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Post by THOMAS LULA ROTH on Oct 27, 2012 22:04:53 GMT -5
Tom enjoyed Halloween. He was not passionate about it per se, and wouldn't throw a party quite like the Dales have. They certainly went all out for it, with their decorations and the tour and the maze. It was like their very own attraction, and he did tell the hosts that they should consider making money from it. As it were, the event remained a party for their friends. And well, whoever managed to make it through with a mask. He spied a lot of students, both college and high school aged, but there were a few professors as well. Joshua was a student of his, and he had a lot of respect for the guy. It was clear that he knew what he was doing, and he had never shown any signs of dozing off in his class. A lot of his students thought that he wouldn't catch him when they did, but he had the eyes of a hawk and wouldn't be above throwing random objects on his desk at them when that did happen. That is if he cared enough to wake them up. Half the time he let them miss the lesson so they could flounder around with the work he assigned them afterward. Either way, it was enjoyable for him.
As this was not a school setting, he was a little on edge when interacting with students he saw who recognized them. Luckily, a lot didn't feel the need to speak to him, thinking that he was too much of a hardass to hold a conversation with. Which was fine by him. All he really cared about was the fact that after a lot of poking and convincing, he'd managed to pull Thad along with him. Had she not agreed, he wouldn't have gone himself. It didn't seem like a very fun night hanging out with a bunch of kids. Their conversations would most likely consist of yolo and how much they loved the sound of two nineties era printers having sex, aka skrillex. Having his housemate come with him was a much better prospect, and he figured that she would enjoy the night herself. Tom had always gotten the feeling that she didn't do many things like this, didn't go out to parties very often. She was that kind of person that was even more unapproachable than him. Just because of her personality, though, she was a very good-looking woman. Should he be thinking like that? Well, as long as he kept it to himself he figured he'd be safe. He wasn't trying to make any moves on her after all, and that was the important part. They were platonic housemates, and besides, he didn't think she was the kind of woman that was into romance.
Or was she? He knew next to nothing about her except the surface-scratching questions he inquired about, the things that didn't get too in-depth to the point where they talked about their relationships. Of course, he was more willing to do so freely. Save for one woman who was a scabbed over wound that hadn't healed very well over the years. As for Thad...he had no clue about her. Not even if she had a boyfriend ever before. It didn't worry him much at all -- he didn't need to know her history. As long as he was sure she wasn't a mass-murderer, he would be fine. He didn't think anyone could compare to Hanna, whose name he spent years trying to forget. Unfortunately, it was not so easy. At least Farrah seemed respectful about it. He remembered the time in the lounge when she pretended to be talking about a lay in front of the woman, telling him that he should want Hanna to be jealous. His sister seemed almost protective, which was almost strange if he didn't think of her in the same way. For how much he mocked her and said he hated her, if anyone tried to hurt her (which would take effort, for she was tough shit) he would be the first to come to her defense. No matter what, they were still siblings.
His main goal was food, and not because he had the munchies, actually. He just liked food, and he was quite enthralled by the setup they had. Tom threw a smile at his companion. "Look at this, there's dry ice in the punch, is that even safe..." He used the ladle to scoop the liquid out into a cup before asking her, "You want some?" He was trying to make her feel comfortable here, since he was getting the feeling that she may have been out of her element. There was a lot of people and commotion, but he wanted to make sure she didn't think about that and just had a good night. "Do you know the Dales?" he asked to strike up some conversation, a way of making her at easy. "Joshua's in my class. Good kid. Never had to throw a paperweight at his head, and he's smart as all get-out." Even while he stood, he moved a little to the music, making his last-minute costume even more ridiculous with the fact he held a pom-pom in one hand, his shirt reading "go ceiling". "Wanna try the maze?" He asked, pointing to the back with a finger that held his cup. It was whatever she wanted to do, considering he wasn't about to run off without his plus one.
