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Post by JOSHUA DONOVAN DALE on Jun 19, 2011 22:21:53 GMT -5
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| [cs=2][atrb=border,0,true][atrb=cellPadding,0,true][atrb=cellSpacing,0,true][atrb=style, width: 105px; height: 300px; background-image: url(http://dsmy2muqb7t4m.cloudfront.net/articles/roundup_2009_04_27/Layer_9.jpg)]This area of the town was hardly a good place for an old man to be hanging around, but there was something like determination in the colourless eyes of the senior as he cast a glare around the shady streets. "Somewhere around here..." His voice was weathered with age, but there was still some sort of sinister undercurrent that could send a shiver down the spine. His gaze locked on a certain alleyway just as he spotted someone slip into its shadows. There. That was where he needed to go. The hint of a smirk tugged at his lips as he slowly crossed the street and followed the man into the darkness. "You're looking for someone," he told the gathered men, none of whom seemed to be giving him the benefit of the doubt. Ah, well. They'd be grateful bastards when they had their catch and his damned grandson was no more than a stain on the family tree. "And I know where you can find him. His name's--"
"His name doesn't matter," one of the boys insisted, inhaling a long puff of cigarette smoke and slowly letting it out in a toxic cloud. Then he chuckled darkly. "At least... it's not going to once we're through with him. The police'll be lucky if they can identify the body." This seemed to satisfy the old man quite a bit, for the colourless optics glittered. "Good," he said. "What's in it for you, old man?" There were murmurs of agreement from the others--what did this old geezer stand to gain? "The boy is my grandson," he said, ignoring their genuine looks of surprise. "He's a shame to the family and I want him dead. That's what." The sneer deepened a little. "And of course, the payment we discussed..." This caused the unofficial spokesperson for the group to frown a little in displeasure. They didn't like to share their profits with anyone, really. But business was business. "Yeah, yeah. If your information checks out, old man, you'll get your cash and your grandson--if he really is your grandson--in a coffin to boot."
Patrick Dale smirked. "Perfect."
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He always loathed leaving the building at night. Joshua was not afraid of the dark, but there was something about the inky blackness that the young man did not trust. The old saying, 'Whatever is there in the dark is the same in the light,' came to mind, but he knew it to be wrong. Murderers couldn't hide as easily in broad daylight. Gang members couldn't hide as easily. Come on, now, you're being ridiculous, he chided himself. He had left something in his car and needed to run down real quick and get it. There wasn't too much distance between the front doors of the building and where his spot was in the lot, so he was just being silly. He knew that, but he couldn't shake the feeling of unease. This place never made him feel comfortable. Hell, he didn't feel safe anywhere. The mansion had felt safe, but that was because it was a lavish and expensive home that they didn't know existed. They didn't know his identity--and thank the gods for that.
It was chilly outside thanks to the cold winter nights, but he pulled his warmth and heat around him to block out the cold. He could see his beige-coloured car in the parking space only a couple hundred feet away, and he started toward it with a little bit of a yawn. He wasn't too tired, but maybe he'd try to sleep after this. He'd studied for an hour already and he planned to put more time in tomorrow. For now he just needed to shut his brain down for a while. He missed his sister--seeing her again for such a brief period of time had actually made things worse, reminding him how much she relied on and adored him. She thought that it was his fault he was staying away.
Thoughts of Annabel distracted him just long enough for the older boy to creep up behind him, hefting the baseball bat in his hands. Josh turned a moment too late, gray eyes widening as he recognised the assailant. Oh god, he thought, his blood running cold. "Hello, 'kid'," the boy sneered, clearly still not having learned his name despite the fact that Josh was now nearly nineteen. "Been a while, hasn't it? Why don't you come with us? We have some catching up to do." Josh tried to back up, but he found that one of the guy's friends (a boy he didn't recognise, perhaps a new addition to the ranks) was blocking his path. "No need to be scared," the older male said sadistically. "You won't feel anything soon." He swung the bat hard, everything going black as it connected with his skull.
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It was like a scene out of a classic psychological thriller. The warehouse was shabby and dimly lit by weak lighting around the room. There were boxes everywhere and spiderwebs lining the walls to suggest that it had been a long time since anyone had done some dusting. Graffiti--he easily recognised the insignia of the gang he had once belonged to--decorated the walls. He was tied to a chair, but unfortunately there weren't any nails within reach or convenient knives to slash the ropes and make his escape. No. There was only he and his enemies--they had caught up to him at last. Shit. Shit... This was not going to end well. The 'leader' of their little group was tossing the switchblade up and catching it in rhythmic movements. "I remember this," he reminisced cruelly. "We gave you it, didn't we, 'kid'?"
"I am not a kid," Joshua protested. It seemed weak considering they indefinitely planned to kill him--what did it matter how they addressed him before the murder? "But you're not going to tell me your name, are ya?" the boy sneered. Seeing as Josh said nothing--he only glowered--he smirked. "Didn't think so." He paced a little in front of Josh and then tossed the knife up again. "You have your dear old grandfather to thank," he told him with a sneer. "He really didn't seem to be fond of you. What did you do, kid, hide his false teeth?" The group of boys laughed at the joke, but Josh didn't find it funny at all. "No way," he said. "No member of my family would ever-"
"Oh yeah? His eyes are gray, you know. Like yours. His hair's going gray too, now. He's shorter than you. He's got a scar on his forehead. Sound like your dear old gramps?"
"No," Joshua replied, but it was a lie. They seemed to know that he was just in denial, for they certainly didn't press the issue for long. Instead, the boy in front of him was playing with the knife again. Joshua's switchblade, the knife he'd carried with him since was was only thirteen years of age. It had only been a while before he'd started the Academy that they'd given it to him. "Seems fitting we should use this blade to fuck him up a little, eh, guys?" This got general approval from his friends and made Josh feel sick to his stomach. "Is it sharp, kid?" Josh just glowered silently at him, so he shrugged. "Well I guess we'll just have to try it out, won't we?" Joshua tugged his arm violently against the restraints, surprised when they actually loosened. Out of pure impulse and fear, he made a grab for the knife. His fingers closed around the open blade and in the next moment agony exploded throughout his hand. With a yell of pain he released his grip just as one of the boys slammed his arm down against the chair and redid the binding, making sure it was tight this time around. Seething and shuddering with the agony, moisture collecting around his lids, Joshua had never known pain of this calibre before. Josh tried to curl his hand into a fist when the boy reached for it, but he simply bent his fingers back with a warning, "If you do that again, I'll break them all one by one, and you wouldn't like that, trust me." The pain was too much for him to even respond and he could see the blood coating his palm.
It would have been more sensible to squirm and scream and struggle, at least if you had been randomly kidnapped and didn't know your assailants. But Joshua knew that all of these things would have been useless. If these warehouses were the same ones that he remembered from youth, they were all the way out past the town. They were so unsightly, a stain on the landscape, that he didn't blame the cityfolk for building them so far out of range. And struggling would be a bit stupid. There were about six or seven of them, all armed. He could see guns in a few of their belts and one was still casually hefting the bat from earlier. So he just relaxed his hand and tried not to show any signs of fear despite the fact that his heart was hammering against the walls of his chest. They're going to kill me. The fact that he knew this did not come with any sort of inner peace. He didn't have any of that 'accepting death' bullshit. He didn't want to die. Agony exploded in his hand as the older male dug the blade deep into the open wound in his palm, making him tense up and hiss with pain. "Fuck!" he snarled, the hot blood coating his palm. It looked bad. It felt bad. He could see red and he couldn't seem to move his fingers. He felt sick.
"You don't have to do this," he insisted. He was scared now, truly. Were they going to draw this out really slow and then slash his throat? Would they make smaller incisions and just let him slowly bleed out with agony? "I didn't have a choice, the cops wouldn't let me go!" He knew this was pointless but he was trying it anyway. "I won't say anything. I'll tell them I cut my own hand, I swear. They won't find out." He was actually telling the truth, too. If they let him go he'd be too terrified to turn them in to the police. "If you get caught you'll all go to jail, but if you let me go--"
"Save it," the boy chuckled. "We're not going to get caught because we're not going to let you go. You live alone, kid. We watched you for a couple days. No one'll care when you go missing." It stung to think that way, that no one would give a damn if he just disappeared. But it's true, isn't it? Perhaps Annabel and Patricia, but who else? He didn't really have any close friends. He had people he spoke to and people he got along with, but his list of cell phone contacts was bare.
They took off his shirt to marvel the scars under his ribs and taunted him about that night when they'd tried to beat him to death the first time. "We fucked up there, leaving you to die," the frontman acknowledged with a shrug. "Who'dve guessed the kid was resilient? But we'll not make that same mistake." He first ran the blade lightly along the already formed scars, reopening them. Then he unexpectedly lashed out with the blade and caused a deep gash in Joshua's stomach. A yell of pain burst from his lips as he cringed forward slightly. "I'm sorry, did that hurt?" He didn't sound sorry at all, his voice almost giddy with sadistic delight. He put his hand under Joshua's chin and forced their eyes to meet. "I'll bet you're regretting everything you ever did to wrong us now, aren't you?" Joshua wanted to use his powers to save himself, but he knew that starting a fire would ultimately get him killed, as well. An element could certainly murder its master if you weren't careful. The smoke from the burning building would choke his lungs and asphyxiate him.
He gasped when pain suddenly lanced through his cheek, the knife slashing through his skin with ease and leaving a deep cut in it's wake. He could feel hot liquid start to slide down his face and saw it join the blood that was soaking his chest. His attackers only laughed as he clenched his jaw and screwed up his expression against the pain. Blood loss was beginning to make him feel more and more dizzy and sick by the minute. It was hard to keep his head held high and defiant when he barely had the energy to lift it. How much longer...? He didn't want to die, but as of right now unconsciousness would have been bliss. He hadn't yet gone into shock from the pain and this was more than a little worrying for he could feel the agony and it did not help his mental state of being. "Here," the leader said, tossing the switchblade to the younger boy that had stopped him from backing up in the parking lot. He looked young--maybe thirteen or fourteen. Not much older than Josh had been when he was with him. Poor, stupid kid... "Have a bit of fun with him, newbie."
