shit hits the fan.” She blushed a bit and muttered, ”Pardon my language.”
Josh was so quiet sometimes, she wondered why she kept finding it odd. Still, his simple nods and lack of reply still were out-of-place in a way. It always felt like there was something else underneath what he was letting on, and it made her feel a bit disconcerted. She steeled herself against his reply, and shrugged her shoulders half-heartedly. Then she realized how rude that was of her and added on, ”Yeah, I figured as much.” Because she had told him that she would let it get too bad, she didn’t say aloud what she was truly thinking: what can I do about it, though? Her tough front was well-enough adjusted that these thoughts didn’t come through in any way. She was carefully building up her new shield for this war.
Her lecture senses began tingling, and she looked away self-consciously in preparation. ”I’m…pretty sure you’re different,” she said just as slowly, then winced at the way she phrased it. ”I’m not going to pretend to know your past or anything, but…we’re different people. We handle our wounds…differently.” Maybe his parents did abuse him, she didn’t know. Was that a common thing? If so, it was terrible. But then…why would he have moved back in with them? Whatever the case, they were different in the way they dealt with injuries were different. His father was a doctor, he had someone there to help. Her mother was the one inflicting wounds, and so she didn’t know how to seek others for help. ”I—“ she stopped short and looked down. It was sad, how right he was. She felt like an impudent child being scolded, but she tried not to let the defensiveness come through in her voice. ”I’ll get help when I need it,” she said, a soft-spoken compromise. The two probably had different ideas of when I need it. She reminded herself of one of her creeds—that she needed to stay healthy because she was the ‘surviving twin’. Okay, time to listen to Josh and try to be more responsible. She still didn’t know how to reach out and ask for help, though, and was still stubbornly dependent on herself.
Her gaze was both skeptical and critical, but she didn’t force him to admit that something was wrong. ”Whatever you say,” she said, her voice like a sigh. No way in hell was he fine, despite what he said. This was war. No one was fine. But she’d let him have his trite dismissals, because if something was seriously wrong even he would say something. At least she’d hope. She really hoped. But then she remembered he’d have no reason to tell her if anything was wrong. He had his doctor father, after all, it wasn’t like he needed her. And he pretty much spoke her thoughts aloud then. She nodded. ”Okay, then do you want to go to the hospital?” Nell was only half-joking. Lifting an eyebrow at his next words, she didn’t respond. Their priorities were a bit different—she was more concerned about his well-being than anything about school, really.
It looked as though something was bothering him, from what she could see. Even more so than before by how strangely tense the situation was. After studying his face for a moment, Nell sighed. ”My mother didn’t want me to go to the Academy. She…hid me, you could say.” Shrugging, she smiled a bit even though it was one of the many feigned smiles in her stock. Because Nell always smiled, she had many different kinds in her arsenal. ”Not so complicated, actually. Rather boring.” That’s because it wasn’t the whole story, but it was still a lot more than she normally gave out. The reason she released this information? She was starting to see it was all quid pro quo with Josh. She got the feeling that he didn’t understand what trust was—that he thought it came from how much you knew about someone else, but in fact it was believing in someone in spite of what you didn’t know. ”I hope you weren’t expecting some grand adventure of how I journeyed from lands far, far away to this strange new country.” She decided not to question what exactly the gift was for, and it seemed now that they were away from the school environment, the situation was awkward again.
But a topic she liked to talk about was his sister, which may be a little odd, but no one was truly normal. She wasn’t exactly sure what ‘normal’ would be. ”Darn, that sounds nice to be able to walk to this park so you can come whenever you like.” Nell would have been spending a lot more time here if it were in walking distance to her place. But it wasn’t, and so she would enjoy the time she had now, swinging but not really gaining any real height. She never really spared time to swing in the parks she honed her skills in. Or crawl through the castle tunnels since that’s where the homeless tended to curl up in. And she didn’t stay out in the open for fear of being mugged or raped. Even back then, she had some common sense. Of course, there were the darker moments when those things would have been a relief. She shivered thinking about it—oh god, there were so many times she’d had terrible thoughts like those.
She looked up at Josh as he sat on the monkey bars like the freaking kind of the playground. That made her giggle a bit. ”Tsk, tsk, Joshua, all classes are important,” she chided lightly, taking one hand off of the swing to waggle her finger. ”It’s not anything I can’t make up.” A lot of her classes were ‘make up’ classes, though. ”Now that it’s beginning to thaw out, I’m able to use my powers a lot more now, so that’s helping with the practical part of learning. Especially since I have the Academy to help now…I’ll be getting stronger real soon.” That’s what it was all about, after all. Especially during this war. But she wouldn’t think about that on the playground.