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Post by THADDEA ARYN MELANTHA on Oct 31, 2012 12:28:41 GMT -5
keep your head down low She tugged at the waistband of her dress, staring at herself nervously. She’d slipped out of her room when Thomas’ back was turned, seeking refuge in their home’s only restroom. She stood in front of the mirror now, unable to stop staring – picking – prodding. She tugged again, brushing off non-existent dust from the sumptuous silk of her gown. She stared at her feet, somewhat unwilling to raise her eyes and really look at herself, at what she had done. But raise her eyes she finally did, though it took an army of internal persuasion. She fidgeted, clasping and unclasping her fingers. She knew Thomas was waiting, but too polite to tell her to hurry up. They would be late, which was entirely unacceptable. But she couldn’t quite do it, couldn’t pull herself from the bathroom, reveal herself to the public. A part of her wanted to rip the dress from her shoulders, ball it up and throw it away forever. She had begun to forget why she’d even purchased the foolish thing. She could have refused, could have done anything else. But for some reason, some reason she could no longer recollect, no longer even reason out, she’d bought it. She’d caved.
Her lips twitched as she forced herself to look, to really look at herself. She wore a cascading dress of deep black. It was layered, but light and seemed to swirl around her. It fell all the way to the floor, pooling around her feet. It was tight, cinched around her waist. It emphasized her narrow figure. It was a beautiful material, truly worth the money she had paid for it. The fabric billowed around her when she moved, giving the appearance of gliding – which was exactly what she had wanted. She wore her hair down, falling around her shoulders. She had curled it slightly, loose and framing her face. Her dark hair contrasted with her light skin and the stark black of the dress. Over her face she had secured an intricate, but quiet, mask. It swirled, appearing almost transparent, as if the designs had been tattooed onto her very skin. She smiled, a soft little smile. Despite her misgivings, she was pleased with her costume. It had been years since she had celebrated such a thing, dressed in such apparel. She wondered whether anyone would know, would understand what she had chosen. But at the same time, she wondered if that even mattered.
She’d chosen the Black Swan. It was corrupt, and broken, but strong. It was secretive, alluring, all of what she sometimes felt could describe herself. Plus she’d always been a fan of Natalie Portman. Her performance in Black Swan had been unimaginable, impossible to compete with. Her obsession had been perfection, had been the performance of a lifetime even at the cost of her last breaths. That was what Thaddea admired most, that strength. It was that understanding – that nothing was more important than perfection, that nothing could interfere with such an achievement. Though she’d been playing a fictional character, Nataline Portman had achieved some kind of perfection – at least created an image of what perfection would look like, the triumph that would accompany it. Thaddea watched that movie, again and again and again. She liked to imagine herself, like that Black Swan, amid the adoration of perfection and triumph, giving her last. Sure, some said it was morbid, but that was why she kept it to herself, locked far away in the recesses of her fantasy. She took a final look at herself, holding herself high. Her shoulders were back, rigid as always.
She turned towards the door before she could stop herself. She grasped the knob, turning it and gliding through the door. She glided past Thomas, before he could make a comment, before she could search his face for his response to her attire. She’d gone right out the door, without a pause, without a word. And he’d joined her. They’d progressed without a word, largely without a word until arriving at the actual venue. She’d been shocked to enter the room, to see so many people. She wasn’t a particularly social person. She stepped a bit closer to Thomas. She wasn’t exactly comfortable, but didn’t want everyone to see it. She’d received the invitation. It was only because of her overwhelming respect for Joshua that she’d RSVP’d. Now, standing amidst crowds of laughing, dancing, chattering people – she was beginning to question the wisdom of her decision. She nodded mutely in reply to Thomas, following him towards the food. Most people were dressed far more casually then herself, an obvious sign that she’d once again misread the social cues of such an event. Finally she found her voice. “Both Mr. and Mrs. Dale are in my history course. I must say, Joshua is far more prolific than his wife.”