The sound of a siren pierced the silence unexpectedly, and instantly the entire group tensed. "Shit!" the ringleader swore. "Cut his throat and run for it," he ordered of the kid, then bolted after the rest of the boys toward the exit. Joshua glowered at his soon-to-be-killer. He could see himself in the wide eyes full of fear, though they were blue rather than gray. He would do it, though. He'd do it because he wouldn't want the gang after him. There will so be hard feelings, he thought bitterly. Or not. There won't be any feelings soon... The boy hefted the switchblade. Josh closed his eyes, not wanting to see it coming. Maybe it would kill him quickly. Maybe he'd choke and drown on his own blood, instead. Oh dear god. Not a nice thought to be having.
Pain exploded across his collarbone, followed by the sound of the knife clattering against the stone floor of the warehouse and heavy footsteps pounding out of the place. Josh was almost hesitant to breath, but when he did, he was surprised to find that his airway was... clear. No blood, no slashed throat. He missed, the boy thought, incredulous. As of right now he didn't know whether this was good or bad. Now it was just going to take him even longer to die. Breathing heavily, he decided on a last ditch effort to do... something. Staring at the rope that bound his right wrist to the chair, he called forth the fire and watched as it burned through the restraint. Normally the drain would have been almost nothing, but he felt a wave of dizziness strike him. "Fuck..." In his pocket he was quite surprised to find a phone--his own, of course. His first instinct was to call his parents, but he realised with mild dread that he didn't have their number. He couldn't call the cops. He didn't trust them. Then who...?
He glanced down and saw the single number on his phone: Nell... great... He'd forgotten that they'd exchanged numbers for studying. He didn't know if he could trust her, but he didn't really have a choice. He weakly hit the 'talk' button and listened to it ring. He didn't even wait for a hello. "Nell... I need--I need your help. I think I'm going to die..." He sounded rather out of it--hell, he was out of it. He mumbled the rough location of where he was. "Don't... don't tell the cops... please... I just need... an ambulance... maybe..." He didn't even know if they could make it in time. SOMEONE CALL THE AMBULANCE THERE'S GUNNA BE AN ACCIDENT
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Post by NELL DOE DALE on Jun 20, 2011 5:09:26 GMT -5
. tell the world i'm coming home . The noise of the music and crowd mixed together in Nell’s head, but she could still feel the vibrations in her back pocket. She didn’t turn off her phone at work, though employees weren’t allowed to talk on their cells during their shifts of course, just in case it was an emergency or something. So she ignored it and went about her work, the club having gotten pretty busy. There wasn’t a moment she wasn’t moving so she couldn’t even pause to end the vibrations in her back pocket, just poured drinks and passed them off with a friendly smile. She’d learn to mix drinks like a pro by now, and sardonically wondered when she would use that in her life. Working here was as clear an example of a dead-end job she’d ever head, and she didn’t even have time to stop and wonder what she wanted to do with her life. Especially not while serving up drinks to raucous patrons.
So she almost did not pick up the phone the next time it vibrated, and only did so with determination to block the number. However, when she looked at the screen, it read 'Josh'. Nell untied her apron and tossed it on the table behind the bar, calling to her bar mate, "Cigarette break." The Earth girl pushed through clustered bodies until she was outside, a few people who were actually on cigarette breaks reclining against the wall. The chill for once was welcomed relief, and she stopped a little ways off from other people, breathing in the fresh air thankfully. The phone still vibrated, so she picked it up with a: "Hey." Then she heard his voice come through on the other line and her heart sputtered to a stop. The hell…?
”What?” she asked and her voice sounded disbelieving because it’s not often people call you sounding completely dazed and out of their mind, saying they think they’re going to die. Her mind sort of stumbled for a moment, wondering if she should take him seriously, but then she realized this was Josh of all people. He didn’t do crank calls. And above that, he sounded weak and just…there was no way to describe it. ”Jesus, you sound terrible.” Nell rubbed her forehead before she said, ”All right, I’m calling the hospital and I’ll be there soon.” She could only wonder what was happening on the other end of the line and whether or not he even heard her by then. What have you gotten yourself into Joshua Dale?
He didn’t have to worry about her calling the police, but she did phone 911 and gave them the vague directions as she swung open the bar door. Hanging up the phone, she only made it only half way inside when she called out, "Can you cover the rest of my shift, Dan? It's an emergency." He waved her away, and she thought of how she should repay him for doing this twice already, and both because of Josh. He was getting her money, though, and this was hardly in the forefront of her mind as she got into her Monte Carlo, fresh from the shop. "Don't die on me now, Viv," she said as she turned the keys into the ignition. It came to a pathetically rumbling start, and she turned out of the parking lot at what must have been an illegal speed.
Where Josh had ‘specified’ was pretty far outside of town, and her mind was pretty frantic as she drove. Just how much trouble was he in? He said he was going to die, I’d think he’s in a lot of it. That did nothing to reassure her. The warehouses were hard to miss, derelict and ugly as they were. She pulled into a vacant lot that might have been for parking, it didn’t even matter really. Of course there was the tiny voice of common sense yelling at her from the corner of her brain that she was being totally ridiculous and this was probably the most dangerous thing she’d ever done, coming out to this place alone. But as she did when she was a child, and as she did so well now, she pushed those thoughts aside. Nell chose one to check out, and the little voice checked in to mock her. What’s behind door number one? A murderer! It’s your lucky day, idiot. But no, it was just as she expected—a creepy old warehouse probably long since abandoned.
But Josh had to be around here, and she was going to find him just in case the ambulance didn’t arrive on time… Her footsteps were the only sound next to that of vermin, and she felt a chill not associated with the cold. Jesus Christ, I should not be here. Again these thoughts of foreboding were naively pushed aside and instead her eyes focused on what looked like… Oh my god. She came to a halt before restarting at a quicker pace toward him, the figure she knew had to be Josh. Drawing close, she was able to see all the blood she had been hoping was the result of poor lighting and adjusting vision even more clearly. The words came out in a low, hurried voice. ”¡Joder! Mierda santa, ¿qué diablos pasó? Mierda, mierda…” Now she was rambling curses she didn’t even realize she knew and crap, was he still conscious?
Nell crouched down next to the seated male, and her stomach twisted at the sight of his wounds. He was shirtless, so she was able to see the nice little array on his chest, and one particularly lovely looking gash across his collarbone. And his cheek was bleeding too, there was another deep wound on his hand, and the hell happened? ”An ambulance is coming,” she said, not even sure if he could hear her. ”Are you still with me, Josh?” Her voice was laced with worry, it wrapped a drawstring around her throat and pulled it closed. There were so many questions, all of which he was in no state to answer. And she was left squatting there with no idea what to do except to wait for the stupid ambulance that felt as if it were taking forever.
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Post by JOSHUA DONOVAN DALE on Jun 20, 2011 5:53:08 GMT -5
-i'm coming up on infra-red, [atrb=border,0,true][atrb=cellPadding,0,true][atrb=cellSpacing,0,true][atrb=style, width: 105px; background-image: url(http://dsmy2muqb7t4m.cloudfront.net/articles/roundup_2009_04_27/Layer_9.jpg)] | [atrb=border,0,true][atrb=cellPadding,0,true][atrb=cellSpacing,0,true][atrb=style, width: 295px; background-image: url(http://dsmy2muqb7t4m.cloudfront.net/articles/roundup_2009_04_27/Layer_9.jpg)] THERE IS NO RUNNING THAT CAN HIDE YOU 'CAUSE I CAN SEE IN THE DARK I'M COMING UP ON INFRA-RED FORGET YOUR RUNNING I WILL FIND YOU - - - -
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He was worried that she wouldn't take him seriously. After all, he had always been a bit of a jerk and the fact that they'd met when he was pissed drunk meant that she might assume he was just hammered and hang up on him, thus ending his last chance to get out of here. But her voice sounded on the other end and it had never sounded nicer as she said that she was on her way. Don't get lost, please. He could feel himself drifting steadily in and out of consciousness, but he was trying to at least hang on long enough for an ambulance to get here or something. If he passed out he feared that he just might not wake up again. A weak moan brushed past his lips and he tried to lift his head. Everything hurt. Everything. There was so much pain and so much blood and god damn it, why couldn't they have just killed him four years ago? I can't believe... my own grandfather... He'd always known that Patrick hated him but he hadn't known that it would extend into a desire for murder. It was as good as paying a hitman to off someone for you. Only they probably paid him... he's already rich, the bastard...
He heard the door opening and tensed--was it the cops, was it Nell, or worse... was it the gang back to make sure they'd finished him off? But no, he exhaled very softly in relief when through wavering vision he spotted his acquaintance--they weren't even friends and she'd came all the way out here--making her way toward him. Several words which he guessed were curses but didn't understand the meaning of spilled from her lips and then she was crouching down in front of him and asking questions. He surveyed her through an unfocused gray stare, trying to formulate the words he needed. Was he still with her? The tiniest shake of his head. "Not... not really..." As if to prove and reinforce his point, his vision faded to black and he slumped forward, unconscious. They could only hope that the ambulance whose sirens could be heard blaring loudly would not take too long to arrive.
- maple hollow hospital, some time later -
He awoke to the steady beeping of the heart monitor, eyes slowly opening to take in their surroundings. Almost immediately, he wished that he hadn't.
Donovan Dale stood over his son with arms folded, a rather unpleasant scowl on his lips.
"Can we just pretend I'm still unconscious?" His words came out mumbled as the gray eyes closed once again.
"Don't start with me, Joshua," Don warned. "Incidentally, how are the cats?" It was not a sincere inquiry, but rather marked with sarcasm. He was reminding his son of all the things Joshua had done to wrong him.
"Do we have to do this now?" Josh groaned.
"What about my money?" His father pressed on as if he hadn't heard him. "I don't suppose you have it, do you?"
"I'm really not in the mood..."
Donovan glared down at him. "Look at me, boy," he hissed. When the boy on the bed did not respond, he snapped his fingers as if trying to get the attention of a dog. "Joshua!"
Another muffled groan, then he reluctantly cracked open his eyes and looked up at his father. He didn't look too pleased. Josh felt exhausted and he was in pain, too.
"Are you aware that breaking and entering is illegal, boy?" Donovan inquired icily.
"I just wanted the cats!"
"I could have you arrested," he went on.
"You wouldn't!"
"Would you like to test me?"
There was a silence between them. Joshua's mouth felt dry. "No," he sighed, admitting defeat.