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Post by JOSHUA DONOVAN DALE on Jul 9, 2011 4:51:33 GMT -5
Joshua blinked when she told him that she had his back as well. It really shouldn't have surprised him considering they were on the same side in this war and that he was protecting her, but the rush of strange and foreign gratitude that smacked into his chest when he heard the words astounded him. See, Josh wasn't used to having people on his side. Even his 'friends', people like Jake that he got along with... they usually weren't privy to the dangers that he was facing and the things that he had to deal with involving the gang and his parents and the people that attacked him as those Thunder kids just had. He'd never really had anyone to look out for him. He ducked his head a little, suddenly sheepish. "I... yeah, thanks," he said, embarrassed by how flustered that made him. He recovered quickly however, clearing his throat and saying, "Same goes for you, of course. I mean I've already been doing what I can, but... I'm definitely on your side. War or otherwise." He supposed that he just needed to further vocalise his loyalty to Nell. The fact that he was a Fire student with a reputation for shiftiness and violence made him assume that Nell might not trust him as much as he believed he could be trusted, so it was always a good time to remind her that he wasn't planning to back out or anything. "As for your language," he added, using humour to clear up any awkwardness, "you've never heard me on a bad day." Well, no. She'd heard him drunk, and that was much worse. But the fact that Josh remembered only the haziest of details from this night (and almost nothing about the confrontation itself) meant that it was all null and void in his thoughts.
It made him angrier than it should have, the way that she suggested they were 'different'. "No, you don't know my past," he said a bit stiffly, trying not to go off into a rant but still showing signs of his suppressed rage in the way that heat started to flood the area in which they were once more. This time he was unable to stop it as quickly due to the fact that he was more focused on what she was saying. "And I don't know yours. Hell, we've probably both been through tough shit. Most people have. Doesn't change the fact that we're mortal no matter who we are." Nell probably assumed that he'd had every single injury he'd ever suffered treated expertly by his dad. What she couldn't know was that he'd hidden a lot of the injuries from him--those which he'd gotten in gang fights and mix-ups that he didn't want Daddy and Mommy to know about. He'd had to recover from a lot of those on his own. "I never said you were weak," he pointed out, inhaling deeply to try and relax, calm down a little. "I'm just suggesting that you shouldn't let shit go too far. If you miss out on one injury being treated, it leaves you weakened for when they strike again." Unfortunately he spoke from experience, and the grim nature of his tone suggested as much.
"But will you? Really?" His voice was a challenge as he narrowed colourless eyes in her direction, more fierce than actually enraged at this point. The air was still warm, though perhaps not as sweltering as it had been when she'd first found a sensitive spot in his armour. He realised how demeaning this could come off as however, so he sighed and forced himself to amend, "I'm just worried about this whole war deal. I've been through these things before and it's never pretty. People have died, and usually they've been accidents." An unspoken sentence hung in the air, 'Your death would be far from an accident.' And he was worried. He admitted it not only because it was true, but because he wanted to reassure her that he wasn't just trying to be a dick about this whole thing. She joked about hospitals after she returned the question, however, and this disappated some of his anger as he chuckled wryly. "Touché," he acknowledged, because no--he did not want to. They were both a pair of stubborn idiots when it came to their well-being, it seemed. Another similarity in a field of differences.
If it was that simple, why hadn't Nell just said so in the first place? There was a flicker of his usual ever-suspicious doubt, but Joshua forced himself to accept her words. Don't over-analyse. The girls mother might have just wanted her to stay home, it's not that much of a stretch. The Academy was out of the country, after all. They'd have only seen one another on holidays. "I guess she gave up on trying to keep you home eventually, huh?" He chuckled, seeing as Nell was here against the odds, or whatever. "Or did you just make the decision on your own?" He wasn't trying to pry, and by this time had fully shaken off his suspicious nature and accepted her words to be completely honest. After all, look at how much he hid from her that made no sense! He'd been reluctant to say anything at all, in the beginning. Not even the fact that he was bilingual had been a comfortable admission. "Still more exciting than me. I've been enrolled since before I knew what the hell an elemental was." He wouldn't really have been given a choice as to whether he wanted to attend, but seeing as he had aspired to go to the Academy the forcing wasn't really forcing after all.