She followed his gaze towards the maze. She hadn’t done a maze in years. The last time had been at a carnival, when she’d taken Alisander through one. But she pushed this away. Alisander was far away, safe and sound. She smiled at him, a slightly unsure smile. “I would love to.” Well she wouldn’t exactly love to. But that was the proper response wasn’t it? She was still rigid, straight, her Black Swan gown swirling around her legs. She found herself wondering, for just a moment, where the man and wife of the night were, but also found she preferred it just her and Thomas. Just his grins and easy-going reassurance.
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Post by THOMAS LULA ROTH on Nov 1, 2012 16:16:55 GMT -5
As it turned out, Thaddea was a determined to make him look like schmuck. It went without saying that she was stunning in anything she wore -- and he thought of this without trying to add in any of his more male compliments -- but she seemed to go the extra mile. He wondered if the black costume was a tribute to the actual ballet or the movie with what's-her-face. His father had always been fond of the ballet so Tom at least knew a little bit about Swan Lake, enough to know of the central plot and the character of the Black Swan, whose name he remembered was Odile, the villain's daughter. It was a good Halloween idea, dressing up as the bad guy. In any case, she definitely did the costume justice, and he was glad to be seen with her. It actually made him a little worth noticing, though he paled in comparison with his weak costume. He found it was pretty hard to find a good guy costume that wasn't completely idiotic or the grim reaper. He settled with a lame pun. But it worked for him. He let Thad have her shining day because he was just fine being a "ceiling fan."
Even though he was clearly not the shining light at this soiree, he would still enjoy himself. He liked parties, and he was actually sober for this one. He doubted there would be alcohol here, and he wasn't going to look for it if there was. Not that he didn't drink socially, if he was given a beer he would take it. And then a few more. It's just that it felt weird being at his student's party and even coming here stoned felt odd. Of course, he calmed down with his lifestyle for Thad's sake. He didn't want to give her a bad impression of him or anything. But the fact that he was competent even when out of his mind was saying something, at least. While he had strong opinions about the whole issue, he was still respectful of other people. Let's face it, though, he acted like a stoner half of the time. When he was not being a hardass. He simply nodded at the words, not knowing Mrs. Dale well enough to make any comment on that. Besides, he was hella distracted by the punch. Speaking of stoner habits, Tom just stared at it a little, wondering if he could make it on a regular basis. It reminded him of gelato, and he really loved gelato. Needless to say, he was a lot more comfortable here than Thaddea was.
He was glad that Thaddea agreed, though. At least she wanted to have fun. She could have been the stick in the mud that hung out on the wall and watched what other people did. It wouldn't be fair to the hosts if they didn't take advantage of the set up they had. Rich folk, he thought. He'd grown up upper middle class, but he had never known privilege like the people in this area did. He didn't have anything handed to him except meals, everything else he paid for out of pocket from the day he was able to work. His parents raised a self-made man, and he thanked them for that. He didn't want to imagine what it would be like had he grown up as anything else, if he had been one the kids in this area who were born with a silver spoon up their ass. Or in their mouth, whatever. "Great, let me just finish up the punch and we can get our asses lost," he said, tipping the cup to his mouth and chugging it down. It gave him a brain freeze, but he got over it as he went looking for a place to dispose it. He was one of those nice party guests that thought of the hosts.
After finding it and tossing the cup, he took Thaddea's arm in his and said, "Let us go, then." He was certainly in a cheery mood, giving an appraising nod to anyone who turned his way, nodding the pom pom he had put in his pocket since he was definitely not going to be carrying that around all night. It wasn't very cold outside, thankfully, and he spotted the opening to the maze easily. He knew Nell was an Earth student so he was wary, Alfred Hitchcock scenarios coming to mind. But he entered fearlessly. "You know, if you get scared, feel free to cling to me. I'm here for you." Just then a chainsaw revved up and he looked over and squealed. He did not scream, shout, no -- he squealed like a small child shaking his head. "Excuse you." He then realized that Thaddea was there. "Those damn jump scares..." He wasn't really convincing anyone, and he hoped that she could forget it as he continued through the maze, going at a leisurely stroll as if they were going through the park.