"I didn't think so." Gray eyes met gray, one pair dull and the other narrowed with anger. "I don't suppose you're going to tell me how you ended up in this state?"
Josh glanced sideways to avoid his gaze. He watched the green lines of the monitor zig-zag up and down. Alive, at least. In a load of horse shit, but alive. "I was attacked..."
Donovan snorted in contempt. "I can see that," he said. His tone softened by the slightest amount. "By who? Why?"
"The same people who you accused me of staying with," Josh said--or rather snapped with a sudden burst of bitterness. "I'd love to have stayed with them if they wouldn't be interested in playing darts with my chest."
Another silence, this one more awkward.
"You know why," Josh said. "I told you why."
It was a while before Donovan said anything. Then, "How did they find you?"
Josh just shook his head. "Now I know you wouldn't believe me," he said.
"Joshua," Donovan said testily. "Quit playing games."
"I'm not!"
"Out with it, then!" It was an order, rather than a request. "I asked you a question and I expect it answered."
"Patrick," Josh said bitterly. "It was Patrick, Dad. Now would you leave me alone?"
Donovan furrowed his brow, seemingly confused. "That says a lot," he replied sarcastically. "I have no idea who--" He stopped suddenly and then narrowed his eyes. "You don't mean--that is nonsense Joshua," he snapped, face starting to turn colour. "How dare you say such things!"
"Knew you wouldn't believe me," Josh muttered.
"Listen to you! You're a disgrace to this family, accusing your own grandfather of such things! Did I not warn you about your place in this family, Joshua Dale, or have you already forgotten?"
The bile rose in his throat to choke him. He couldn't answer and so merely shrugged. It figured. His father thought he was a liar. The gang were probably just going to find him again and put a bullet in his head this time.
Shaking his head and muttering about what a shame it was that his son had turned out this way, Donovan left the room without another word.
Josh didn't bother to stop him.
- approx. an hour later -
He hadn't been expecting his father to return. Joshua had all but accepted the fact that he was disowned and that he'd never share a roof with his parents or baby sister again.
On top of that, he was blacklisted by thugs, and he'd probably need to give the cats back.
Oh, and not to mention the ugly scars that marked his skin.
The day just kept getting better.
However, Donovan did come back. He was not accompanied by any of the hospital staff nor the rest of the family. Joshua was sitting on the edge of the hospital bed and staring at his bandaged hand when the door opened.
He glanced up, saw who it was, then promptly looked away again without a word.
"You're coming back home," Donovan said stiffly.
Josh cast a glare at him. "No, I'm not." It wasn't sincere enough. He didn't feel that Donovan wanted him home.
"That wasn't a question."
"I'm nearly nineteen," Josh retorted, still not looking at him. "I'm an adult now, you can't tell me what to do."
Donny closed the distance between them and glared down. Joshua stood up to give himself more of an edge--he was a tiny bit taller than his father--but it did not cause Don to back down as he said, "Can't I?"
Josh tried stubbornly to hold his gaze, but the fear of the man that had raised him overpowered his pride. Swallowing nervously, he had to glance away. "No," he said.
"Look me in the eye and say that, boy," Donovan demanded, able to read his son much easier than many others could. "Stare me down and tell me that I have no say in what you do."
Josh flicked his gaze back to him. "I..." Damn it, Josh, stick up for yourself! But his throat constricted and betrayed him.
"That's what I thought."
Josh pressed his lips together in a hard frown, but he said nothing.
"You will come home, do you understand?"
Though he was strong of will and mindset, any time his father was in the room this was almost always negated. A mute nod served as the only response.
"You will not challenge my authority again."
He hung his head a little, aware that his face was turning colour. "I won't," he sighed. What did it matter any more? He didn't have a choice, according to Donovan.
"When you live under my roof you will obey my rules and you will not sink any lower, lest your last chance to redeem yourself as a member of our family be disintegrated. Do I make myself clear?"
"Yes, sir."
The respectful term used to address his father was Joshua's subtle way of laying down his pride and admitting his defeat with the last small bit of dignity he could salvage. It was not missed by Donovan, who seemed satisfied with the submission.
"Good."
- a few days later -
Joshua sighed and winced as he pulled the gauze away from the wounds. He hated its uncomfortable and restricting feeling. He knew that this was going to cause the wounds to heal badly and that his father was probably going to have an absolute fit when he found out, but as of right now Josh could care less. A glance into his mirror--it really was strange being back here--revealed a deep gash in his cheek that in his opinion completely marred his appearance. He ducked his head and looked away from the reflection, hot shame and embarrassment burning into his cheeks. He'd already missed some time at school and had only just barely convinced his professors to email him the work he needed done so that he didn't fall behind. He understood that he couldn't continue like this but the mark across his cheek took a serious hit to his usually abnormally high self-esteem. Who would ever want to look at him now, let alone sleep with him, flirt with him? He had a feeling that would be the end of the compliments on his good looks that he was so used to getting by the friends of his parents. They were always to flatter the Dale's and never said with true sincerity, but it still stung a bit.
A light rap on his door that could only belong to his mother. Neither Donovan or Annabel ever knocked. "Come in," he said quietly, sitting down on the end of the bed. He glanced at his mother and abruptly looked away again, noticing the way that her bright blue eyes traced the scarring. She'd been away on a business trip but had came home prematurely when she'd heard about the accident. It was the first time they'd seen one another since he'd left and the emotion overwhelmed him. He stood up shakily and looked at her again--there was a hesitance in her gaze as she stepped forward, looking as if she wanted to crush him in a hug but not wanting to bother the vicious marks on his bare chest. "Oh, Joshua," she said softly. "Are you--"
"I'm okay," he lied, his breath catching in his throat. He stepped forward and very lightly wrapped his arms around her, careful to keep from brushing against her so that the cuts didn't start to bleed or anything. "Love you, Mum." And she started to cry, which only made his face heat up with awkward blush. What to do now? "I'm so glad you're home," she said, wiping her tears on her sleeve and trying to recover. A weak laugh brushed past her lips. "Sorry, honey, I didn't expect to get so upset." But he just shook his head. He didn't care. It felt nice to see her again. It even felt nice to be in his room despite the fact that he still felt a tad unwelcome. "Your father loves you, Josh," Trish insisted, reading his mind as mothers seemed to do best. "He's just a little upset about his own Dad, that's all." Joshua's lips tightened into a scowl. Patrick had tried to kill him. But if he were in the same position, he supposed he'd be having morality issues as well. "Yeah. Listen, Mum, I... I have to go put the stuff from my--uh, the--apartment into storage and think about selling the car and everything so do you mind if I..." Trish backed off immediately. "Not at all. Be careful, Josh." She kissed him swiftly before he could protest and left to give him some space.
If it had felt strange to go back home, it felt even stranger to step back into the apartment, knowing that soon it would no longer be 'home' at all. The cats were already back at the mansion but his stuff was not. He wasn't just going to throw it all out, but he was a bit at a loss of what to do with it. Sell it, maybe. He had worked hard enough to get it all so he wasn't just going to ditch. Leaning against the outside wall, he decided to call Nell and invite her over to... thank her, perhaps. She'd saved his life, after all. He left a message rather than waiting for her to pick up, telling her that if she had the time he'd like if she could stop by. Then he went down to the parking lot to wait and see if she'd show.
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Post by NELL DOE DALE on Jun 20, 2011 20:21:29 GMT -5
. tell the world i'm coming home . Nell looked at the paper crane in her hands, to match others scattered across her recently purchased coffee table. Her afghan was draped across her legs which were propped up on said coffee table, and cartoons played on the television. She’d just gotten off work, her shifts now rather sporadic to make up for ditching before. Nell didn’t really mind the flip-flopping schedules—she adjusted pretty well. Pulling up another square piece of paper from the pile, she realized she’d lost count of how many cranes she made. She might have finally reached one-thousand and not have known. Nell groaned and threw her head back, putting down the paper to take another bite of her microwave pizza.
Which was scalding hot. As she fanned her gaping mouth, her phone rang, and she groaned once again. Sufficiently cooled, she swallowed the pizza and answered the phone without checking the caller ID. Big mistake. ”Hey,” she said a bit weakly.
”Nell? This is your father.”
Oh. Her hands began to shake. After all these years, that voice still sounded familiar, like a dream she’d forgotten about only to have the nostalgia brought up again. She couldn’t say anything, there were no words. How did you respond to that? Over a decade later, how do you respond to your father? There was a beeping to alert her of an incoming call, but she let it go to voicemail. There was no way she could even speak. So her father did it for her. ”I’m moving to Canada by the end of the month, or early March at the latest.”
Was he actually trying to hold a normal conversation with her? After eleven years, he thought he could just call her up for a chat? Nell finally found her voice: ”How did you get my number?” It wasn’t even what she really wanted to know. There were a lot more questions that just refused to come from her mouth.
”I heard that you ran away after…what you did to Mia.” Every muscle in her body tensed upon hearing the name, the words, the voice. Of course he knew—she killed his ex-wife. But where had he been all this time, where was he now? She didn’t get the chance to ask these questions—even if she could—as he went on: ”I figured the Academy would be the first place to check for you. They gave me your contact information.” A pause. ”Why ‘Shepherd’?”
”After the pie…” she stated dumbly. Shaking her head, she got up the courage to say: ”Did you ask for me by my surname?” These are not the questions you should be asking. You should be asking why the hell he walked out on you! You should be asking him where he’s been for eleven years!
There was a bit of a shuffling sound, like he was moving. She wondered where he was. Sitting in the study of his mansion that cost more money than Nell will ever see in her entire life? At work behind a desk with a view overlooking whatever city he’d fled to. ”No, I just said a late enroller by the name of Nell. That was narrow enough. I figured you wouldn’t be going around with your real name anymore.”
She was surprised that he didn’t say anything about such things being a crime and all, but then again, what right did he have to? This also triggered a sort of fear in her, though. It was so damned easy for her absentee father to contact her after over a decade—surely her family would have little trouble too. Would the Academy just give information away like that to her family? What if they were alumni? Or maybe…had her father already contacted them? Could she trust him? No. That answer was clear enough in her head. She could never trust him.
”Are you there, mija?”
Nell bristled again. ”Don’t call me ‘mija’,” she said quietly.
”That’s improper grammar.”