His lips twitched into a quiet smile. "I come here alone sometimes when I want a change from the woods in our backyard." His mother's garden just out back was grand and beautiful and was mostly cared for by Patricia herself, only taken over by a gardener when she was incredibly busy. It was a nice place to sit and read his books, but sometimes even Josh desired a change of scenery. Annabel liked to lounge by the lakeshore but Joshua wouldn't go within ten feet on any side ever since the incident of his youth that had brought about the fear of deep water in the first place. He chuckled when she jokingly chided him, especially since he was usually the one spouting about the importance of education. "That's great," he said honestly when she spoke of getting more adapted now that the winter was fading. He hadn't really felt the change in his powers thanks to his injuries, but he lied and said, "The same goes for myself. The coming of spring is really a good time for both our elements."
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Post by NELL DOE DALE on Jul 10, 2011 20:39:47 GMT -5
Josh was clearly expert at the Hallmark moment. He seemed timid about accepting such a thing. Maybe he wasn’t used to support, either. Maybe he wasn’t used to people being on his side. She guessed for a lot it was easier to give than to receive. Her lips twitched up when she said, ”Noted.” Of course, that didn’t exactly describe just how thankful she was. No words could. And she felt that if she kept saying ‘it means a lot’ it would start to lose its meaning to the receiver. And she didn’t want to say ‘hey, this feels kind of weird’ to actually have someone say that they were actively helping her… ”And you already have quite the potty mouth, so that’s saying something,” she said, though it didn’t bother her. She just didn’t really like to swear herself—part of her father’s influence, of course. Why did he have to be the one who gave any semblance of raising her? In any case, if she really cursed it would be out of fear or injury and most of the time was in Spanish. The only time she considered it less rude to speak in another language in front of others. As for Josh’s language…well, after the first time she met him, it was hard to imagine worse.
Nell’s jaw clenched at the heat spike, like a zapping force she never was aware of before. After all, she’d never had to deal with Fire elementals before. So great, he was angry. She was getting sick of dramatic from everyone around her, all the overreactions she had experience in her lifetime. And made her a little less frightened at this show, and just plain fatigued. She sighed and shook out her hair in exasperation. "I just meant everyone is different." Nell stopped talking then, shaking her head. She didn't want to argue with him, she hated arguing. Let him think and say what he wanted. The amount of honesty was not lost on her, and she felt like she was being talked down to as if she didn’t understand. It made her silent as she gazed at him. They were both stubborn people, so she didn’t feel like arguing anymore with him. Yes, she knew about being weak and vulnerable to the next attack. Apparently he did, too, and she didn’t doubt that. Her life was spent that way, and she wasn’t going to sit around and pity herself like she had for ten years. She would push through any injuries and move on—it was her way of breaking through the ‘victim’ complex. In asking other’s for assistance, it made her feel like she was still a weak little girl.
She really just wished he’d take a chill pill and get over it, but she understood his anger. Kind of. Not really, actually, but she didn’t make comment on it. Just give him time and he’ll calm, is all. "I can take care of myself," Nell retorted with a pointed look daring him to try to argue against it. She'd been taking care of herself her whole life. But that didn't even matter now, did it? At least she had her Survival 101 list to go off of. She blinked calmly at him, arms crossed. "I...understand how serious this situation is. And I'm aware that there’s a strong likelihood that I’ll be killed. It’s kind of hard not to be aware when half the school is going all ‘eye for an eye, tooth for a tooth’ and hurting your friends." That had to be the worst part, her friends being in danger just because they sided with her because they knew that Nell couldn’t ‘harm a fly’. It made her stomach hurt whenever someone told her that—because there was the guilt always there. Nell just wanted to stop the discussion on injuries and pain there, because it was how she worked—ignoring things. Even when it was all around her, she got by ignoring any problems. ”Trust me when I say I can handle myself, and let that be the end of it,” she said with finality. No more conversation about it, thank you.