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Post by THADDEA ARYN MELANTHA on Nov 10, 2012 13:26:37 GMT -5
keep your head down low She would have liked to be a ballerina. She’d always found them graceful, beautiful. But their beauty was of an entirely different kind than the classical image. It wasn’t that a dancer had the ideal body, nor the most luscious of lips. It wasn’t found in tumbling hair, nor in glittering eyes. In Thaddea’s opinion, a woman could be disgusting by all the parameters of social rules and conformity, yet be beautiful as a dancer. It was all in the way they moved, that utter fluidity. And despite whatever joy the dance might embody, Thaddea always imagined them crying. There was passion in pain, and true it was in love too. But Thaddea had always thought the truest, most abject passion, was found in sorrow – in grief or guilt or anger. It was unbridled, mournful, yet alive. Love could be a deceiving sort of thing. One could force themselves to believe they were in love, without truly deeply caring for the object of their affections. Betrayal was an easy thing. Love, the passionate romantic kind, was a thing of make-believe. If one just kept their eyes closed, they could fool themselves into believing they had all they desire. But more often than not, when they opened their eyes, they had nothing at all.
In a small corner of her heart, dressed as she was, Thaddea could make-believe she was a dancer. Indeed, she’d always wanted to be a dancer, to twirl and bend and be lifted high in the air. She smiled, a soft thing, at the mere thought. She secreted the image in the back of her mind, to be revisited in more private moments. A part of that little flash of a dream, the part where her arms stretched upwards and her feet lifted off the ground, included Thomas holding her high. It was just a flash of an image, a little thing. But a part of it scared her. She wasn’t quite sure when he’d become a part of those deep fantasies. She locked it away, convincing herself it was a thing better forgotten. Even so, she found herself glancing at him, just a quick dart of her eyes. He wasn’t a monster of a man, but she could see the outline of his build underneath the foolish shirt. She had to admit. He had that look about him – of the kind of man who could grip her by the waist and raise her up towards the sky.
She looked back to Thomas, who had raised his glass to his lips. He chugged down the punch. Her lips folded into an amused smile, she even let out a short little laugh. In many ways, despite the degrees assuring strangers of his intellect, he could be a great fool at times. Why would he chug the rest of his punch, when he could have simply brought it with him? But men were oblivious creatures, who tended to act before truly thinking through their thoughts. He tossed the cup, offering his arm. Somewhat delighted, Thaddea took it. She wasn’t sure if it was the atmosphere, the anonymity of being lost in a crowd, but she felt adventurous. Of course adventurous for anyone else might have meant drinking to excess or skydiving or confessing hidden love. But to Thaddea, it meant smiling, it meant taking the arm of her house-mate with pride, and sailing through a ballroom towards a surely unpleasant maze. All things considered, it was an entirely uncharacteristic action. She felt light as they made their way towards the maze. Though seeing the thing in person, she felt a lurch of apprehension. Inside, within the robotic armor she wore, she was a very jumpy individual. But then again, she’d spent three years cowering at the feet of an abusive husband.
She smiled at Thomas’ comment, though hoped not to have to live up to such a thing. She liked to think of herself as brave, or at least pretend she was. She kept her arm loosely in Thomas’. The entire situation reminded her of old English literature. She felt as if she was being courted, taking an innocent stroll. Any moment a chaperone would arrive, would glare disapprovingly at their entwined arms. She smiled at the thought. She’d always been a hopeless traditionalistic romantic at heart. Though it was a thing she liked to keep to herself. She turned to him, the beginnings of something clever on her tongue. “I should think-“ It was cut off by the sound of a revving chainsaw. Thomas squealed, but Thaddea didn’t hear it, not really. Her lips parted and she screamed, not an amused fun thing – a piercing thing full of petrified fear. Her mind was racing, fear overtaking her. She knew, in some recess of her mind, that none of it was real. But the arm that a moment ago had been comforting in hers was now a threat. She didn’t see Thomas, she saw a man – any man – Zachary perhaps, who had come to drag her away, to punish her. She tore her arm from his, reacting instinctively, fear heavy in her eyes. She through out her hands, sending the largest gust of wind she could manage straight into Thomas.