Was he for real? He was giving her a lecture in Spanglish after being gone for eleven years. No, this was all to surreal. ”Why are you moving to Canada?” she finally asked, her voice resigned.
”I…” She caught the hesitance, and her thoughts were bitter. Where did he get off being hesitant and nervous when he was the one who fucking left her? It was as if he were preparing himself for something, and on her end all she could do was fume. ”I want to reconcile with you, mija. I want to help you.”
Nell’s response was curt: ”Too bad you can’t help me. Not anymore.” She stood up to pace now, the afghan falling to the floor, and she ran a hand through her hair. Voice low, she went on, ”I don’t want reconciliation, so don’t act like you can waltz back into my life after—“
”Nell…” His voice sounded exhausted yet firm, and it sounded like it had when she was younger and she had tried to argue with him about anything. He was not allowed to do that, it wasn’t fair. He couldn’t just interrupt her when she was telling him exactly what she felt, when she was telling him the truth. He couldn’t go around talking like he was her father, dammit. That’s not how this works. ”Do not hang up on me, please,” he said as if predicting her next move. ”I will keep in touch with you until I’m in Canada, when we can meet in person. Will you save my number?”
Keep in touch my ass. But something stopped her from hitting end. She believed in second chances, and she was not a mean person. But this man…he’d turned his back on her when she’d reached out to him and begged for his help years ago. Why should she give him a second chance? Because you’re a weak little baby and you know you’re going to do it. ”Yeah,” she said softly.
He must have thought of this as some sort of success, because he sounded satisfied when he said, ”Hablar con usted mañana.”
She rolled her eyes. ”Talk to you tomorrow,” she repeated over the line, in English so as just to spite him. He was more like his parents than he would like to admit. She hit end before her father, mostly for the satisfaction and focused on taking deep breaths. It was too much. She didn’t need this right now, she didn’t need him calling her up like it was just another event in his daily planner. And what was she going to do, forget about it? That’s what she did best. Nell checked her voicemail and found Josh’s message. He was out of the hospital then? Oh thank god. Funny how good news comes with bad news. She needed to get out of her apartment and go somewhere, so she decided to walk, remembering the location of his apartment since it wasn’t too far from her own. Walking helped, along with the cold chill, to clear her mind before she saw Josh leaning against the building.
And there she was with her half-smile, ignoring every problem she had and focusing on Josh and the gash on his face. But she didn’t let her gaze linger, and instead met his grey eyes full-on. No one liked scars, and now he would have one on display for the world to ‘ooh’ and ‘aah’ at. Nell only then realized how thankful she was that she could cover most of her scars with clothing. Which only served to remind her that there were even more under his shirt, slowly forming as his wounds healed. ”How are you feeling?” she asked, tilting her head a bit. Would he tell her if he felt like absolute shit, or would he still be ‘fine’?
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Post by JOSHUA DONOVAN DALE on Jun 20, 2011 20:52:11 GMT -5
-i'm coming up on infra-red, [atrb=border,0,true][atrb=cellPadding,0,true][atrb=cellSpacing,0,true][atrb=style, width: 105px; background-image: url(http://dsmy2muqb7t4m.cloudfront.net/articles/roundup_2009_04_27/Layer_9.jpg)] | [atrb=border,0,true][atrb=cellPadding,0,true][atrb=cellSpacing,0,true][atrb=style, width: 295px; background-image: url(http://dsmy2muqb7t4m.cloudfront.net/articles/roundup_2009_04_27/Layer_9.jpg)] THERE IS NO RUNNING THAT CAN HIDE YOU 'CAUSE I CAN SEE IN THE DARK I'M COMING UP ON INFRA-RED FORGET YOUR RUNNING I WILL FIND YOU - - - -
| [cs=2][atrb=border,0,true][atrb=cellPadding,0,true][atrb=cellSpacing,0,true][atrb=style, width: 105px; height: 300px; background-image: url(http://dsmy2muqb7t4m.cloudfront.net/articles/roundup_2009_04_27/Layer_9.jpg)]There was something like relief when he spotted Nell walking toward him, glad that she wasn't just going to cut ties and run off considering she'd seen the mess he was capable of getting himself into. That was another reason Joshua couldn't have close friends--by associating themselves with him they were inadvertently becoming his ally, and that might pose a threat to the gang. He didn't want the people he trusted getting hurt just because they happened to be on his side about something. It sucked, it really did. But what else could he have done? He really hadn't known what to do in that hazy moment as he slipped in and out of consciousness. "Hi, Nell." He didn't know what else to say when she was close enough to be in hearing range. His voice was a little less rough and stony compared to usual, a slight hint of exhaustion colouring the edges of it. But other than that and the fact that he looked exactly as he felt (like shit) there wasn't much changed. It felt like everything had changed, though.
She asked how he was feeling, gray eyes blinking thoughtfully in her direction. He opened his mouth to answer that he was fine and that there was nothing to worry about--his usual answer to everything, of course. Then he hesitated, closing it again and swallowing a little. He cleared his throat, then shrugged and admitted, "Not that great." It might not have seemed like much, admitting that he wasn't as impenetrable as a brick wall with steel mortar as he always pretended to be. But for Joshua, simply admitting that he was less than perfect in terms of weaknesses was a sign of mild trust. He hoped that she understood this trust and didn't try to take advantage of it or anything. He wasn't used to letting his guard down around people. As it was, he added, "I'm breathing, though, and I'm not crippled or dying or anything of the sort, so... I suppose the correct words would be, 'I'm average'." He was pretty bad, he certainly wasn't good, but it could always have been worse. They could have slashed his throat and then he wouldn't be standing here and having this conversation.
This time he returned the formality with sincerity, "What about you?" The last time he'd asked after her well-being he'd just been trying to save them both from an awkward silence. Now he was realising that he actually cared whether she was okay or not and this was an adjustment for him. He didn't usually care about other people. She saved my life, I'm indebted to her, he reminded himself carefully. Even though he knew that this was probably just post-tragedy loyalty, it still felt strange and alien to the teenager. Suddenly it mattered whether she lived or died. He'd actually realise if she simply vanished, and that wasn't something he was accustomed to.
Nevertheless, there was a reason he'd asked her to come. "We should go inside," he said quietly, glancing around at the snow. "It's a bit cold." Normally he could have just used his powers to warm them both and have the entire conversation under the shelter of the sunlight, but there was something he wasn't admitting--with the still-healing wounds and the general weakness, his powers weren't in the best of shape. He already knew from past experiences that your powers could malfunction if you were ill, injured, or under a lot of stress. He did not know if Nell knew and even if she did, he didn't feel like admitting just how bad things were. He'd established a bit of trust but it could only go so far. As of right now, though, he was willing to attempt... a possible friendship. He at least didn't want to go into a habit of ignoring her after she'd saved his life.
Once again he took the stairs. The apartment seemed cold and empty, but he knew it was entirely psychological. Nothing had changed since the last time they were here except for the fact that all of the books had been cleared from the shelves. Including the one with the gun in it, which he truly hoped his father would not find. That would be one awkward conversation he wasn't willing to have. "I'm... moving," he admitted, shrugging again. No use denying it. "But that's not why I called." He hesitated awkwardly, shifting his weight from his right side to his left. His mouth felt dry again. Things like this were not his speciality. "Uh, maybe we should sit." He lowered himself into his chair, wincing a little as he felt the burning of the wounds on his stomach and chest. He tried not to show too much pain in his expression, but there was no way he could hide what flashed in his gray eyes. He glanced away from her to try and further hide it, but he was forced to meet her gaze in order to get to the point of the visit. An apology spoken through clenched teeth and an unmatched gaze was not a sincere one. Nor was a 'thank you', for that matter.
"I guess I just... wanted to say thanks for, you know, showing up. You could have ignored the call and well, you didn't, so..." He trailed off awkwardly. This was just as difficult as he'd thought it was going to be. He rubbed the back of his neck slightly with his good hand and took a breath. "And I'm... uh, I'm sorry that I asked that of you. It wasn't exactly... fair." There. He'd said it. As awkward as the words had been, they were entirely sincere. "So... thanks." SOMEONE CALL THE AMBULANCE THERE'S GUNNA BE AN ACCIDENT
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Post by NELL DOE DALE on Jun 21, 2011 0:25:53 GMT -5
. tell the world i'm coming home . Nell hadn’t really thought of why Josh’d called her, was just happy to know that he was out of the hospital and apparently doing better. But it wasn’t like they were even friends and invited each other over the other’s places often, in spite of what Annabel thought. So there must have been an ulterior motive, whether she realized it or not. No, her thoughts were still playing ping pong with the fact that her father had actually called and so nonchalantly said that he wanted to reconcile with her. Reconcile? There was nothing to reconcile. He left her. That was that.
Josh greeted her sounding a bit fatigued and she responded with an easy, ”Hey.” He didn’t really seem as intimidating or standoffish as usual. Perhaps he was just too tired to bother being scary right now. Not that she got the urge to turn and flee whenever around him, but there always was that darkness that he held up so well. And when he opened his mouth to respond, she was ready for the usual response. But he seemed to change his mind before admitting he was not doing so well. This actually surprised her, the fact that he didn’t just shrug her question off. It felt better than a simple ‘fine’, though she winced a bit. Of course he wasn’t feeling good. She hadn’t been expecting him to be doing jumping jacks and cartwheels, healthy as a horse. ”Average,” she repeated with a small smile. Well, it certainly was better than ‘dying’. ”I’m glad to see you up and walking around though.” His injuries were pretty bad—more than bad—so she was truthful with that. She didn’t know how long convalescence usually took with wounds like that, but she couldn’t imagine it was easy.
He actually asked after her, and it didn’t sound like something to keep the conversation going. Nell sighed softly. He was being honest, so she guessed she should be, too. ”Been better. But I’ve got nothing to complain about next to you.” She said this with a dry smile. Yeah, my absentee father just got back in touch with me was nothing compared to I almost died and I’m feeling like crap. She shrugged a bit. ”I’m just a bit…off.” That was the best way to describe it. Off. But she still smiled, because if she pretended it hadn’t happen, then it didn’t. But he said he’d call tomorrow and he’d keep in touch. But should she really trust him to do that? The past was supposed to stay in the past, she couldn’t deal with this right now. So she just shook it off, like she shook off facing what she did to her mother, shook off dealing with her family.