These are normal questions that normal people talked about, and she was being exceedingly abnormal. She stiffened ever so slightly but her voice was calm as anything when she smiled and said, "I finally decided to head out on my own. My mother had no say." She almost winced at that, because that was probably the darkest thing she’d ever said aloud and Josh wasn’t aware of it. Nell tried her best not to lie—she was an honest person by nature. And she was a pretty bad liar in any case. So she made sure not to lie too much about her part. Yes, she had finally decided to run away--but her emancipation came at a price. She could have even went further by vaguely saying her mother passed away, but that would mean saying something she still didn't want to admit was real. Sometimes, it still felt like her mother was out there, and that thought was somehow more comforting than realizing the truth: the woman was dead, she'd killed her. ”Since you were fresh meat then, huh? I’m glad that I got to skip that at least.” The hazing process hadn’t affected her, but now it seemed she couldn’t avoid bullies. Way to be positive, Nell.
Unfortunately for Josh, she liked to talk about other people more than herself. She tried to hold back when it came to him, though, since he was a very personal person in everything. ”Woods…in your backyard…” she said, pretty disbelievingly. She’d never heard of it. ”Sorry,” Nell said, shaking her head because it must have been a little bit odd. ”I’m used to the concrete jungle. My backyard growing up was most likely gang territory and a chain-link fence.” And now it was pretty much the same, and she chuckled at the thought. It didn’t really bother her as much as she should have. But hey, life was life, there was nothing she could do about it. ”Do you go out in the woods a lot?” She would, but she was an Earth student. He was Fire. There were seas of differences between them. She blinked in surprise when he showed actual approval. ”Fire too? How so?” Nell really didn’t know about the other element. At all. She thought before she had gotten what she needed to know from her family—after meeting her aunt, she was surprised to see other Water students were not manipulative less-than-nice-words. But Thunders were not proven wrong for her from the Fuentes family, and she was pretty much a paragon for Earth. Fires just hadn’t been on the map for a while.
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Post by JOSHUA DONOVAN DALE on Jul 12, 2011 6:56:39 GMT -5
Joshua clenched his jaw and carefully held back a sigh as Nell grew irritated with him. This was why he didn't like talking to people. To Joshua, it was always too much of an effort to explain his side because he was so closed off and impersonal in conversation--trying to argue a point was difficult when you were in parallel trying to avoid saying too much. It got worse when argument was involved or his words were taken the wrong way. Even though he was getting better with Nell, interaction was still a forced effort with Joshua. Pleasantries and 'good behaviour' had been drilled into him by parents and private schools alike, but he didn't understand casual communication like some people did, he'd never be a social butterfly. "I never said you couldn't take care of yourself," Joshua retaliated, clearly frustrated that his words were being taken as such. "I just meant--oh, forget it." The last words were half-snapped and accompanied by a short, sharp shake of his head. His expression suggested that he was grappling with some inner difficulty, but unless you were Joshua himself it would be quite hard to understand what the hell his problem was.
Truly, Josh had lots of problems. He was angry, he was anti-social, temperamental on top of that. He was violent and tended to overreact at the slightest of things, thus he couldn't develop close relationships as easily as other people. He had trust issues and personality issues and so many issues that he couldn't even begin to name himself, and yet he was trying. Really, it was amazing that he'd gotten this far with the poor girl at all. He'd tried to kill her upon their first meeting, after all. He wasn't too great at being kind and courteous when he was falling down drunk. "Whatever," he said, slightly bitter as she suggested that this be the end of their argument. The argument wasn't even the beginning of what mattered. What mattered was that he was annoyed and irritable and it was actually bothering him for once. There was a small part of him that chided the fact he was letting himself get so worked up over Nell's reaction, a part of him that seemed to be suggesting, 'Slow down, breathe. Nell isn't like most people.' And this part of him was so alien after years of being shoved into the deep, dark confines of his brain that he almost didn't know how to handle it: trust. His conscience was suggesting that he trust Nell and just drop this, assuming she meant nothing personal. The rest of him was violently rebelling, hence the frustration and the very strange expression that he was trying to keep subtle.
Talk of families wasn't much more comfortable, but at least it was her life they were talking about and not his. It was almost amusing how similar and yet different they were. Whatever different hells they'd been through, it amounted to one thing: they didn't like to discuss their personal lives. One getting something out of the other was like a diamond in a minefield. It still bugged Joshua that he knew next to nothing about her, but he at least managed to stop glowering when she smiled and answered. "Lucky. That you could just up and make the decision, I mean. A lot of kids don't have a choice because the Academy are so hell-bent on keeping us all safe." He was also subconsciously implying that she was lucky her mother didn't pull one of Donovan's stints and demand absolute control. Josh didn't know what she'd been through--all he was hearing was something he'd rarely had: free will. He'd thought that in joining the gang he was gaining his freedom, but really he'd become their lapdog, willing to do anything and everything for them. It sickened him now, looking back on it. But if he'd known everything Nell had suffered he might have counted himself lucky. "Fresh meat," he repeated, a soft snort following as he shook his head a little. "Never used that term myself. But you're right, I have been there since I was a freshman in high school." He allowed a moment of silence as he reflected on his younger years. He'd still been in the midst of the gang back then, still fighting with his father and challenging the man's authority. Things had changed over the years.