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Post by THOMAS LULA ROTH on Nov 14, 2012 0:59:49 GMT -5
Tom couldn't have been described as all too jumpy. Most of the time he was pretty lax, but he was at a Halloween party right now and it definitely got him a lot more on edge than usual. He enjoyed it, though, the effort put into making this upper class home a haunted house attraction. And well, it seemed like something only the upper class people could do, with all the money they had. It most likely wouldn't have been as entertaining were it at a townhouse with a few decorations thrown up. That's when he was forced to drink just so he could get through the night. Tonight wouldn't be like that, he had entertainment and Thaddea by his side. Easy came relaxation, and he liked to think that she felt the same way as he did. Apparently she didn't feel the need to drink either, and she was acquiescent to going out enjoying everything this place had to offer. An interesting thought occurred to him -- could other people assume that this was his girlfriend? A lazy grin came to his features then. It might have caused some talk, that was for sure. His past affairs were no secret, but not because he broadcast everything. Rather, his sister had a pair of loose lips. At least it wasn't the worst that she had ever done to him, but he did wish that Farrah wasn't so open about his personal life, while he had nothing to nail her with. It didn't matter, really. Thaddea was his housemate and they had a completely platonic relationship, despite what others may have thought. And though he had the kind of attraction that any man would have to a beautiful woman, he made sure to stay within the binds of their relationship.
While he had these thoughts of how Thad must have been enjoying herself, he was surprised at the response to the chainsaw. No, the startling and blood-curdling scream had definitely not been expected. He blinked when he heard it, trying to keep his face calm as possible even when his heart was beating rapidly. What in the hell...? Was she really that jumpy? Tom didn't have much time to ruminate on that because in the next instant she was on the offensive. He knew the impact was coming, so before it could make land he negated as much of the wind as he could with his own, raising his hand in a circle and only feeling the after-effects of the gust, stumbling back a bit. He was lucky in being so skilled with his powers, otherwise she could have done a lot more damage. The man was quick in his reflexes, steadying himself with relative ease. He could say this, in all his thirty-two years he had never had a co-worker attack him. A student, sure, and they learned the hard way that one did not mess with a Wind professor. He had enough control over his element that he could take on someone his own age and give them a good match. It never happened, though, since as adults the only reason two elementals would get into a fight was simply to practice. However, it seemed this would come into use with Thaddea, though he still didn't understand what had happened, why she had reacted that way, and why he was currently trying to figure out what he was supposed to do.
Maybe he should have gotten angry. After all, she had just attacked him without provocation. He looked over to see that some people had come to check out what the fuss was about and he shooed them away with a gesture of his hands. They returned to finding their way through the convoluted honeycomb that had once been him and his partner's mission. But now he had a different mission. Obviously, Thad was upset. He walked over to her and rested a careful hand on her arm, trying to look intently in her eyes. "Hey, what happened there?" he asked softly, sensing that she was pretty freaked out. It was kind of hard to miss after she screamed and proceeded to send a gust of wind at him. He was lucky he had caught that in time, and even then he had been pretty ruffled by it. Tom recovered quickly, though, as he was certainly not as freaked out as she was by the chainsaw. Maybe she had had a traumatizing experience with one in the past. "Do you want to get out of here?" he inquired. He wouldn't mind, as long as Thaddea was comfortable with everything. He wasn't about to continue on if she was going to freak out again over something. He supposed that the scary stuff wasn't for everyone, which was understandable. He had even guy friends who were sickened by the Saw movies. While the professor did have plans on continuing on through, it wouldn't ruin his night if Thaddea was too uncomfortable with everything to tread further. Judging by the surprised yelps further in, it only got worse.