Nell nodded when he suggested they go inside. ”Sure.” She’d usually hated the cold, but as it was numbing her thoughts right then, she didn’t mind it half as much. But a part of her wondered why he didn’t just do his Fire elemental, space heating trick. It must have had something to do with his injuries. She really didn’t know how bad injuries like that affected powers. Her mother beat her but not to the extent that Josh had been injured—and after those beatings Nell felt she needed to use her powers to be reassured she still had something. So she never truly took notice if the bruises and welts affected her ability to grow little wildflowers. Even if she could grow a blade of grass, it reassured her that not all was lost. And she never pushed herself too hard, just in case she passed out from over exertion. That would have been a worst case scenario. Nell wondered then the exact extent of his injuries—there had been so much blood she couldn’t even gauge the severity really. It chilled her to even so much think about that.
She followed him up the stairs into the apartment, and she took no notice of any change that could warn him of his impending departure from it until he spoke. With a shrug, he told her that he was leaving. Everyone’s moving, aren’t they? The thought was a bit bitter, simply because with it brought thoughts of her father. ”Where are you moving to, might I ask?” Even though he actually admitted that he wasn’t feeling well, she believed there were a lot of things he wouldn’t tell her. That was just how Josh was, she found. Upon admitting there was an ulterior motive for his call, his stance became awkward. Nell couldn’t even think of why, even though pretty much everything about their relationship was awkward. She watched him as she sat on the couch, and noticed the flash of pain in his grey eyes. He must have been feeling worse than he let on then, she thought.
While meeting her gaze, he gave what must have been the most awkward thank you she’d ever heard. But that’s not what caught her attention. The fact that it was coming from Josh and that it was sincere was most shocking of all. She couldn’t help but smile. ”No, I couldn’t have ignored the call,” she said softly. Josh didn’t realize how lucky he actually was that she’d picked up the phone. But she was glad she had, otherwise he might have died. And though she didn’t know whether or not to consider him as a friend, she didn’t want him dead. ”In any case, you’re welcome.” She really didn’t think of it as a scenario to be formally thanking someone for—she hadn’t even expected a thing. And then he was apologizing just as awkwardly for calling her. ”Fair?” she asked, a bit confused. ”I honestly don’t think calling someone as not being fair. You were in trouble, of course I’d help.”
Now it was her turn to be awkward, because she had to ask. ”Uhm…what exactly happened that night? Because I have a feeling it wasn’t just a random jumping…” She steered her eyes away in case he didn’t want to talk about it, in case it was too traumatic for him right now. She thought that she at least deserved to know that, right? Even though he didn’t like to share information, it was quite a shock to the system to find him half-dead in a warehouse. She really tried hard not to think about that, because it had been a really terrible sight. Just because the two weren’t best of friends or anything didn’t mean she didn’t care for him. Didn’t mean that it was one of the scariest moments of her life to find him like that.
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Post by JOSHUA DONOVAN DALE on Jun 21, 2011 0:53:35 GMT -5
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| [cs=2][atrb=border,0,true][atrb=cellPadding,0,true][atrb=cellSpacing,0,true][atrb=style, width: 105px; height: 300px; background-image: url(http://dsmy2muqb7t4m.cloudfront.net/articles/roundup_2009_04_27/Layer_9.jpg)]Off. He found himself wondering what was wrong with her and why she was off and if she'd be feeling better any time soon and he could swear these thoughts were going to give him a massive migraine soon enough. He wasn't supposed to wonder these things. "That makes two of us," he said with a bit of a grimace. Part of him wanted to ask after what was making her feel so off, but Joshua understood the boundaries between their relationship. Even though he no longer thought that she was out to get him--she wouldn't have phoned the ambulance if she held any ill will against him--they still weren't friends and that was apparent. Acquaintances didn't pry as much as friends did, it simply wasn't allowed. A friend could have wished her luck with what she was dealing with, but he didn't even feel comfortable enough for that at the moment.
"Far away from here," he said, gesturing around the small space in indication. He was being just as closed off and stubborn as usual, not wanting to reveal any information. It wasn't that he mistrusted Nell any more, he just wasn't used to being open about his life or his problems. Even admitting that he was suffering when there were obvious wounds that suggested as such had been a little difficult. "The cats are already gone," he said, in case she was wondering where the three bundles of fluff that had previous occupied the space had gotten to. "I just came back to... finalise some things, get some of my stuff." He could say this much without giving too much away. He was selling the car and the furniture and practically everything but the kitchen sink at this point. He'd probably use the money to pay back his father. He was rather ashamed of having 'disappointed' the older man. Nevermind the fact that Donovan had thrown him out without a backward glance, he felt bad for using his money to live. He was also continuing to work his job until he'd given back every last cent that he'd 'stolen'. He was also taking care to be very polite and respectful around his father. He feared that the man might throw him out on his own again without warning.
Joshua shook his head slightly at her confusion and protest. "I dragged you into something I shouldn't have," he said simply. At least the gang hadn't came back and seen her. But if they had pronounced the coast clear and came back to the warehouse, both he and Nell likely would have been shot dead. That was the guilt he was feeling. He hadn't been thinking about such things when he'd made the call--he'd been too out of it to concentrate on the possibilities--but he'd realised afterwards and been hit with the desire to apologise for almost endangering her life like that. He might not have been the nicest guy or the most friendly of folk, but he was at least nice enough that he wouldn't ask someone to die for him.
He grimaced a little as she asked what had happened. He'd sort of been hoping that she wouldn't bring it up. It was as if he owed her a tiny bit of an explanation because she'd rescued him from the hellish situation, and so flat-out refusing to say anything didn't seem possible. Joshua hesitated, then said, "It wasn't... random." He couldn't meet her eyes as he said this. Wasn't every day you admitted to your acquaintances that there was a bloodthirsty gang of murderers hot on your tail and out for your blood. "They've been after me for a while." Since he was fifteen, actually, and he'd survived their first attempt to kill him. He didn't know whether he should be getting into all of this with Nell right now. The things he could tell her might just put his own safety and freedom in danger. 'Hi, Nell. I've participated in murders and gang assaults before--would you still mind remaining my acquaintance?' He had the feeling that anyone sensible would turn him in to the police immediately. "I never thought they'd actually find me, but there you go." He heaved a sigh. "That's... why I never let you near this place the first time," he said a little awkwardly. "And... also why I have the knife." He pulled it gingerly from his pocket. It felt dangerous in his own hands now that it had been used to try and slaughter him. SOMEONE CALL THE AMBULANCE THERE'S GUNNA BE AN ACCIDENT
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Post by NELL DOE DALE on Jun 21, 2011 2:59:15 GMT -5
. tell the world i'm coming home . You and me both. Nell chuckled at this. ”Yeah, only you’re slightly more off than I am,” she said lightly. Really, he was severely injured—‘off’ didn’t even begin to describe it. She was glad he didn’t say anything more on the subject, though, because she wasn’t comfortable with explaining it. Acquaintances didn’t get into those things. Hell, she wouldn’t even tell any of her friends about her father coming back in contact with her. Maybe she should have, but Nell wasn’t like that. She didn’t go to others looking for support. She ignored these kinds of things. None of her friends at the Academy knew about her past, or her parents. When asked why she didn’t live with them, she replied with “It’s complicated.” That was the perfect answer to everything, she found. It made people understand not to broach the subject.
Moving on up? she guessed when he’d said that he was moving far away from here. A part of her wondered if he was moving back home with his parents, but she didn’t know the situation well enough to be sure. And she knew he wasn’t going to say anything more about it, because this was Josh and Josh did not talk. He did not explain things, and she respected that. Still found it odd that he was even vague about moving, but respected it nonetheless. She wondered where the cats were, but knew that he had not gotten rid of them as most did when moving. ”You’re not taking any of the furniture?” she asked curiously. He said he was only taking a few things, so she guessed the furniture left in his apartment was not one of them. That unfounded suspicion that he was moving back home crept up again, but it was not enough to work off of.
She raised her eyebrow at his words. ”Oh?” Dragged me into something…? Now that didn’t sound very suspicious. Nell was completely oblivious of the situation at hand, but suspicion began leaking into her thoughts. She couldn’t pin what it was about, though, just something in the way he said it. She knew how dangerously stupid it was of her to even go there that night, but it was not with the knowledge of Josh’s past with the gang. However, she didn’t regret it. How could she? Just as she’d expected, he didn’t seem too keen on the idea of explaining this to her. Which was fine, if he didn’t want to tell her. Still… She felt like she needed to know what had happened to him. And also as expected, it wasn’t a random jumping. Even that much seemed hard for him to say. He couldn’t even look her in the eye. Nell did get this much: he had people after him. ”They?” she asked, the question clear in her voice. Though she knew information would be limited with him, she felt the need to ask.
Too bad Josh didn’t realize the last people she wanted to contact were the police. Too bad he didn’t realize she had people ‘after’ her too. And judging by how easily her father got her number, those people may be able to find her even easier. It wasn’t even a game of cat-and-mouse. Nell realized she could have ran further, but the Academy felt like the safest place… She discarded these thoughts as she heard Josh speak about ‘them’ again. Of course he didn’t expect whoever ‘they’ were to find him, but clearly they’d found him. And hurt him. Badly. It only created more wonderment at who ‘they’ were on Nell’s part. Then came the awkward mention of ‘the first time’. So that’s why he was so adamantly against her assistance even when drunk? ”You were suspicious of me?” she asked, trying to figure this out. Then he pulled out his handy-dandy switchblade, and she thought that he must enjoyed whipping it out whenever he got the chance. She leaned back into the couch before she said, ”Make more sense that you carry it around now. Other than the fact that you don’t live in the safest part of town.” True, it could have just as easily been for self-defense on the streets, but if he had people after him that sounded even more reasonable.