He glanced away from her awkwardly and studied the snowy landscape around them as she commented on the woods. "We have a large backyard," he said quietly, an understatement. "I was born here... I've never really known a concrete jungle save for the times I've been out of the area..." His tone was distant, suggesting that he was uncomfortable again. In his lap, his hands were slowly twisted and wringing, another subtle sign of his awkwardness. He was making an effort not to be stony and bitter as he usually was when he withdrew from everyone else, but it was a difficult process. "Gang territory," Joshua mused slowly, and his lips felt dry. "Did they ever give you trouble?" Curse your curiosity! he snapped internally. He hated the fact that he was inadvertently reminding her that he'd been involved with gangs in some way.
Of course, this made him conscious of the scar, and Joshua tilted his head even further away from her as his face flooded with colour. Damn it, he never blushed around people! Or at least very rarely. But these stupid scars made him so conscious about his looks that it was ridiculous. He'd always had a touch of vanity about his appearance--Donovan insisted it was Patricia's fault--but he'd never paid as much attention as he did now. "Sometimes," he said with a shrug, non-committal as ever. He was shrinking away again as he tended to do. Comfort comes down, walls go up. "It's quiet there." Maple Hollow was of course surrounded by wilderness, so some of the more high-class mansions didn't have direct neighbours. Theirs was one such. He enjoyed the solitude of the area and the peace it brought. He was comfortable there. He felt himself yearning to be there now, but he wouldn't ditch Nell here. "Our powers are muted in the cold months," he replied, still absent-minded but a little less soft. "When the snow melts, it's like our powers thaw out too."
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Post by NELL DOE DALE on Jul 12, 2011 11:08:04 GMT -5
Nell blinked at the Fire student while assessing him and his anger and this strange expression on his face like he was going through some internal conflict. And then she laughed. Not at him, no. She was laughing at nothing in general, really. Her frustration never lasted long when it showed up, and she easily got over it. It was one of the little things, something that didn't bother her. How could she stay mad at him when he was sacrificing so much to side with her? There was too much thankfulness and gratitude for her to be any sort of emotion except happy with him. So what if she didn’t understand him? She still didn’t understand why he was helping her, why anyone was helping her, but she stopped trying to figure it out. Now, she just figured she should accept that not everyone thought of her as a bloodthirsty killer. Oh this war is going to kill me in more ways than one.
Nell smiled and nodded as if Josh spoke the absolute truth. Lucky. It took years to make that decision, and the reason her mother had no say in it was because she… There was that sick feeling. She just wanted to stop talking about her in general, because anything relating to her made Nell’s stomach very upset. Not even thinking about how his parents must have been restrictive too could make it go away. ”I don’t really understand that,” she admitted, now with her hand resting on her stomach. ”Safe from what, exactly? There are a mass amount of elementals—I’m sure we match if not outnumber the normies.” She giggled at her use of the word, also relieved now that she shifted the conversation away from anything about parents. It was true—her family was huge and full of elementals, and she remembered that Josh’s was, too. So why all this secrecy? She chuckled as he pointed out the use of the term. ”I use it endearingly,” she said with an airy tone. ”I really like the freshmen.” Well, she liked everyone unless given a reason not to, but that was beside the point. ”Feels like I have to stick up for them sometimes, though. Us upperclassmen can be cu—let’s just say jerks.” Almost having slipped into Spanish for ‘assholes’ like she usually did when cursing, she pinched the bridge of her nose in irritation at herself. Could she just speak normally for once?