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Post by THADDEA ARYN MELANTHA on Nov 16, 2012 16:43:48 GMT -5
keep your head down low It took her a long moment, minutes long in fact, to regain her senses. Breath had been whistling through her nostrils, through her parted lips. Her chest had heaved, tears of an assembly of emotions pricked in the corners of her eyes. The image had been too vivid, the response utterly disproportional in relationship to the stimulus. This shamed her, deeply. Thaddea stepped back, once then twice – putting space between herself and Thomas. He had shifted her blow, quite easily in fact. She wasn’t surprised. Her attack had been sudden and strong, but clumsy and ineloquent. But she had reacted with pure emotion, with a spasm of fear, rather than her usual analytical intellect. But the fear, the fear was the center of it all. In that moment, Thomas’ fingers on her wrist, her buried fears had risen to the surface. She’d been unable to escape that feeling, the idea that someone had finally come to drag her home. And she’d reacted. But that didn’t justify it, not nearly. She didn’t think she could justify it, as much as she wished she could. She couldn’t escape her own stupidity, couldn’t escape her foolish impulsiveness. It would follow her to the ends of the earth.
She brought her hands towards her chest, sort of clutching them there. Her face was stricken, a combination of grief, guilt, shame and fear. It was an ugly combination, one that made her appear weak – fragile. And this was never something she would allow herself to be, not again at least. She clenched her teeth, continuing to back away from Thomas. Her immediate impulse was to return to their home, to sweep her belongings into a bag and vanish before he could return home to find her leaving. She could run, again. She could flee and search for a new place. She had credentials, mostly fabricated of course, but perhaps they would be reaffirmed by the Academy. She would write a letter of resignation, claim some immediate family trouble or some such sympathetic issue. They would pity her, and perhaps none but Thomas would question her flight. But by the time he questioned her, she would be gone. And he’d never struck her as the vengeful type, the prying type. He’d wonder, for years perhaps, but she doubted he’d ever tried to find her. After all, what did she mean to him? They were nothing more than roommates, platonic associates living in juxtaposition for convenience.
Her features slowly folded, all those mingled emotions fading away. In a moment they were gone, nothing but a memory. And even the memory of them seemed doubtful. She was rigid now, more rigid then she had been with Thomas in weeks. Her head was high, her neck stiff. Her features were a perfect mask of efficient cold calculation. The only strength there was to be found was found in perfection. This she knew. She had let herself stray from the only thing that had kept her safe. And this was what had come from it. The Thaddea who had learned to protect herself, who had done the only possible thing to ensure her escape, would never have attended such a frivolous event. She would have sent a card, perhaps, with polite congratulations. Perhaps even a gift. But she would not have attended, would not have commented on it unless brought up in conversation. She most certainly would not have dressed herself in such foolish attire. The dress was entirely impractical, as impractical and childish as the dream she had thought to live – as the idea of herself as some Black Swan, as a ballerina.
She tensed as Thomas laid his hand on her arm. She recognized the action as gentle, compassionate. But she was in full survival mode now. She forced herself not to jerk away from him, to turn and vanish. She nodded her head curtly, still obviously jumpy. “I’m fine. I engaged in a foolish reaction.” Her fingers lingered over her bare shoulders. She had the urge, as she did whenever she was nervous, to tug at the fabric, to pull it down over herself. Originally, the dress had had an open back – dipping and elegant. She’d adjusted it at home, so that it came up far enough to cover the scar that marred the majority of her back. She tugged now, fearing the fabric may have become jarred, may have revealed her disfiguring mark. She pulled at it, until satisfying herself it remained covered. She nodded again. A part of her desperately wanted to return to the atmosphere of moments ago. She wanted to return to the night where she dreamed of dancing and twirling and feeling like a debutante. But such a thing had become obviously quite impossible. She shook her head once, her voice slightly quiet. “It’s fine. Finish the maze, I know it had intrigued you. I believe I shall return to the mansion, perhaps say my goodbyes.” She didn’t want to drag him away, to force him to accompany her. Perhaps she would stay a moment, watch the dancing couples turn, and let it calm her.