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Post by JOSHUA DONOVAN DALE on Jun 21, 2011 3:35:42 GMT -5
-i'm coming up on infra-red, [atrb=border,0,true][atrb=cellPadding,0,true][atrb=cellSpacing,0,true][atrb=style, width: 105px; background-image: url(http://dsmy2muqb7t4m.cloudfront.net/articles/roundup_2009_04_27/Layer_9.jpg)] | [atrb=border,0,true][atrb=cellPadding,0,true][atrb=cellSpacing,0,true][atrb=style, width: 295px; background-image: url(http://dsmy2muqb7t4m.cloudfront.net/articles/roundup_2009_04_27/Layer_9.jpg)] THERE IS NO RUNNING THAT CAN HIDE YOU 'CAUSE I CAN SEE IN THE DARK I'M COMING UP ON INFRA-RED FORGET YOUR RUNNING I WILL FIND YOU - - - -
| [cs=2][atrb=border,0,true][atrb=cellPadding,0,true][atrb=cellSpacing,0,true][atrb=style, width: 105px; height: 300px; background-image: url(http://dsmy2muqb7t4m.cloudfront.net/articles/roundup_2009_04_27/Layer_9.jpg)]She inquired about the furniture and he cursed her internally for being so intuitive. Dealing with people was still so difficult for him. "I won't need it," he admitted with a bit of a half-hearted shrug. "Not where I'm going." He fiddled awkwardly with the edge of his sleeve and then said, "Home. That's where I'm moving. Back with my parents." The tension seemed to linger uncomfortably in the air. He was going to make it sound like he'd been given a choice, because really most people at nineteen years of age made their own decisions. She didn't need to know that his father had quite literally demanded to have him home. "Your father loves you, Josh." He wanted to believe his mother, but the angry chill to Donovan's tone always stopped him short of such hopefulness. "Did I not warn you about your place in this family?" He was constantly saying things like this. Josh was a disgrace, a disappointment, a shame to their lineage. Patricia often insisted that he was 'just upset', but most fathers didn't come close to verbally disowning their children over a petty argument. "I'll probably sell most of it, or give it away. I can't just... leave it here."
Nell seemed to want more information--Joshua sighed and studied the fabric of his jeans, designer in all their glory. His sweater alone had cost a small fortune, the logo on the sleeve proclaiming it to be of incredibly expensive make. One of the few benefits of moving back in with your incredibly rich parents who both made hefty six-figure salaries, he supposed. It was almost ironic that he could wear clothing that cost more than the entire monthly rent of the apartment they were sitting in, meanwhile he was still a couple thousand grand in debt to his father. The irony was bothersome. "It wasn't my intention to get you involved," he said, further apology in the words even though he never said 'I'm sorry' directly. "They're... a gang, pretty much." He shrugged, unsure of how else to word it. Plain and simple, they were a bunch of thugs with a desire for his head on a silver plate. "They're not too fond of me, so I've been trying to keep my distance." Trying and succeeding up until his own damned grandfather had gotten in the way.
A humourless laugh left his lips. "Don't take it personally," he said a little dryly. "I'm suspicious of everyone." It was the first time he'd really admitted this out loud, and he hesitated a little after saying it. Then, to sort of clear the air a little, he added, "I'm, uh, not suspicious of you any more." If she'd been planning to kill them, there would have been plenty opportunities already. He figured she could probably have picked up on that herself, but he wanted to make sure that he reaffirmed it aloud. It actually came as a bit of a relief not to have to worry about saying the wrong thing around her in case she found some improvised way to use it against him. That was how he always felt with everyone and it was tiring. It was hard for him to admit a single personal detail in the company of another. Even now he was having difficulties.
"I had it before I moved here," he shrugged. He didn't really like taking the knife out as much as it seemed. It was more of a subconscious thing, really. It was a connection to his past for which he wasn't sure whether he was grateful or not. It had been given to him by the same thugs that had later tried to beat him to death. They'd taken this a step further by trying again to murder him and this time using the very object which he cradled in his palm. "Guns are illegal here, so..." Mind, he still had one. He just didn't carry it around with him. Breaking the law seemed to be a speciality lately. SOMEONE CALL THE AMBULANCE THERE'S GUNNA BE AN ACCIDENT
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Post by NELL DOE DALE on Jun 21, 2011 22:37:06 GMT -5
. tell the world i'm coming home . Nell gave herself a pat on the back for hitting the proverbial nail on the head. So Josh was moving back in with his parents. Still, she didn’t know enough about his situation with them to make any comment about it. All of it was assumptions based on what his little sister said, and his reactions to such. So she decided to ask, ”Is that good or bad?” She was truly curious about it. She noticed that the sweater he was fussing with seemed to be of better quality than what he usually wore. With a thoughtful gaze, she said, ”I’m guessing good, otherwise you wouldn’t be moving back.” And if he didn’t want to elaborate, he didn’t have to. Never did. Even admitting this seemed like getting a whole chunk of gold in information from him. She didn’t even know anything about his parents before meeting Annabel. He spoke of the fact that he was looking to get rid of the furniture and she bit her lip before saying, ”I could take it off your hands.” She blushed. That sounded needy, didn’t it? ”…Or rather buy it from you. I’ve told you about my Spartan lifestyle, and I actually just got a coffee table, but it’s still not really a proper ‘home’ yet.” Nor would it ever be, but that’s beside the point. She shrugged a bit—and she felt like she was stealing one of his usual nonchalant gestures—as an ‘or you can disregard everything I say’ sign.
His voice carried what sounded like another apology, but she didn’t know what for. Until he said that it was a gang after him. Her experience with the gangs she guessed he was speaking of was limited. Ironic, considering she grew up in a city like a hive for criminal activity. But all she was aware of was the Sinclair family and their whole mob family thing they had going on. They were like a gang, but only closer-knit (because they were a family after all) and they pretended like they didn’t exist, whereas gangs flaunted what they did with signs and graffiti. So okay, it wasn’t the same as a gang, but they both dealt with the same thing—crime. Something she was so unfortunately familiar with now. ”A gang,” she repeated as if making sure of this. ”’Pretty much’ or a legitimate street gang with colors and signs and initiations?” She was speaking from the little bit she knew of New York gangs that she thankfully had never been a victim of, despite her stupid (why was I ever so naïve?) childhood ways. 'Not fond' was a strange way of putting it. They tried to kill him. "Why aren't they fond of you?" She winced the entire time saying this. She felt like she was asking too much—no, this was asking too much. But Nell didn’t take it back.
With a wry laugh, he told her not to take it personally. Which she really hadn’t, since he wasn’t a social butterfly and she guessed this might be part of the reason. "I don't blame you…not with people like that after you." If he had thugs out for his blood then being suspicious of strangers trying to escort him home was at least well-founded. Of course she didn’t blame him for his paranoia. Then after a moment’s hesitation he admitted that he wasn’t suspicious anymore. She blinked her warm brown eyes at him before answering with a succinct—but still cheerful: "Well good." Then, more seriously, she said, ”I wouldn’t do anything to hurt you. I hope you know that.” She shrugged it off, because it was the kind of person she was. The last thing on her mind whenever with him was killing him. Did she look like a gangbanger to him or anything that might have made him suspicious? It reminded her of the prickling fear that people could sense something about her that made her look like a murderer, even though she was as friendly as possible.
Nell nodded at his words. Okay, talking about his switchblade, this is normal. But nothing was normal about either of them, so it didn’t even matter. Even though she lived downtown, she never once considered carrying a weapon. No, she refused to. She absolutely did not want to hurt someone ever again, and couldn’t trust herself carrying around a weapon. Mistakes happen. They’ve happened before in the worst way. ”That was on the ground when I found you.” Nell shifted uncomfortably, hands in her lap as she nodded toward the weapon. ”I guess…that’s what they used…” She stopped there. Nell really didn’t know what she was getting at, so she left it there, hanging in the air.
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Post by JOSHUA DONOVAN DALE on Jun 21, 2011 23:05:54 GMT -5
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| [cs=2][atrb=border,0,true][atrb=cellPadding,0,true][atrb=cellSpacing,0,true][atrb=style, width: 105px; height: 300px; background-image: url(http://dsmy2muqb7t4m.cloudfront.net/articles/roundup_2009_04_27/Layer_9.jpg)]She seemed to be getting more comfortable in questioning him and this was making Joshua uncomfortable as a result. He wasn't used to people inquiring about his personal life. "They're my parents," said Joshua simply. "Why would it be bad?" Of course there was his father to worry about but she didn't need to know that, did she? There was one upside to all of this, however. "Annabel was ecstatic." He was at least not hesitant to give that away because Nell had already seen him with his sister and seen how well the two of them got along. Now she'd have her big brother back and he'd be there on weekends and holidays and her birthday and she'd never have to worry about what to do when she got spooked. She was stubborn in the insistence that she wasn't a scaredy cat but sometimes when there were odd sounds in the mansion at night she'd come into his room and ask if she could stay with him. He never called her stupid or silly--Josh understood that she was probably afraid of burglars breaking in. And really, when you lived in such a lavish home it was a legitimate fear. But Joshua had more pressing fears to concern him.
He watched as the blush lit up her face. "I never thought of that," he mused. He was usually good at recalling what he was told in conversations but the fact that he'd nearly been killed gave him a more than sufficient reason to have let a couple details slip his mind. Nell corrected herself and his lips twitched a little in amusement. "Certainly. Though, money isn't... exactly an issue for me." He glanced away slightly. He was sure she could have guessed that but it was still personal details and thus... "I do recall that you don't like accepting things without paying for them, however" he remarked, and he almost smiled as he remembered the time at Tim Hortons. "So if it suits you and there's something you want, well... I certainly have no more use for it." He had an entire mansion full of stuff to go back to. The idea of it was still giving him a migraine. He had forgotten how absolutely massive the home was until he'd stepped back inside. My room alone is almost as big as the apartment.
Joshua arched an eyebrow at her as she repeated the words. He was silent for a long moment, then, "... you could say they were legitimate, I suppose." No, they were definitely legit. Joshua just had a bit of trouble dealing with said issues out loud. Especially with acquaintances. He didn't even talk to his parents about these things. Shouted to his father about them, but those arguments usually pertained to the fact that Donovan didn't trust his son to have left the life behind him. Friends of yours, he always says. I'm sure they're great friends of mine, they only tried to kill me twice. It's not like we've got issues with one another. The thought carried bladed edges and venomous sarcasm. Why were they after him? "We had a... disagreement," he said elusively, lying through his teeth as usual. What was he supposed to say? 'I was third wheel to a homicide so I shopped them all to save my own skin?' No, that probably wouldn't go down very well.