She slowed down on the swing a bit as she watched him. He was just an uncomfortable person in general, evasively answering such an innocuous question. It’s your backyard, dude. Why can’t I know about your backyard? Smiling a bit, she didn’t push. She knew better, and she was glad that she had managed some form of common sense even though this whole ‘having a conversation with another human being’ thing was quite new to her. Her first step into the real world had been aggravated ‘conversations’ with her family, one that almost erupted into a fight with her Aunt Jane. She was pretty sure the woman wanted to kill her with her own two hands, but decided to let the law do it—when she wanted someone dead, Nell had a feeling she never did it herself. Despite her secluded life, she also empathized with people well enough to realize that what may be fair game with some may be very personal stuff for another. She couldn’t talk about her parents—which was a normal topic for most—without getting a stomachache.
Her laugh was short and dry. Of course he’d like to know about the gangs. "Somehow, no," she responded looking down at her feet as she thought. "I'm surprised with how freaking stupid I was and the fact I didn't ever get myself killed. Gangs were one of the top things to worry about where I came from—aside from individual acts of violence and rape. There were a lot of drive-bys and break ins. This is The Bronx in New York, I don’t think I ever told you that." She shook her head. She could never stop beating herself up for that, for walked around like she was invincible on the streets of south Bronx. Looking back, it gave her chills. But she reminded herself she didn't have anyone to warn her of the gangs Josh was well aware of. The as a way to stop thinking about her past because she felt like she already said way too much, she gave her words a hand-wave. "Oh well, it's the past now. I don't have to deal with Latino gangs anymore." Nell snorted a bit thinking about that. In the Latino ghetto you had cholos in their low riders and baggy pants. And she could laugh at her stupidity now since nothing bad had come of it. Stuff like that wasn't too hard to talk about for her, since it wasn't very personal--just telling of street gangs in the Bronx. That Don Aunt Jane probably has her claws in. Hopefully Josh understood that she didn’t mind his gang involvement, whatever it may be. If he was a gangbanger? Well, it sucked that he had to get involved in that kind of lifestyle.
Nell looked out from the corner of her eye as he moved his head away and bit her lip to keep from sighing. Instead, she peered out over the playground, and nodded at his still evasive words. ”Don’t get me wrong, the city’s great,” she decided to say by way of taking the discomfort away from him. ”But nothing beats the wilderness, if I say so myself.” Though she didn’t pay much mind to the quiet, it was peaceful, and as an Earth student that was a plus in her book. She just loved climbing trees and looking at the flowers and she wished she could have maybe been raised by wolves so she could have enjoyed those things. Wolves would have been much better than what she had. ”Winter just sucks for everyone in general, huh,” she said, but her tone made it clear that she had no hard feelings for the season. Jumping off the seat in mid-swing, she stuck the landing and looked around, deciding what next to expend her energy on. ”Oh, merry-go-round!” she said with glee when she noticed it again. Turning, she asked Josh, ”Have you ever been on it before?” Then she flinched, and looked away. Yeah, good job on the whole ‘not being a freak from under a rock’ front. Of course he probably had done it before, what child hadn’t? What kind of question was that? God, now she felt like a complete dumbass.
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Post by JOSHUA DONOVAN DALE on Jul 12, 2011 11:53:44 GMT -5
The laugh sparked both a glare and a feeling of distrust from the boy. Is she laughing at me? He wasn't an expert on human behaviour--everything he knew came from observation alone, seeing as he didn't usually get close enough to others to actually understand him. So Josh had no way of knowing that Nell was just laughing in general. Instead, it felt to him like she found his anger amusing, and that just increased the ire. A quick glower down at his hands revealed them to be trembling softly. His breath was quickened and some of the snow was slowly starting to melt. With great effort, he swallowed hard and clenched his hands together in his lap. You are in a public park. There are people around. Do you want your powers stripped of you, or worse? Growing up, his father had always terrified him with stories of the government testing facilities. He didn't want to be targeted, so he was determined to keep his cool if only to stop from turning the area around them into a pseudo-summer. He wanted to make a snide remark in regards to Nell's laugh, but he bit back the retort and worked his jaw a little more. Self control, he thought, but mother of fuck was it ever difficult.