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Post by THOMAS LULA ROTH on Nov 17, 2012 13:47:53 GMT -5
Thomas was entirely confused about what was going on, why she was backing away from him. He had done nothing wrong. He may not have acted like it all the time, but he was a very observant and careful man. He knew what he did and when he did it and how he did it because he had intentions behind everything. But it almost seemed like his friend was afraid of him. Maybe it was because he did consider her a friend that he was so worried. She wasn't some co-worker anymore, he was someone who he could talk to about his day and his trials and his tribulations. Thaddea mattered to him, and that may have been where a lot of the concern came from. He didn't show as much obvious anxiety over things that strangers or mere acquaintances did, why should he worry about them? But when his friend started to act strangely, that's when he felt the need to question things. But no, he couldn't remember doing anything wrong. He had just been guiding her by the arm out into the maze like any gentleman, and the stupid person decided to come along with a chainsaw and make him scream like a child. He had thought that was what made the woman so nervous, and that was understandable. Now she was turned away from him, and that made him even more nervous, considering that meant she did not want to look at him. He was not prone to much anxiety, didn't let it eat at him and rarely had time for stress, but this was certainly a new experience that he didn't necessarily know how to handle.
Now probably wasn't the time to take in the fact that Thaddea's speech was so rigid and formal, but he couldn't help taking note of it. Even in a moment like this, it surprised him to hear her so measured. She was a strange woman indeed. She looked as if she was keeping her body in a steady position, but he decided to chalk it up to posture. One grew accustomed to the quirks and habits of another if they spent enough time around them. And he certainly spent time around Thaddea, enough to understand the kind of woman she was and respect her for that. She was controlled and certain of everything, and that was how he had come to know her. And so this was certainly a new development for him. People are full of surprises. But usually they were like finding out someone enjoyed soap operas or organ foods, not this. "It's fine, you were...scared." He said it after a moment of hesitation giving her a questioning glance. Was that what it had been? If so, why was she acting so shifty with him, pulling away when he only wanted to help? He was just a little bit wary of it all, but made a note in his head not to touch her like that again. Maybe that was the problem, and it made sense for how she seemed to be. Orderly and clean and probably not too fond of contact. He would have to keep that in mind, especially being that he was pretty physical with most of his friends in that he would be willing to pat them on the back or give them a good shove out of friendliness.
She said she was going to go back to the house, and that she would leave him alone. It wasn't too desirable on his part, going through the maze alone. For all he knew he would get lost in there forever. He hadn't a clue about the Earth elemental in control, but he had his suspicions that something shady was going on considering other people's reactions to it. "Doesn't matter, wouldn't be as fun without you." He meant it. Tom didn't see that going in alone would be fun at all, and he'd rather be accompanied by his 'date'. Date as a loose term, of course. "Besides, we already heard me scream like a girl, that's enough personal information about me for the night." It was said as a joke, accompanied by one of his broad grins. He could be charming even in the worst of times. He considered it one of his good traits. I don't even have bad traits. Needless to say that he also had a bit of an ego. He walked back in with her and noticed that there was a slow version of I Put A Spell On You playing over the speakers. He grinned again and looked at Thaddea. "Would you like a dance, milady?" He asked, holding out his hand to her. Dancing was something he had learned from prom in his teenage years, he had learned it from his father when the man told him that he would not embarrass himself in front of his date. He couldn't even remember his date, however, whether it was because she wasn't so interesting or if his altered state of mind helped in forgetting the night. Either way, Thad was certainly more interesting.