Nell reassured Joshua that she wasn't out to get him, and he might have chuckled had the mood been a bit lighter. "I know," he said. "You've had your chance, and you didn't take it." That was what he'd meant when he said she didn't have to take the call. She could have been spiteful because of the death threats and told him to have a nice life death before hanging up on him. Some people would have. But not Nell. He realised that now. And he was grateful in his own stoic and nonchalant way. His own family were turning against him--if only he knew what Nell had been through!--and so it felt strange to have an acquaintance care more for him than his grandfather. It wasn't right. But such was life.
There was an awkward silence after Nell voiced her thoughts on the blade. Joshua said nothing for a moment, then, "Yeah." It was all he said, a confirmation, nothing more. He slowly extracted the blade, rather than flicking it out as he usually did. It was silver and shining and didn't have a single drop of blood on it thanks to his practically OCD habits. When he'd gotten it back, however, it had been covered in blood. His blood. Even the thought made him feel a bit sick. He clicked the blade back into place and dropped the weapon into his pocket. "I hope I wasn't interrupting anything too important when I asked you to come here," he said, if only to break the silence. SOMEONE CALL THE AMBULANCE THERE'S GUNNA BE AN ACCIDENT
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Post by NELL DOE DALE on Jun 22, 2011 22:41:01 GMT -5
. tell the world i'm coming home . He shrugged her comment off, clearly unused to talking about it. ”I don’t know your relationship with your parents,” she pointed out. Sure, the ideal was a two-parent home where there was a home-cooked meal every day and lots of hugs and kisses. But that never really happened. No one had a perfect relationship with their parents, because relationships didn’t work that way. His parents could have been forcing him to move back in or something. The mention of his sister, however, brought a smile to her face. ”Of course! Even I could see how much she missed you.” The tackle hug upon seeing him again was certainly a giveaway, though she didn’t think he knew that he had left his window open so she could hear their conversation. Either way, it’s hard for a young girl like that to keep her feelings hidden, and Nell as an objective party could easily tell that she adored her big brother.
Her face remained awkwardly red. Even admitting that she needed anything made her flustered. Because she had to keep telling herself she was doing fine to keep going. Therefore, she shouldn’t need anything more. At the mention of money not being an issue, she nodded. ”I figured as much,” she said. She’d already pegged him as a rich kid. Didn’t mean she was going to take it back. Nell may have been short on money, but if it meant paying for something she actually needed, there was no argument in her mind about paying. And speaking of paying, he seemed to have remembered Tim Hortons. She still blushed a scratched the back of her head. ”But yeah…” She didn’t look at him. ”I do need some stuff…” But now she didn’t think she was going to ask even if she would pay. ”You know what, forget I said anything.” Jeez, get over it Nell! that’s what she had to keep telling herself. But she didn’t know how to ask for things even if it meant paying for them.
Just as she thought, it wasn’t just a group of people trying to be tough—they actually were tough. If Nell remembered what her grandparents had said about the Sinclairs, they had told her that they used New York street gangs as drug mules. All mob families did it. But that was about as much information as she’d get from the vindictive ancients. So she didn’t know exactly what a real gang entailed, but she knew it wasn’t good. And Josh was somehow involved with them. He was evasive as ever in responding to her, but this was the most she’d ever gotten out of him. ”Okay.” Her skepticism carried in her voice. A disagreement? Of course he was sugar-coating it, but still, she knew there was more to it than what he was saying. But she didn’t want to ask anymore. Even though she opened her mouth to say something else, she stopped short. Nell thought conversation had been awkward with him before, but this was something else.
Nell didn’t know of the ‘chance’ he spoke of, because she never saw any chance to hurt him. But she believed him. Sure, she had the chance to leave him to die, and if he’d been truly expecting her to do that it made her feel strangely upset. Like she wasn’t good at being the kind person she was. Like there was something others could see that was wrong with her. Could there be a neon sign above her flashing ‘murderer and petty criminal—do not trust’? It felt that way sometimes. No, she convinced herself, the past was in the past and did not affect her now. She would never hurt anyone again, ever, and her other crimes were merely to help her get by. I’m a good person. And despite the self-help kind of thought, she still had to doubt it. Good people don’t kill. But that’s right, she had to remind herself, she didn’t kill anyone. She still hadn’t come to terms with what she actually did, so the words ‘kill’ and ‘mother’ were simply thoughts without meaning attached. It made her feel like she shouldn’t even be trying to convince him that she was a good person—sure, she wasn’t after him, but still… Nell said nothing.
His one word reply made her feel even more awkward than she already felt with him. And there was nothing else to say about that. And even with the change of topic, she felt uncomfortable. Her cheery tone—for the first time in a while—was forced. “No, actually, you saved me from being cooped up in my own apartment.” She’d have been perfectly content sitting around and folding paper cranes had her father not called. Why didn’t I look at the caller ID?, she thought grimly. Either way, if Josh hadn’t called, she might have found something else to do with herself. Or she might have just sat on her futon for hours while coming to terms with the fact that her father had actually called her. “I really have to thank you for that. Cabin fever and all…” She looked down to the edge of the cushion, not able to meet Josh’s eyes. ‘And all’ included a father she wasn’t even going to talk about. Wasn’t going to think about. But despite her insistence to avoid thinking about it, she knew Josh had really kept her from focusing on her problems.
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Post by JOSHUA DONOVAN DALE on Jun 23, 2011 1:58:25 GMT -5
-i'm coming up on infra-red, [atrb=border,0,true][atrb=cellPadding,0,true][atrb=cellSpacing,0,true][atrb=style, width: 105px; background-image: url(http://dsmy2muqb7t4m.cloudfront.net/articles/roundup_2009_04_27/Layer_9.jpg)] | [atrb=border,0,true][atrb=cellPadding,0,true][atrb=cellSpacing,0,true][atrb=style, width: 295px; background-image: url(http://dsmy2muqb7t4m.cloudfront.net/articles/roundup_2009_04_27/Layer_9.jpg)] THERE IS NO RUNNING THAT CAN HIDE YOU 'CAUSE I CAN SEE IN THE DARK I'M COMING UP ON INFRA-RED FORGET YOUR RUNNING I WILL FIND YOU - - - -
| [cs=2][atrb=border,0,true][atrb=cellPadding,0,true][atrb=cellSpacing,0,true][atrb=style, width: 105px; height: 300px; background-image: url(http://dsmy2muqb7t4m.cloudfront.net/articles/roundup_2009_04_27/Layer_9.jpg)]Nell pointed out that she didn't know his relationship with his parents, and Joshua really didn't know what to say in response to that. It was true--she had no idea that he fought with his father all of the time, that he'd nearly cost his mother her career, that he was constantly being reminded that he had a 'place' in the family, and that if he didn't respect the rules and forfeit his right to stick up for himself that 'place' was in jeopardy. She had no idea of all this. So he said, "We get along alright." He made it sound as if he had your typical parent-child relationship. Or at least, typical in the 'ideal' sense. And really, his home life wasn't as shattered as some. His parents were still together and not really in danger of divorce, they certainly had enough money to support their family, he just... didn't always mix well with his father. Talk of Annabel, however, made him smile for a moment. It was entirely subconscious and he didn't even realise he was smiling, so there was none of the strain on his expression from when he tried to fight off the more serene expression. It made him look softer for a moment, more approachable. Then it faded and they were back to square one with his stoic nonchalance. "I keep having to remind her that she can't attack me every time we run into one another." The hug she'd given him the first time had nearly crippled him with agony thanks to the scars on his ribs, stomach, and chest. Then of course she'd been full of apologies as she fussed over him and actually started crying because she was so upset. He'd had to force himself to smile past the blinding pain to reassure her.
She was quick to turn red and back down, quickly correcting herself and telling him to forget she'd said anything at all. Joshua only gave a sort of chuckle, being patient. The laugh wasn't as chilling as it usually was but he certainly didn't sound happy. More like... tired, worn out. Exhausted. Because that's what he was and he couldn't be bothered trying to hide it as much as usual. "No need to be so shy," he pointed out. She wouldn't look at him, his gray eyes watching her intently and waiting for some sort of a reaction. "I'm getting rid of it anyway, so it's not like you'd be hindering me in any way." The mansion had plenty of furniture and amenities. "All the same, it's up to you in the end." He wasn't going to make her pay if she didn't want to (he wasn't desperate for cash, after all) and he certainly wasn't going to try and talk her into something she didn't want to do. Just in a strange way Josh wanted to reassure her that he didn't think her as any sort of a lesser person because she had less than him or something. And this was strange, because he hardly ever felt the desire to change people's opinions of him, or influence them. When he was trying to get you to feel a certain way about him he was usually trying to frighten you off. This was... different.
He was admittedly relieved when they dropped the subject of the gang. It wasn't that he mistrusted Nell or thought that she'd take the information the wrong way, he was just still uncomfortable with discussing the whole thing. That part of his past and present was very dark and it shamed him to think that he'd once ran willingly with a group of people with no morales at all. How many of the people that he'd helped attack had just been guys like him that had wronged them in some way or another? Probably a majority. The thought made him feel a tad sick to his stomach. They had never really discussed the reason they were attacking anyone with him. They'd just jumped folk and demanded that everyone participate. They'd killed people, too, but he'd only ever been present for that single crime. He still knew of others, however. He was just too spooked to go to the police. They already hated him enough, adding fuel to the fire would be like walking into one of their homes unarmed and offering to let them use him for target practice. An incredibly stupid idea.
Cabin fever? Joshua didn't really believe that, and a single brow arched upward slowly. She wasn't looking at him, but rather studying the couch cushion. Again he got the feeling that she was thinking about more than she was letting on. And normally Joshua would have just let it alone and not said a thing, but the fact that she'd already questioned him a bit made him feel a little less hesitant as he asked, "Hey, are you okay?" It was one of the first times he'd expressed obvious concern for someone that wasn't in his immediate family, and it was clearly sincere as his brows pulled together and he frowned softly. "What's wrong?" His throat tightened, reminding him that he wasn't that great with the whole pleasantries and caring side of relationships, not even with people that he trusted. They weren't even friends, despite the fact that they were at least closer to that milestone than they'd been a few weeks ago. SOMEONE CALL THE AMBULANCE THERE'S GUNNA BE AN ACCIDENT
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Post by NELL DOE DALE on Jun 23, 2011 3:20:40 GMT -5
. tell the world i'm coming home . If he was anything like her, Josh wouldn’t want to say much about his parents. And he didn’t. ”That’s good,” she said, and though it sounded like a simple comment, the inflection of her tone made it sound sincere. Because it was. Well, she couldn’t be sure if he was being honest or not. She still thought that absolutely no one could have a perfect relationship with their parents. But then again, he said they ‘got along’ which she guessed should be enough. People could get along with their parents, it wasn’t outside the realm of possibility. Either way, she was glad he had a good relationship with his parents as far as he was letting on. Nell liked to see that, because of her whole ‘no one has a great relationship with their parents’ mentality. She supposed she was ruined by her own parents—her mother had been the opposite of what a parent should be and her father wasn’t even around. But now you’re getting him back. And she was pretty damn sure she didn’t want to even have a relationship with him. Don’t think about it, Nell. Too bad she thought all the time and too much.