He could do nothing but stare at Nell for a few seconds, shocked at her words. "Mass amounts?" he echoed, trying to judge if she was joking. But her attitude seemed serious and it definitely wasn't a laughing matter which they were discussing. Well, this was awkward. He normally had no qualms about correcting people if he had more knowledge than they, but especially after he'd just avoided a major argument he certainly didn't want to spark another one. All the same, Joshua's expression contorted as he tried to think of a way to respond. "Nell... who told you that?" His tone was slightly softened in an attempt to reassure her that he wasn't trying to be condescending or anything. "I believe you've been misinformed. The humans--" It felt strange using those words, classifying themselves as non-human, "--far outnumber our kind. If we tried to reveal ourselves, we'd be slaughtered. All of us, or else farmed and tested on by the government. I don't want that life. I don't suppose you do, either." A strange look had passed over him when he'd said the word 'humans'. She'd called them normal, but Josh and Nell were normal too... for their kind. The exact ancestry of elementals was clouded by mystery and misinformation, but they certainly came from somewhere. "And we're dying out," he added softly, an afterthought. The quietness of his tone suggested that he was deep in his own mind, recalling things he'd been taught and told over the years. "Breeding with normal folk, crossing elements a little too often... it kills lineage sometimes." Of course, a Water student and a Fire student still had the same possibility of birthing an elemental as a Fire and Fire, it just halved the chances of a specific element.
Yes, Nell certainly seemed the type that would be open and accepting to all--freshmen included. "I stay out of such things." Picking on freshman and bullying the younger kids felt like child's play, like it was beneath him. He wasn't some stuck-up mature snob--he certainly had mass amounts of immaturity just lurking about--but he didn't participate in such acts that should be left behind in public schools (or so he believed). Maybe it was because he'd been bullied. Actually, that was probably the reason. But Nell didn't know about that.
She was from New York, she said. "If you did, I don't remember." A tinge of awkwardness slipped sideways into his voice as he referenced the possibility that she might have told him during a haze he did not remember. It was a bother when he became acquainted with someone under the influence of alcohol. He didn't know what they'd told him, and (even worse) he didn't know what he'd said to them. What sorts of things did I tell her...? He was a tad unpredictable when drunk. Usually he was all grinning and laughter and completely the opposite of his normal personality, but the reason he'd drank that night and the fact that it had ended in death threats suggested a much different mood of their conversations. Had he revealed anything he didn't want her to know? Don't dwell on it much unless you plan to ask. Which he didn't, so he grudgingly tried to give up the gnawing worry.
Nell was lucky that she hadn't been targeted or victimised by gang activity, this was all that he could conclude from the matter. He knew what it was like. He might wish it on his enemy--Josh was hardly one for peace, love, and happiness within rivalry--but never on someone like Nell. She was too... nice. Her kindness actually sickened him sometimes, exasperated him. It didn't make sense that someone could be so trusting or at least accepting of the human nature. I tried to kill her, and yet here we sit. What an odd situation indeed. "I won't pretend to know enough of The Bronx to compare," he said quietly, "but there is gang activity here also, sadly." Obviously. I mean, it wasn't like she'd saved him from being eliminated (assassinated) by one of them or anything. That wasn't the case at all. He also didn't understand that Nell would not judge him. He was ashamed of his past and this was why he didn't bring it up very often--didn't bring it up at all, if he could avoid doing so.
The rattling of the swing's chains as Nell jumped off alerted him, and Joshua turned his head slightly to watch her, wondering if she'd grown tired of his moodiness and decided to leave. It wouldn't surprise him, really. He was accustomed to potential friends that had upped and left because of his attitude. He approached such situations with an almost dull acceptance. But she surprised him (as usual) by instead addressing him with a cheery question about the merry-go-round. And then flinching. His brow furrowed slightly--why was she behaving oddly? It wasn't like he'd judge her if she loved them or anything (he didn't take into account the fact that this might be her first time on one). Honestly, if he was going to judge he'd have done so the moment she suggested the park. He slid easily from the bars, their surface a little slippery from the melted snow. "When I was younger," he replied, dipping his head in affirmation. "And with Annabel, of course." Now something occurred to him, and he frowned. "Why... haven't you?"
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Post by NELL DOE DALE on Jul 12, 2011 13:48:26 GMT -5
Oh jeez, he really took it the wrong way. There was just so much miscommunication between them, it was quite frightening. Especially since he seemed seriously pissed, and since Nell knew he wasn’t above violence it really concerned her sometimes. She didn’t want violence—it was something that terrified her like nothing else. ”I’m sorry, Josh,” she said, coughing slightly but still sounding very much sincere. She just kept making him angrier at her. ”I’m not laughing at you, I just realized how dumb it is of me to be arguing about something like this.” Nell was definitely not the type to laugh at someone else’s expense, but unfortunately it seemed he didn’t realize this. ”I just have better things to be worrying about than petty fights. And it’s just rude to argue with you of all people.” Yes, there was an entire war going on to occupy her time and her father’s impending move that was always in the back of her head. And she saved all her fury and anger for that man. She didn’t need to waste any sort of irritation on Josh, a person who went against his own element to protect her.