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Post by THADDEA ARYN MELANTHA on Nov 17, 2012 16:38:06 GMT -5
keep your head down low She was warring, inwardly at least. A part of her was pulled back to senselessness, to that ease and confidence she’d been consumed by only minutes before. But the other part of her, the abused part, had put up defenses. That part was screaming at her, warning her of the dangers. There were just too many to face, no protection. She was a caged animal yet again, prodded at with sticks and laughed at behind her bars. She despised it, despised these feelings of weakness – of helplessness. She stood, stuck at indecision. And it showed on her face, slipping through the cracks in her cold façade. His acceptance, his willingness to simply let it all go, it was a deadly sort of poison. It lulled her into a sense of security, a security she couldn’t trust. Yet it made her want to say, made her want to reason that she could forget it ever happened. If no questions were ever asked, what would she have to answer? It whispered in the back of her mind, trying to convince her no danger truly existed. She shifted warily, watching his every move. He made no move to touch her again, which she observed with mingled disappointment and relief.
Thomas didn’t even look like him, not at all. Zachary had a rugged look to him, quiet but not the bookish sort of quiet. He’d had the look of a ruffian, but a strong man. Thaddea had trusted him, mostly trusted that he would protect her. He’d been oh so quiet. That was what had really lulled her, dulled her senses to his growing demands. He’d never raised his voice, not until after they’d been married. And without the raised voice, it was easy to pretend it wasn’t mad. It was easy to convince herself that every action was her own fault. And as anyone would assure you, disappointment was far more brutal than anger. And he used it with a certain professionalism, his disappointment. She clasped her hands in front of her, tightly, the nails digging in. Her knuckles were white. Indeed, disappointment was the worst of all. She straightened her shoulders. She no longer had anyone to disappoint, this was something she needed desperately to remember. She was owned, associated, with no one. She was colleague, acquaintance – friend to one. And that one, that one friend, was standing now – saying and not saying that it was alright. She needed that.
Where Zachary was rugged, Thomas was neat. There was a gentleman’s air to him, a certain softness. It wasn’t a feminine softness, perhaps a certain empathetic quality. And he was certainly quiet, around the house at least, but not quiet as Zachary had been. Zachary had been dangerous quiet. Thomas was peaceful quiet, book quiet. He was enthusiastic, energetic, yes – but about things like Calculus, like Wes Anderson films and bad Halloween costumes. He was willing to laugh, at himself, and he was willing to accept. He laughed at himself, provoking the smallest of smiles back from her. Here he was – he was doing it again. He was lulling her, making her senseless, making all the things that seemed important into nothing at all. He held out his hand, an invitation. Her hand moved towards it, though paused – hesitating in mid-air. She’d wanted to dance, desperately. There was something so calming about the rhythm of it all. But what did accepting his hand mean? Was it a promise? Was it a step away? Was it a blow to her own carefully constructed safety? But she had to remind herself, a key fact that wittled her worries away. He’d never even asked.
She placed her hand in his, nodding quietly. A small, more relaxed smile, lit her lips. She looked up, past the maze, back towards the house where the music drifted from. Half of her was still screeching in her ear, screaming really. It was dredging up every memory possible, every reason to turn and run. For there were, indeed, many reasons to run. But the music told her to stay. And she was forced to ask, a question she’d done her best to ignore, - did running really make her any safer? He would find her, if he truly wished to. And when he did, it wouldn’t matter whether she was at the Academy, or in another country entirely. So why shouldn’t she dance for one night, pretend she was the Black Swan. Why shouldn’t she let Thomas ignore, let him pretend she hadn’t broken and attacked him. She could let it fade away. She held his hand, resting her other hand on his shoulder. She didn’t care whether they danced here, amidst a maze, or in the mansion’s great ballroom. She wanted a transition, the transition he had so quietly offered her. “On a bright cloud of music.” The words were quiet, seemingly arbitrary. In reality, they were a line from a famous song – “Shall We Dance”. It had been made famous by the musical, the King and I. Shall we dance, on a bright cloud of music, shall we fly? And Thaddea smiled.
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