He smiled at the mention of Annabel. Stop doing that, she thought at first because this was Josh and Josh did not human gestures like that. But then again, she wanted him to be smiling, especially when it came to his sister. She thought of how hard it must have been for the young girl, even though it was probably even harder for Josh considering he was the one sustaining injuries. Still, this girl didn’t even know what really happened to her big brother. Just that he returned home one day with horrible wounds. ”I doubt that’s going to deter her,” Nell said with a light laugh. Annabel was probably worried to death about him. She knew how siblings worked, even though she didn’t know his exact relationship with his sister—she remembered what it was like to be constantly worried about her sister because the girl had been constantly sick. Nell wasn’t surprised about the girl’s behavior.
Josh sounded tired—of course, with what he’d been through—when he laughed and she really didn’t want to push any further because of this. He had to have been exhausted from what he had been through, despite how well he covered it up. Therefore her logic followed that she should not ask him for furniture. Nell could be ridiculous when the occasion called for it. But she relented when she said, ”All right, I’ll just have to see what I need…” Which was pretty much everything. Not like she was going to say that. Because in the eyes of the world, Nell never needed anything. She was okay with what she had, because she owned so much more than she ever had before. She’d gotten a life, despite how crummy it really was. The price of freedom, she thought wryly. A sort-of freedom which was much better than being in prison, or back with her mother. ”But I’ll definitely pay,” she said firmly. No, Nell Doe Shepherd—she was finding she liked the name a lot better than her real one—did not take things for free.
She guessed the gang talk was a little too much. Nell really didn’t know if she wanted any more information from him—she certainly didn’t want to pry. Luckily the people she’d met so far were very considerate with her when it came to questions. When they realized a topic may not go over well with her, they backed off. She had to be thankful for so much tact in the world. When it comes to human contact, she wasn’t an expert. Hers had been limited for so long, but it still didn’t mean she didn’t know how to hold conversations and be the nice person she truly hoped she was. Just that she lacked the usual social graces most people knew from experience, from play dates as a child to their school years that she never had. Her father had actually taught her some things when it came to such behavior, sometimes as a lecture, sometimes like a father should. Still, it wasn’t like she knew how to treat the situation with Josh, with asking him questions he might not be comfortable with. So she left it alone, knowing her inexperience would probably get her in trouble even though she was a considerate person.
Nell didn’t catch his expression when she looked away, his incredulousness at her words. But the question surprised her enough that she startled out of her reverie, and looked up in Josh’s grey eyes, at his frown. He was actually asking if she was all right. And he actually looked like he might care. She didn’t exactly know how to respond, just because this behavior wasn’t normal coming from him. He tended to surprise her quite a bit. Yeah, like calling me after being jumped, that was a lovely surprise. Still, it was one thing she wasn’t bitter about. In a way, she was glad he called her. Or someone, she supposed. ”Yeah, I’m fine,” she said with a bit of a sigh. Not an unhappy one, just an exhalation of breath. ”Like I said, it’s just an off day. I’m…dealing with personal stuff…” Even admitting that she had problems was like complaining, and so she let her sentence trail off. She was beginning to wonder if it was a good idea to come over when she was having difficulty hiding these things—even the thoughtfulness she was displaying felt like too much—but she feared if she’d been left in her apartment she might have spent too much time thinking. Thinking was bad for her, and she knew exactly what would happen if she did think things through too much. Her father was the least pressing of problems. That’s what she was convincing herself to stop herself from thinking about it too much. But if he keeps calling, and he seems pretty darn insistent, then it’ll become a big problem…
Instead of thinking anymore, she switched subjects. ”Really, worry about yourself. Are you sure you should even be…doing things with your injuries?” It was hard to imagine him so much as walking when she first found him, so now she was generally worried about him doing anything. ”How long were you in the hospital for?” And she was glad to change the subject from her, even though it meant moving it back to him. Nell then realized the problem with the two: neither of them liked talking about themselves. Though she felt he was worse in the way that even saying simple things came as a problem. And in some way, that reassured her since it meant she wasn’t completely ridiculous in wanting to keep things to herself, and there was someone out there worse than her.
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Post by JOSHUA DONOVAN DALE on Jun 23, 2011 4:41:04 GMT -5
-i'm coming up on infra-red, [atrb=border,0,true][atrb=cellPadding,0,true][atrb=cellSpacing,0,true][atrb=style, width: 105px; background-image: url(http://dsmy2muqb7t4m.cloudfront.net/articles/roundup_2009_04_27/Layer_9.jpg)] | [atrb=border,0,true][atrb=cellPadding,0,true][atrb=cellSpacing,0,true][atrb=style, width: 295px; background-image: url(http://dsmy2muqb7t4m.cloudfront.net/articles/roundup_2009_04_27/Layer_9.jpg)] THERE IS NO RUNNING THAT CAN HIDE YOU 'CAUSE I CAN SEE IN THE DARK I'M COMING UP ON INFRA-RED FORGET YOUR RUNNING I WILL FIND YOU - - - -
| [cs=2][atrb=border,0,true][atrb=cellPadding,0,true][atrb=cellSpacing,0,true][atrb=style, width: 105px; height: 300px; background-image: url(http://dsmy2muqb7t4m.cloudfront.net/articles/roundup_2009_04_27/Layer_9.jpg)]Joshua had slowly noticed something over the course of time he'd spent with Nell. She was constantly worrying about others and asking after their well-being--whether they liked it or not, as he'd realised when they'd first met--but when the topic changed to how she was doing, she shrugged it off. And for once since they'd become acquainted, he realised they had something in common. They both waived their own problems. Of course, Josh just shut everyone out and kept them out. Nell shut people out but was nice enough to them that it was forgiveable. She was clearly the better person, but in comparison to Joshua that wasn't exactly the most difficult achievement. He wasn't that great of a guy. He'd accepted this a while ago. But Nell was a good person, even to someone who'd threatened to kill her, and maybe that was why he was having such a hard time putting a finger on how he felt about her. They weren't friends, they weren't enemies, they just hovered awkwardly in between. He didn't know how to change this, either for better or for worse. But he did know when to leave a topic alone. "Okay," he replied, dipping his head. 'I won't pry,' he seemed to silently reassure her. "Well I, uh, hope things work out for you, then." This time it was Joshua who glanced away, trying to be nice and ending up feeling as if it sounded insincere. Had it? He hoped not, but couldn't correct himself now seeing as he'd already said it.
The topic switched back over to Joshua and his injuries, and though it may have made Nell feel more at ease it certainly threw Joshua back off balance. He just wasn't used to talking about himself or having anyone express concern. "I'm fine," he said, the stock answer returning in all its false glory. He clearly wasn't fine--he'd taken the bandaging off and so the cuts weren't going to heal as nicely as they should and they stung like a bitch and sometimes it even hurt to breathe thanks to all of the stupid injuries, but he wasn't going to admit that. "I'll manage." She asked how long he'd been in the hospital and he decided to answer honestly. "Not very long. They wanted to keep me longer but my father got me discharged after only a couple of hours." He blinked a little, then said unexpectedly, "He owns the hospital, so he has authority there."
He worked as the Chief of Staff just so that he could oversee things rather than just sitting behind a massive pile of money. Donovan had never appreciated laziness, Joshua had learned that from a young age. It was both convenient and a little bothersome having a doctor as your father. On one hand, he didn't have to worry about most minor illnesses and ailments because Donny knew what to do. On the other hand, his rather embarrassing fear of needles had been found out by his father in an awkward moment when Josh had nearly had a panic attack as a result of a standard injection. Donovan hadn't really said anything about it, but the confused look on his face had said enough. Joshua's relationship with his father was strange. The older man would mock him openly about certain things, but the strange and irrational phobia had never been discussed. From the point of its discovery he'd always been very patient with the fact that it took ten times the minimal effort of most people to calm down and suck it up. He always handled any necessary injections himself rather than allowing a clinic of some sort, and he never made a comment about how pale Josh went as a response. Josh didn't really understand things like that.
He glanced around the apartment as an excuse not to meet her gaze in the awkwardness of the silence, and he concluded that he hadn't done a bad job with the places upkeep. Sure, it was not nearly as nice as the mansion--hell, a dirty and dilapidated mansion would be nicer than a shitty downtown apartment any day--but it was clean and organized and there was something... good about the fact that he'd experienced living on his own. It had matured him in a way that nothing else could, because now he knew what it was like not to rely on his parents for everything. Still, there was some relief in the return of his old life. And he would be getting his nice car back soon enough. His father had yet to hand him back the keys. Wait--what if he doesn't? But no, he had to. His mother would make him, right?
Well, shit. What did they talk about now? "Annabel asked after you a few times," he told Nell, almost smiling as he spoke. "I think she's taken a liking." He didn't mention the fact that his sister teased him about his relationship with Nell because that would have made things incredibly awkward. Annabel's only a little girl, she doesn't know what she's talking about, he thought to himself. Hell, we're not even friends. |
[/i] He remembered that his father had seemed surprised when he'd found out that someone else besides Joshua had called in the ambulance. "Who was that girl?" he'd asked, and Josh had merely shrugged. "Someone from school." It was a little sad that even his father was so aware that Joshua had no friends that the presence of even an acquaintance shocked him. Realising that he had no idea, he hesitantly asked, "Do you have siblings, Nell?"[Oh yes. Yes he did. He asked. -dives into bomb shelter-][/div] SOMEONE CALL THE AMBULANCE THERE'S GUNNA BE AN ACCIDENT [/center] [/td][/tr][/table][/center] TEMPLATE BY TAYLOR THE CANADIAN OF AOTE
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