Nell blushed when she realized she must have said something strange with his incredulous stare. ”I’m wrong aren’t I?” she said slowly, studying his reaction as she fidgeted and played with a thread coming from her jeans. At his question, she shrugged, feeling self-conscious now that her ignorance was showing. ”I…assumed…” It certainly seemed that way in her eyes, at least. Nell realized how naïve she was, and so she didn’t think Josh was being patronizing at all. He was actually doing her a big favor in opening her eyes. She always felt like no matter how much she learned, she was still so painfully stupid. Speaking of opening her eyes, Nell’s widened when he mentioned what would happen should the government find out about them, and cringed. ”Oh,” she murmured. ”That doesn’t sound very pleasant. At all… I didn’t think of that, actually.” It made her feel sick to think about, as a lot of things seemed to do when she thought about them too hard. And they were dying out too? He seemed deep in thought, and even she was considering his words too. ”There’s a lot I still don’t know…” she said ruefully, rocking slowly now. Nell felt truly disappointed in herself for not being aware of what must have been these obvious things. ”I’m sorry that you had to explain something so obvious to me.”
Nell grinned then. ”Well, I’m glad you’re not a big bully,” she said. It struck a chord with her when she saw someone being picked on, and it bred a sort of protectiveness in her. But she had to admit she was a bit surprised about the fact that he didn’t go around hazing the underclassmen. He had a temper and certainly wasn’t above violence, but she reminded herself that he showed some great character—she always thought of how he sided with her, which was probably the nicest thing anyone had ever done for her. And it took a lot of balls to go against one’s own alliance. That spoke spades for his moral character to her. Even though he tried to kill her once. Let’s just try not to meet again when you’re drunk, Joshua Dale. The fact that she trusted him enough to sit with him now and hold a conversation was saying something. But everyone had their faults and vices, Nell not exempt.
Josh seemed to be implying that if she had told him about where she was from, he was drunk. And that might have been the case. For both of their benefits, she tried real hard not to remember the details of their meeting. Forgive and forget, words she lived by. But now she was very wary to escort anyone home unless they were clearly the goofy drunks. And Josh was not a goofy drunk, from what she’d seen. So no more trying to play saving grace with the violent people. At least he managed to take away some of her stubborn naiveté in that department so she never tried something like that again. Ironically, his almost shanking her was probably for her benefit.
The native Canadian didn’t seem to know about the streets of New York’s projects. ”If you’re looking for a place to get jumped in New York, The Bronx is one of your best bets,” she said to clarify just how bad it was. She didn’t truly realize this until she looked up statistics online and almost fainted when she realized what a criminal rat hole she’d been wandering as a child. ”Gangs and violence are everywhere,” she agreed with Josh’s grim acknowledgment. ”Seems I can’t escape it really.” She was thinking of the Academy as a haven, but now it had turned into a battlefield so quickly. All she wanted was to end the violence in her life. And you did that quite effectively, the taunting voice that sounded a lot like her aunt said in her head. It was making her physically sick again, so she shook it off and said gloomily, ”But that’s how the world is, I guess.” Gangs were something he especially couldn’t escape. She figured it to be a difficult subject, and so she gave no sign of continuing with it. There were a lot of things manners would not allow her to ask him, like how he was involved in gangs and whether he felt safer now that he was living with his parents.
Nell didn’t see any signal that he might have caught on to her awkwardness, because everything had to be awkward with them. She smiled when he answered though. ”Right,” she tried to brush off the really stupid question. And then he had to ask her a very normal question, one she couldn’t answer honestly. And she was just a horrible liar. ”Well…that’s because…” She reminded herself that she needed to formulate an explanation for her black box of a childhood, to fill in the spaces with lies. But how do you lie about that? ”That’s a secret, kay?” she finished lamely with a smile and wink. A horrible aversion, she knew. What was she supposed to say? She wasn’t allowed to go to parks and going out into the open in a playground would have gotten her shot or something of the like. Inspecting it like it was some kind of complicated apparatus, she jumped on the merry-go-round and almost slipped on the melted snow as she clung to the bars. ”Uh…what am I supposed to do with this?” she asked, feeling dumb all over again.
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